I've always thought of this song as being about a person who is depressed. It relates to my depression very literally so I guess that's why.
'I woke up to a voice
Who said I'm dreaming
And I missed, I missed everything
Oh I missed everything'
To me this is like when I first realized I was depressed, the reality that I faced was like I had been living in this dream where I was so numb that I didn't pay attention anything, missing everything.
'Oh heaven, please help me
Help me from falling back again
In hibernation
A century of loneliness'
To me this part is like me, present day, asking God to help me from falling back into that depression where I was in a hibernation of sort, a time period where I slept constantly and isolated myself from the world, leaving myself lonely for what seemed like an eternity.
'So I stay at home
In my own world'
I didn't go to school or really anywhere much in this period of time because I didn't have the energy to go out into the world, I felt better in my own world, where I could just think.
'And I kiss it all goodbye
Life never seemed so elegant'
This kind of reminds me of how I never wanted to do any of the things that I normally would have loved, I couldn't bring myself to do anything but take pictures, because of how elegant they made life look.
'And so trite, so trite
No love, no loss
There's only air
I feel no pain
There's only here'
Everything became so routine after a while, everything was numb. I had no feelings, I was just living through each day, I no longer felt the pain that caused my depression.
'But oh, it shall be the end
Of endless sleep
I must stay awake'
I needed to literally stay awake, I had slept so much that I was missing everything. So I decided to try and at least pretend I was happy and try to go back into the world.
'I only want to hear
And see what I see'
This was really hard because I wasn't used facing the pain and I just wanted everything to be how I wanted to see it again, I wished for the more severe depression to come back over me again so I wouldn't have to face the pain, I could just continue ignoring any form of emotion.
'Why is this all that I can hold in my hands?
All these phrases and voices buried in snow'
I wondered why I wasn't able to overcome my depression as a whole, then I realized that everything was kind of frozen in a way, I was trying to let go of all these things that I had buried so deep inside of me that they were frozen and unable to get out.
I've always thought of this song as being about a person who is depressed. It relates to my depression very literally so I guess that's why.
'I woke up to a voice Who said I'm dreaming And I missed, I missed everything Oh I missed everything' To me this is like when I first realized I was depressed, the reality that I faced was like I had been living in this dream where I was so numb that I didn't pay attention anything, missing everything. 'Oh heaven, please help me Help me from falling back again In hibernation A century of loneliness' To me this part is like me, present day, asking God to help me from falling back into that depression where I was in a hibernation of sort, a time period where I slept constantly and isolated myself from the world, leaving myself lonely for what seemed like an eternity. 'So I stay at home In my own world' I didn't go to school or really anywhere much in this period of time because I didn't have the energy to go out into the world, I felt better in my own world, where I could just think. 'And I kiss it all goodbye Life never seemed so elegant' This kind of reminds me of how I never wanted to do any of the things that I normally would have loved, I couldn't bring myself to do anything but take pictures, because of how elegant they made life look. 'And so trite, so trite No love, no loss There's only air I feel no pain There's only here' Everything became so routine after a while, everything was numb. I had no feelings, I was just living through each day, I no longer felt the pain that caused my depression. 'But oh, it shall be the end Of endless sleep I must stay awake' I needed to literally stay awake, I had slept so much that I was missing everything. So I decided to try and at least pretend I was happy and try to go back into the world. 'I only want to hear And see what I see' This was really hard because I wasn't used facing the pain and I just wanted everything to be how I wanted to see it again, I wished for the more severe depression to come back over me again so I wouldn't have to face the pain, I could just continue ignoring any form of emotion. 'Why is this all that I can hold in my hands? All these phrases and voices buried in snow' I wondered why I wasn't able to overcome my depression as a whole, then I realized that everything was kind of frozen in a way, I was trying to let go of all these things that I had buried so deep inside of me that they were frozen and unable to get out.