Teen Idle

"I wanna be a bottle blonde" "I don't know why but I feel conned" In my opinion, she is saying how much she really wants to change herself. How she wants to be that perfect blonde, and that everyone else seems to live the good life; making her feel like she was conned out of being happy.

"I wanna be an idle teen" "I wish I hadn't been so clean" She is saying how she wants to be alone, and how she wishes she wasn't so careful with her decisions.

"I wanna stay inside all day" "I want the world to go away" This is the stage where she is depressed and full of sadness, she does not want to see the outside and all of the happy people anymore.

"I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake" "I wanna be a real fake" At this stage, she is full of lust for fighting back. She is angry at all of the girls who led perfect teenage lives, she wants to be who she isn't to advance her in life so she can hurt the ones who hurt her emotionally.

"Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle" "Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title" She wanted to be one of the popular kids, she wanted to make the most of her youth and be the prom queen that every girl yearned for.

"Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible" "Feeling super, super, super suicidal" Now, she is losing her religion. She see's everything as untrue, unfair, and useless. She just wants to give up.

"The wasted years, the wasted youth" "The pretty lies, the ugly truth" Realizing she wasted her youth feeling deprived, she sees finally the ugly truth behind all the things that seemed beautiful to her.

"And the day has come where I have died" "Only to find, I've come alive" She now sees that she finally is alive; not having mixed obligations, no more lust for the untrue, feeling revived.

"I wanna be a virgin pure" "A twenty-first century whore" She wants to be a virgin again, but now she seems to feel like it never would have mattered, she would always be the stereotype to herself.

"I want back my virginity" "So I can feel infinity" Not being a virgin emotionally killed her and seemingly affected her whole life.

"I wanna drink until I ache" "I wanna make a big mistake" Now she is going back into the depression, she wants to be the alcoholic that feels nothing and regrets everything.

"I want blood, guts, and angel cake" "I'm gonna puke it anyway" It seems now that she wants to be reckless, and understand that her recklessness will keep her sickness going.

"Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle" She wishes she was a teen, not wasting her youth away

"Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title" She wishes she did most of the teen-type of things, rather than sex and getting drunk to regret her decision the next morning.

"Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible" "Feeling super, super, super suicidal" Again, wishing she didn't push herself to being faithless.

"The wasted years, the wasted youth" "The pretty lies, the ugly truth" "And the day has come where I have died" "Only to find, I've come alive" She feels hopeful to overcome her now wasted youth

"Come alive, I've come alive" "Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh" "Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh" She is so feeling alive more than ever

"I wish I wasn't such a narcissist" "I wish I didn't really kiss" "The mirror when I'm on my own" She regrets going against what she wanted, and kissing the wrong things (People)

"Oh God, I'm gonna die alone" She feels she is going to die alone, for her mistakes in her eyes cannot be forgiven

"Adolescence didn't make sense" "A little loss of innocence" Her virginity should have never been thrown away, for she feels her adolescence could have been much more if she withstood from that mistake.

"The ugliness of being a fool" "Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?" She sees that her youth was nothing like it was 'meant' to be. Sex, alcohol, mistakes; all things she knew were not youthful.

"Yeah, I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle" "Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title" "Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible" "Feeling super, super, super suicidal" She is looking back on her teen years as a mistake.

The wasted years, the wasted youth The pretty lies, the ugly truth And the day has come where I have died Only to find, I've come alive

( But now she finally realizes that her mistakes make her who she is, though she wishes she was able to take them back instead )