So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Mou yukiba ga nai wa kono koi no netsuryou
AAH!
Haiiro no kumo
Monokuro no
Kensou
Hizashi wa kageri
Yuugure wa
Iro o kaete iku
Aa
Sekai ga nijinde
Sore demo
Suki de ireru ka nante
Wakatteru
Kedo dou sureba ii no
Dou shitara
Dou sureba..
Baka da na... watashi...
Hajimeru no yo
Kore wa sensou
Ureshisou na kimi o miru nante
Setsunaru koi
Sore wa tsumi
Sakende mita megahon wa kowareteta no!
Sitting in this room, quiet and locked in the zone
Thinking about being together, but i’d rather be alone
Staring at thе darkness, asking myself what’s unknown
I’d rather throw away thе past, but your memories are in my phone
Been taking all the steps, just in different shoes
People can’t understand, unless you see from their view
Been winning this race, so how i could really lose
Don’t get what you want, that’s why beggars can’t choose
I’ve been hiding myself, from this pain
No umbrella, left in the rain
Your laughter, and words, all in my brain
The reason for this i can’t Explain
But i know, i can’t hide
All these choices, i gotta decide
Water filled ridge
And you’re on the other side...
[naite nanka
Nain dakara ne] [Ne
[Daisuki] [Daisuki]
[tatakau no yo, [No Yo
Haato o ute [Ute
Shudan nante
Eranderarenai
Sukaato hirari, [sukaato hirari
Misetsukeru no yo, [No Yo
Kimi no shisen ubatte miseru no [No!
Geigeki youi
Senkyou wa ima da furi na no desu
Koi wa, [koi wa
Moumoku, [moumoku
Kimi no kuchizuke de me ga sameru no! [No!]
AAH!
Haiiro no kumo
Monokuro no
Kensou
Hizashi wa kageri
Yuugure wa
Iro o kaete iku
Aa
Sekai ga nijinde
Sore demo
Suki de ireru ka nante
Wakatteru
Kedo dou sureba ii no
Dou shitara
Dou sureba..
Baka da na... watashi...
Hajimeru no yo
Kore wa sensou
Ureshisou na kimi o miru nante
Setsunaru koi
Sore wa tsumi
Sakende mita megahon wa kowareteta no!
Sitting in this room, quiet and locked in the zone
Thinking about being together, but i’d rather be alone
Staring at thе darkness, asking myself what’s unknown
I’d rather throw away thе past, but your memories are in my phone
Been taking all the steps, just in different shoes
People can’t understand, unless you see from their view
Been winning this race, so how i could really lose
Don’t get what you want, that’s why beggars can’t choose
I’ve been hiding myself, from this pain
No umbrella, left in the rain
Your laughter, and words, all in my brain
The reason for this i can’t Explain
But i know, i can’t hide
All these choices, i gotta decide
Water filled ridge
And you’re on the other side...
[naite nanka
Nain dakara ne] [Ne
[Daisuki] [Daisuki]
[tatakau no yo, [No Yo
Haato o ute [Ute
Shudan nante
Eranderarenai
Sukaato hirari, [sukaato hirari
Misetsukeru no yo, [No Yo
Kimi no shisen ubatte miseru no [No!
Geigeki youi
Senkyou wa ima da furi na no desu
Koi wa, [koi wa
Moumoku, [moumoku
Kimi no kuchizuke de me ga sameru no! [No!]
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