This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Hook]
They think that I'mma lose my mind out here
Ask me where I think I'll be this time next year
But I don't care, I'm livin' it up, I'm livin' it up
Said I don't care, I'm livin' it up
[Verse 1: Mac Miller]
Hey, they wonder where I'm gone be at, posted with my chief sack
Seat back, keep this shit together like a knee cap
He's that, bad mothafucker with an attitude
Haters tryin' to play him, I ain't even gettin' mad at you
Fruity Judy spittin', but he rappin' like kiwi
I, receive better than your satellite T.V
Three beat rhymes, that'll give 'em hebegebies
Hoes showin' titties, tryna to get a CD free
Please, grass stay together like its welted
Turnin' down groupies, now they think I'm gettin' selfish
I'm not cocky, I'm just confident
Wave you off, move along, if you not convinced
Got way too much shit up on my shoppin' list
While your broke, doin' choke, tryin' to copy Vince
Hop off the dick, let me be on my way
I don't pay attention, stay havin' good days
So
[Hook]
[Verse 2: Mac Miller]
Hey, as I'm ridin' next to Tree J, speedin' down the freeway
Headin' to the money, no pause, no delay
Racin' like a relay, hear me through the PA
Chief till I'm sleepin', fuck the D to the EA
I'm in this game, no playin' for the pesos
Try and dip into this cheese like queso
Classes never seem to be there when they take role
I was runnin' to my dream, tryna to make mo'
Music, make another song
They tell me they supported, they was hatin' all along
Love greater than the hate that I was gettin' didn't phase me for a second
So lately I've been gettin' kinda crazy, and I mention
To my lady when she stressin' that I'm cakin', it's a blessin'
I'm just tryna to get her in the right direction
You wanted war, then I'm comin' prepared
Most Dope, put ya thumb in the air, mothafucker
[Hook]
[Outro]
"I think I'm having an overdose and so is my wife"
"Overdose of what?"
"Marijuana, I don't know if it had something in it, can you please send rescue?"
"Did you guys have fever or anything?"
"No I'm just, I think we're dying"
"How much did you guys have?"
"I don't know we made brownies..."
"And I think we're dead, time is going by really really really really slow."
They think that I'mma lose my mind out here
Ask me where I think I'll be this time next year
But I don't care, I'm livin' it up, I'm livin' it up
Said I don't care, I'm livin' it up
[Verse 1: Mac Miller]
Hey, they wonder where I'm gone be at, posted with my chief sack
Seat back, keep this shit together like a knee cap
He's that, bad mothafucker with an attitude
Haters tryin' to play him, I ain't even gettin' mad at you
Fruity Judy spittin', but he rappin' like kiwi
I, receive better than your satellite T.V
Three beat rhymes, that'll give 'em hebegebies
Hoes showin' titties, tryna to get a CD free
Please, grass stay together like its welted
Turnin' down groupies, now they think I'm gettin' selfish
I'm not cocky, I'm just confident
Wave you off, move along, if you not convinced
Got way too much shit up on my shoppin' list
While your broke, doin' choke, tryin' to copy Vince
Hop off the dick, let me be on my way
I don't pay attention, stay havin' good days
So
[Hook]
[Verse 2: Mac Miller]
Hey, as I'm ridin' next to Tree J, speedin' down the freeway
Headin' to the money, no pause, no delay
Racin' like a relay, hear me through the PA
Chief till I'm sleepin', fuck the D to the EA
I'm in this game, no playin' for the pesos
Try and dip into this cheese like queso
Classes never seem to be there when they take role
I was runnin' to my dream, tryna to make mo'
Music, make another song
They tell me they supported, they was hatin' all along
Love greater than the hate that I was gettin' didn't phase me for a second
So lately I've been gettin' kinda crazy, and I mention
To my lady when she stressin' that I'm cakin', it's a blessin'
I'm just tryna to get her in the right direction
You wanted war, then I'm comin' prepared
Most Dope, put ya thumb in the air, mothafucker
[Hook]
[Outro]
"I think I'm having an overdose and so is my wife"
"Overdose of what?"
"Marijuana, I don't know if it had something in it, can you please send rescue?"
"Did you guys have fever or anything?"
"No I'm just, I think we're dying"
"How much did you guys have?"
"I don't know we made brownies..."
"And I think we're dead, time is going by really really really really slow."
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
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