This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
My oh, my, what a g-u-y got me in trouble like a d-u-i
Brain cells booked themselves a flight,
Senseless since you caught my eye
Think this one’s my last lover
She said you can’t fool me I’m your mother
Apple don’t fall far from the tree, take it from me
Baby girl you’re a runner
I swear it’s a curse, cause I meet so many men
And I never found the one
And the city of Japan
Sucks so bad cause I really wish I wasn’t in a rush but I am
If I just took a minute to be honest to myself
I would find I wasn't really ready cause I'm not
It's all a silly game and I’m only talking to the same boy
Cause he’s hot
I don’t wanna fall in love, I don’t wanna fall in love
I don’t wanna be the pretty girl, carrying my mommy lump
I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love
I just wanna be invisible, like a ghost in the living room.
Three weeks into a new romance
And I’m already making all kind of plans
With a new guy
That I met on a flight from Detroit I
Think he’s more my type
Oh mama I’m so terrified, restless spirit gon' eat me alive
I don’t know why, I always find
A reason to be out like a power line
I swear it’s a curse cause I meet so many men
And I never find the one in Miami or LA
Don’t know where they hide, I’ve been searching high and low
Like it’s goin outta style
But If I just took a minute to be honest with myself
I would find I was really ready cause I’m not
I stay breaking hearts I could really use a minute
To myself for a change
I don’t wanna fall in love, I don’t wanna fall in love
Think I’m running out of battery
I'ma need a charger
Right now I’m on the low, Right now I’m on the low
I just wanna be invisible, like a ghost in a living room
Agony is my old best friend
But if I knew what I know back then
I never would have booked that plane to Spain all by myself
Would have needed someone else
On my peaceful lonely nights
Think I’ve been fooling myself
When it’s all gonna be alright
So I’mma put me first cause I never really do
And it really is a shame cause I work so hard
And I waste so much energy
And I only have me to blame
It's about that time to be off my phone
If you have business with me, you’ll have my business email
If you don’t I’ma catch you, on the flip side
I ain’t going to the club, I ain’t going to the club
I’ll be chilling in my living room, like a ghost invisible
I’m chilling on love, I’m chilling on love
I can see you, on another room
Can’t say that I’ll be back soon.
Brain cells booked themselves a flight,
Senseless since you caught my eye
Think this one’s my last lover
She said you can’t fool me I’m your mother
Apple don’t fall far from the tree, take it from me
Baby girl you’re a runner
I swear it’s a curse, cause I meet so many men
And I never found the one
And the city of Japan
Sucks so bad cause I really wish I wasn’t in a rush but I am
If I just took a minute to be honest to myself
I would find I wasn't really ready cause I'm not
It's all a silly game and I’m only talking to the same boy
Cause he’s hot
I don’t wanna fall in love, I don’t wanna fall in love
I don’t wanna be the pretty girl, carrying my mommy lump
I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love
I just wanna be invisible, like a ghost in the living room.
Three weeks into a new romance
And I’m already making all kind of plans
With a new guy
That I met on a flight from Detroit I
Think he’s more my type
Oh mama I’m so terrified, restless spirit gon' eat me alive
I don’t know why, I always find
A reason to be out like a power line
I swear it’s a curse cause I meet so many men
And I never find the one in Miami or LA
Don’t know where they hide, I’ve been searching high and low
Like it’s goin outta style
But If I just took a minute to be honest with myself
I would find I was really ready cause I’m not
I stay breaking hearts I could really use a minute
To myself for a change
I don’t wanna fall in love, I don’t wanna fall in love
Think I’m running out of battery
I'ma need a charger
Right now I’m on the low, Right now I’m on the low
I just wanna be invisible, like a ghost in a living room
Agony is my old best friend
But if I knew what I know back then
I never would have booked that plane to Spain all by myself
Would have needed someone else
On my peaceful lonely nights
Think I’ve been fooling myself
When it’s all gonna be alright
So I’mma put me first cause I never really do
And it really is a shame cause I work so hard
And I waste so much energy
And I only have me to blame
It's about that time to be off my phone
If you have business with me, you’ll have my business email
If you don’t I’ma catch you, on the flip side
I ain’t going to the club, I ain’t going to the club
I’ll be chilling in my living room, like a ghost invisible
I’m chilling on love, I’m chilling on love
I can see you, on another room
Can’t say that I’ll be back soon.
Lyrics submitted by piecexo
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