Been Here Before

Life treats me so bad I can feel it kick,
Time echoes so loud I can hear it tick,
There’s a twisting inside, I can sense it writhe and shock,
Need to tell you what I think.

I’ve seen the fires,
This world’s a sugar coated rock,
I’m dazzled by all you do.
You listened to the lie,,
Time is such an evil clock,
And at the end there’s you.

I’ve got a whole day’s-worth of things to say,
But I’m afraid you would walk away.
Where will it lead us? Relationship torn,
Picking up mixed messages, I’ve been here before.

What would you say if I told you?
My heart is questioning my mind, it’s true.
There’s a feeling, such disgrace, such immature regret,
Can’t tell you what I think.

I’ve seen the sunset,
Your love’s a sugar-coated pill,
And I can’t believe it’s true.
It halts my breathing;
It’s going right in for the kill,
And at the end there’s you.

I’ve got a whole year’s-worth of things to say,
But I’m afraid you would walk away.
Where will it leave us? Relationship torn,
Picking up mixed messages, I’ve been here before.
I’ve got a whole life’s-worth of things to say,
But I’m afraid you would walk away.
Where will this lead us? Relationship torn,
Picking up mixed messages, I’ve been here before.
Picking up mixed messages, I’ve been here before.
Picking up mixed messages, I’ve been here before.

My head said walk away, but my heart said to stay,
All those lonely days,
Each one sticks with me.
People say better days will come.
Let them be struck dumb!
But I know you see right through me,
Your eyes are like x-rays,
But this drink provides the antidote,
This is just a phase.
I’ve been here a million times in my mind.
I do it blind, it’s a technicality,
Obscures my fragility.
I need time to breathe, more time to believe in myself,
Won’t you come with me?
Let’s run towards the sea.
Romantic fool, they didn’t teach this in school
They never taught me this- I don’t know what to believe,
Too much time to dream, don’t know what to believe,
I don’t get it, I want to scream,
I want to breathe again, I want to dream.
I want to use my Che Guevara wink:
“I am not afraid, I am not afraid, I am not afraid!”

(I tell myself) I am not afraid, I am not afraid, I am not afraid.

But I’m afraid…