Warship My Wreck

Song is self destruction portrait, reflection about self destructive behavior.

Title is - Warship My Wreck - so it paints a picture of individual that is: a wreck which is warship and which is being worshiped by himself at the same time, two extreme different feelings.

So song is about one person but this person at the same time worship himself and is self destructive. This person consist of like 2 different persons.

First part of song is dialog between those 2 different persons. Self destructive side sings: "You're a paper doll I fold you how I want You're not my news"

Another verse we moved to a picture. Now we observe live action of bonding two personalities stitched together by bonding knots, vision of fingers that laid together, because those are same fingers of two different personalities closed into one person. "I tie these knots If this won't be Our fingers laid together"

Coexistence of two personalities into one body or rather mind is not peaceful coexistence. It's described as total war at every level. There is no objective in all of this rather method of this war which bring to mind suffering. Method is more important than winning war by one side. Imagine someone on the edge of suicide and the other part of this person do not want to die More important is pain not death because both sides prefer suffering than death or living. Both parts of this person agreed on this one objective of suffering. War is objective in itself. And war always bring suffering. "This is total war Method not objective"

This person can't glue rules together because he never knew what those rules were or he forgot the rules or he was never learned those rules because for example he had dysfunctioning family or he was abused as child so he never learned proper rules. He is broken. But he don't know that he is broken because he can't say he is breaking any rules because simply he never knew the rules. If he was always broken all life and he never fixed himself then he can't say that he is broken. He never fixed himself and he never will because someone else should show him how. He cant put puzzles into place when he cant see picture on colorful puzzles when he is daltonist. "Cannot say I'm breaking the rules If I can't glue them back together."

It is now time to self portrait. From years of self abuse he has symbolic scars on fingers and lots of bruises. He see them everyday and they are growing. He see himself as wreck destroyed by years and years of inner war thus he is warship, tool of war, and at the same time he loves himself or worship. His trains or chains are crashin' but in terms of word play it also can be "trashing my brains". In case of crashing' trains or trashing brains I think this is portrait of self abuse. In case of crashing chains it is act of self admiration as chains that imprisoned this individual just crashed for a moment. But it can be both at same time as word warship directly is wordplay with worhsip. Then I think described individual self abuse himself and at the same time worship himself. It's like looking into mirror seeing all this bruises and scars, knowing yes i'm broken but I love myself, let's cut myself more or take another heroin shot or do something else that will not kill me but it will make me hurt. "Scars on my fingers, bruises my neck Crashin' my trains, warship my wreck"

And now the finale. It's time for self abuse experience. What this person feel when he is hurting himself for years. Kamikaze is act of suicidal crash on an enemy target. When you are the pilot and the target at the same time then you hurt yourself on purpose. This make you feel dying, bad, hurt, mad. Suffering begins by cutting hands off because those could stop you. Attacking your inner self some way. You do this by ignoring earlier mentioned rules known to society and normal people. You can hurt yourself physically and then feel bad mentally or just go ahead kamikaze into your soul by different ways. For example you love someone and you cheat on this person, you are in abusive relationship, you do horrible things to your friends and they don't know about it. You can think off worser and worser things that will hurt more and more your inner self. But if someone is abusing himself from years noone of knowing rules can imagine what is possible. All of this suffering done just to feel something, anything. "Cut the hands off Then kamikaze into your soul Kamikaze into your soul"

Another strike, assalut on myself - another bomb dropped by myself to destroy myself.

I still stand and looking at myself at the mirror ... ever

You can see same pictures as presented in this war at any Civil War. Go ahead find any on youtube and try to listen this song is perfect fit because this song is about Civil War.

[Edit: fixed typo]

"Cannot say I'm breaking the rules If I can glue them back together" Cannot say I'm doing something wrong if I can fix it

Dark and seductive, I think this song is about a sado-masochistic relationship where both partners are playing similar roles. If there is no structure, one of the individuals can't be faulted for breaking rules.