Endless Sleep

Stacy the lyrics to this song on her blog awhile ago, here http://sucrediaries.blogspot.com/2012/01/endless-sleep.html#comment-form

You've got everything right but the "so tried" part should be "so trite."

This song is just so gorgeous and sad. Stacy's voice sounds wonderful. It's one of my favorites on the album.

To me, this song sounds as if it is from the perspective of someone passing away Or the spirit of someone in the midst of passing, yet trying to remain, and that ethereal feeling I imagine it to be.

Then, at the same time, it does sound like the story of someone hiding from people out of fear of being hurt, yet trying to fight it at the same time. I definitely know how that feels and this would capture that perfectly..

I am sure there could be so many different meanings. These were my first impressions. Very beautiful, Stacy...

I've always thought of this song as being about a person who is depressed. It relates to my depression very literally so I guess that's why.

'I woke up to a voice Who said I'm dreaming And I missed, I missed everything Oh I missed everything' To me this is like when I first realized I was depressed, the reality that I faced was like I had been living in this dream where I was so numb that I didn't pay attention anything, missing everything. 'Oh heaven, please help me Help me from falling back again In hibernation A century of loneliness' To me this part is like me, present day, asking God to help me from falling back into that depression where I was in a hibernation of sort, a time period where I slept constantly and isolated myself from the world, leaving myself lonely for what seemed like an eternity. 'So I stay at home In my own world' I didn't go to school or really anywhere much in this period of time because I didn't have the energy to go out into the world, I felt better in my own world, where I could just think. 'And I kiss it all goodbye Life never seemed so elegant' This kind of reminds me of how I never wanted to do any of the things that I normally would have loved, I couldn't bring myself to do anything but take pictures, because of how elegant they made life look. 'And so trite, so trite No love, no loss There's only air I feel no pain There's only here' Everything became so routine after a while, everything was numb. I had no feelings, I was just living through each day, I no longer felt the pain that caused my depression. 'But oh, it shall be the end Of endless sleep I must stay awake' I needed to literally stay awake, I had slept so much that I was missing everything. So I decided to try and at least pretend I was happy and try to go back into the world. 'I only want to hear And see what I see' This was really hard because I wasn't used facing the pain and I just wanted everything to be how I wanted to see it again, I wished for the more severe depression to come back over me again so I wouldn't have to face the pain, I could just continue ignoring any form of emotion. 'Why is this all that I can hold in my hands? All these phrases and voices buried in snow' I wondered why I wasn't able to overcome my depression as a whole, then I realized that everything was kind of frozen in a way, I was trying to let go of all these things that I had buried so deep inside of me that they were frozen and unable to get out.

Obviously the artist has intentions of their own. Which Sucre, great job on your album.

But, in my opinion, this song seems like it could be about someone just waking up from a coma. She woke up from a dream and missed everything, not wanting to fall back into "hibernation" only to be alone again. Maybe from the songs point of view, whoever woke up is also paralyzed.

"I only want to hear and see what i see. Why is this All that i can hold in my hands?"

Only being able to see and hear is most of what being paralyzed is. And here

"No love, no loss, there is only air. I feel no pain there is only here."

Her breathing has become somewhat of a calming point for her, no love no loss, only air to breathe.

The sadness that comes with being traumatized and paralyzed is the fact that life becomes more beautiful to you but yet so trite, so repetitive and the same. Even though you are stuck and things seem dull and sad, you find an appreciation for what life is. She "must stay awake."

"So i stay at home in my own world. And i kiss it all goodbye. Life never seemed so elegant but so trite."

Like I said only my opinion. This song is haunting in the most beautiful way. Thanks for taking the time to read.

This song, for me, is about someone who wants to change and find love but cannot bring themselves to get out there and actually change. It's quite sad how people would rather live "comfortably" than actually face their fears and live and truly love another person. They would rather not look at themselves and "stay at home" and "kiss it all goodbye" and miss out on life. All they can have and hold is their troubled past which has long since passed and been frozen like snow. They need to keep living, however, and cannot keep sleeping, so they go about life as normal, only to wake up in the middle of the night to voices telling them their happiness is only a sweet dream and missed opportunities. They don't want to fall back into their depression so they ignore the voices. A very sad but true to life song.

Some of the lyrics here are also wrong. I can't figure out what she is really saying in some parts.

I think its:

So I stay at home In my own right And I kiss it all goodbye Life never seemed so elegant And so tried, and so tried

No love, no loss There's only air I feel no pain There's only here

She also does not say "from drowning in this", but I cannot make out what she is saying for the life of me.

This and troubled waters are the two best on the album.