Vices

This is about how this guy is struggling with an addiction or something that he relys on heavily.

I feel like this could be easily related to by someone who self harms, smokes, uses pills, any drug really.

I can relate this song to myself quite easily. Last year in highschool, I was trying to keep going with a class that I actually dislike but that I force myself to like to feel some fake joy. My parents kept forcing me too saying I am too anti soical. Well, I decided to give it one last shot. Things started better than I expected, easily finding a dance partner for the next year's republic ceremony, getting into a Project team led by some of my classmates. I also fell in love for the first time in my life, it was more real than any other but I couldnt open myself to her. The thing is I accepted the said partner's request without knowing the one I had feelings for did not have a partner, that already sparkled something, to make things worse my partner was trying to get near me too much and I was feeling an immense discomfort. I just started to wait for a sign to leave her out and guess what, it popped up during the first lesson when she meaninglessly fought the teacher and left the lesson, I was embarrased but also happy to know deep inside that I had a reason to change partners. I left her and thats where the domino started, a berating from people who wouldnt do a thing for me before started to rise and the one I wanted to dance with got matched with a even worse kind of loser than me?I just ended up getting matched with her friend.This was followed by my removal from the Project team. I tried to find love somewhere else but it also failed. I just waited for the term to end so that I could have a breath. Now our story begins, the part heavily related to the song. Despite all the lesson course to improve myself with my lessons has been treating me well. I also laid my back on gaming communities more than ever before as I had little to no friends in the World I woke up to every day. But the sad thing is it was hard to live in those places as I would take my anger out of people in chat servers and get in trouble. I was hurt but I showed no sign of it once I entered there and put myself in a cycle that mentally harmed me.

First day of the second term went just as I expected, being soically boycotted my so called friends from class. So one day I was going back home and saw a tobacco shop and a fridge with beer inside. Most may not have told you how does it start but I just want to. It all started with "I deserve being able to lay of my stress" and bought that one can of beer.

Drowning myself every night: Three or Four times in a week I was drinking on way back home and diminishing the smell with a pack of gum, I just started buying and drinking uncontrollably to supress some voice.

Me versus me has always been the biggest fight: If mankind's biggest strength is will, your will against your will is tougher than anything. For my case this happened in heat of mixed feelings with my one side telling me to forgive once again and the other side etelling me to start following my wrath. This also involved my e-life as I would later discover that I was harassing people just to get in toruble and get myself banned to get rid of such waste. But the thing is even I got myself banned, I used an alt to come back because I failed to forgive the past. It ended with all the people I harassed gathering up at once and harassing me, I abandoned thought and removed all my accounts by my will. It was really one me against the other me

I've been so confused for so long And the answers always seem so far out of sight: I tried finding a solution for my depression by seeing help from professionals but even that couldnt answer my issues, I coudlnt, someone who knew how to somehow couldnt. Even telling about it is confusing right?

So I fill it up, fill it up one more time So when everything is wrong at least I still feel right I'm in the tunnel but I can't see the light: I just forget all that has happened whenever I start sipping from my can or bottle, and I just keep myself in the sh....thole by going this way.

I just want to feel whole again So I can let you in: I dont feel right enough to Express my love to her

I've been thinking this could be the end of me:It became so hopeless that I thought I d end up killing myself

Who is this person in the mirror I see?: I cannot believe how much did I fall from what was I once and seeing this makes me feel even worse

And I have come so far, thought I was so strong The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long: I thought a third chance would make things right and I was strong enough to overcome and cons in the life I envisioned for myself

But now I'm on the verge of self destruction: I start dreaming about suicide

I've never been the type to run from anything, run from anything: I was usually a person to stand my ground before all these happened, I just feel like running away to my safespace

So sick and tired of wondering where my morals have göne My father didn't raise me to become this Where did I go wrong?: I used to be a proud student before highschool with praise from teachers and marks, now things are vice versa and I dont even care about things that I would spend so much effort If I was that person. I am slipping into the path my father kept telling me to not get into but I am somehow, I dont even remember the breaking point from trying to forget everything to comfort myself.

I let everyone around me down: I dont care about people around me because I start to take joy from watching them suffer

There is not much left of me I can't feel the ground beneath my feet: I am slowly becoming hollow and being insensitve to my surrondings

And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle Just to block out the sound: Like I said before, drinking supresses all the fight insid and worries for me

God I need you now : I want to ask for help from god but I cant even as I start to hate the entire existence that "let me down"

This is my vice, this is me weak: My gaming community and drinking addiction keeps being a placeholder constantly and I am too weak to face the thing myself

I need your love to erase this doubt I need your hand to pull me out: I try to reach out to my love but even if I make a sound it is doubtful and unready, only she can pull me out of this hole

Sometimes I feel like I will never learn 'Cause the bottle's always there when I have nowhere else to turn Will I ever learn? Will I ever learn?: The bottle of beer comforts me when even my parents start to get disappointed with me and it is the only thing to turn to. I am too afraid that this will be me till the end of my life because I wont learn

I take another sip The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit This can't be all there is: When I was drinking with my friends from summer season there was too much drink which gave me the opportunity to enter the state where I could absolutely abandon this wretched World for a moment, I got drunk and it took all my friends to got my crap together for hours. I know there is a World out there with things more than sorrow and disappointment.

But do not worry friends, story does not end here, follow me to Never Too Late and Life Starts Now by Three Days Grace perhaps one more once this year ends

I feel like this song is about how the vocalist decides to try and overcome his depression and negative attitude of the world through alcohol or drug abuse, leading him to addiction, increasing his negativity on the world and on himself.

"Drowning myself every night" - possibly meaning he 'drowns' himself in alcohol or literally meaning attempted suicide

"me versus me has always been my biggest fight" - stating that he has always had a mental battle between finding out who he really is and by trying to overcome the negative thoughts and depression he has in his mind

"so I fill it up, fill it up one more time" - possibly indicating he is filling up his glass with more alcohol

"I'm in the tunnel but I can't see the light" - he is in such a bad state of depression that he doesn't ever think he will be able to overcome it and be happy again

"Where is my self control?" - he has an addiction towards alcohol / drug abuse that he has no control over himself anymore, it is apart of his routine now

"I've been thinking this could be the end of me" - he's considering attempting to commit suicide

"The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long" - he kept telling himself he was mentally strong but whenever he came into this state of depression he realised how wrong he was about his mental strength

"I'm on the verge of self destruction" - on the verge of committing suicide

"I've let everyone around me down/ And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle" - he's let his family and friends down, with his only solution being to drink more alcohol to forget what they think of him

"God I need you now!" - whether or not he believes in God himself, this is his call for help, he is shouting out hoping that he will be able to get out of this state of depression

haven't mentioned everything, but this is my interpretation of this song. Haven't dealt with depression and negativity myself, and still to this day, I know how hard it is to overcome. Love the song, thanks for the inspiration Memphis May Fire !!

This is my opinion so hate it or don't but i feel like hes going threw addiction, Depression, losing someone, or trying to feel something other then the pain hes feeling right now so people would do anything to feel something other then the pain they feeli like cutting themselves, overdosing or even killing themselves i know for a fact because i'm one of those people whos tried at least one of these things it's hard to forget and you always feel alone i feel like thats what hes thinking but he tries to hide his pain with drugs or cutts all that and believes he is gonna kill himself