Peripheral

try to imagine that it's only a game
your best intentions are always clearly in view
though a thick cloud of fog obscures your judgment
even when you need to, you cannot break though
this failed transformation of design
a mechanism forced hold of your mind
redirected within a place abandoned
in your psyche what horrors will you find
in your brain a synaptic pulse resist
resetting memory to wipe the form exist
the base code revealed to react in vain
a damaged mind settling on insane
every time I find my fear
always in my peripheral view
I search the world for a release
but it always comes back to you
the one I can't find in the dark
that has consumed my wasted soul
and time bears down upon my conscience
as I destroy to fill this hole
I can’t imagine an existence without pain
Awake to find it’s another endless day
Leaving messages continue this lost plight
Withholding memories spike my corroded insight
I have to know the reason why
My life is obscured by passing time
And why this fate came to be
And what atrocity happened upon me
Search and destroy the game that feeds my need
To purge this place from corruption and from greed
Misdirected focus this sense of blame you’ve found
Realize your hate initiates a terrible sound
Decide to stay and infect this rotted path
Within a memory of embodied boundless wrath
As time proceeds to decay the framework lie
And slowly your aware of the reasons why
every time I find my fear
always in my peripheral view
I search the world for a release
but it always comes back to you
the one I can't find in the dark
that has consumed my wasted soul
and time bears down upon my conscience
as I destroy to fill this hole