So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I've never felt so sober
I've never felt the low that I feel tonight
Your words made everything drag on and on
I finally found her
And when I did, I just couldn't make things right
Is this really happening?
Oh, God, I think I just ruined my life
What the fuck am I doing?
I can't tell the difference from wrong and right
I second-guess my decisions
'Cause I haven't been this person in my whole life
I think I need something new here
When I keep longing for what I had
No need for second opinions
I do the best I can to ruin what I have, come on
Don't think you gotta go it alone here
I've got nothin' left to hide
You got time, just make up your mind
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right (gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're runnin' out of time
Let's have three cheers for the new year (hey, hey, hey)
Here's to hoping it's not as bad
This wasn't part of my vision
The optimist in me says we can make this last, but no
You ruined my favorite records
Listen to them and I think of you
I just hope you remember
All of the countless times that I believed in you, for what
Don't think you gotta go it alone here
I've got nothin' left to hide
You got time, just make up your mind
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right (gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're runnin' out of time
Just know that it kills me
When I hear anything to do with you
You won't see it, but believe me
I need to be right where you are
You know that I'm leaving (I'm leaving)
And you won't hear 'til a year from now
But this kills me (this kills me)
'Cause now I think that everything's
Everything's about you
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right (gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're runnin' out of time
Don't think you gotta go it alone here
I've got nothin' left to hide
You got time, just make up your mind
I've never felt the low that I feel tonight
Your words made everything drag on and on
I finally found her
And when I did, I just couldn't make things right
Is this really happening?
Oh, God, I think I just ruined my life
What the fuck am I doing?
I can't tell the difference from wrong and right
I second-guess my decisions
'Cause I haven't been this person in my whole life
I think I need something new here
When I keep longing for what I had
No need for second opinions
I do the best I can to ruin what I have, come on
Don't think you gotta go it alone here
I've got nothin' left to hide
You got time, just make up your mind
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right (gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're runnin' out of time
Let's have three cheers for the new year (hey, hey, hey)
Here's to hoping it's not as bad
This wasn't part of my vision
The optimist in me says we can make this last, but no
You ruined my favorite records
Listen to them and I think of you
I just hope you remember
All of the countless times that I believed in you, for what
Don't think you gotta go it alone here
I've got nothin' left to hide
You got time, just make up your mind
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right (gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're runnin' out of time
Just know that it kills me
When I hear anything to do with you
You won't see it, but believe me
I need to be right where you are
You know that I'm leaving (I'm leaving)
And you won't hear 'til a year from now
But this kills me (this kills me)
'Cause now I think that everything's
Everything's about you
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone who gets everything right (gets everything right)
I thought this was what you wanted
Someone to put you first in their life
'Cause we're runnin' out of time
Don't think you gotta go it alone here
I've got nothin' left to hide
You got time, just make up your mind
Lyrics submitted by whcodered, edited by Mellow_Harsher, Fixerman
Out Of Time Lyrics as written by Jeremy Wade Mckinnon Alexander Thomas Shelnutt
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
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made some corrections in the verse. this is taken from the bands lyrics sheets.