This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Stepped outside and i walked to the edge
Toes pointing down looking over the past again
I'm frightened by my urge to descend
Opened up my chest many times before
To the knife of love to the best unborn
I swore out to the night and felt myself begin to lean in
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Laid out next to my still beating heart
I've fallen down inside a caustic crowd
They slip and fall when blood it pours out
They suck it up but it won't decay
It beats for hours, it bleeds for days
Their sullen lives, numbing nights
Holding on to murmurs in life
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
We can fall forever
Filling the night sky
Feelings that won't die
A rush of warm blood
We can fall forever
Holding hands in silent flight
Coping with loss and loves lies
We can fall forever
Holding on to nice tries
Rushing towards the fine lines
Crawl in my life
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Toes pointing down looking over the past again
I'm frightened by my urge to descend
Opened up my chest many times before
To the knife of love to the best unborn
I swore out to the night and felt myself begin to lean in
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Laid out next to my still beating heart
I've fallen down inside a caustic crowd
They slip and fall when blood it pours out
They suck it up but it won't decay
It beats for hours, it bleeds for days
Their sullen lives, numbing nights
Holding on to murmurs in life
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
We can fall forever
Filling the night sky
Feelings that won't die
A rush of warm blood
We can fall forever
Holding hands in silent flight
Coping with loss and loves lies
We can fall forever
Holding on to nice tries
Rushing towards the fine lines
Crawl in my life
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
Spinning out around around
Descending on a forming crowd of sullen eyes hiding knives
Spinning out around around
Their looking twice and slowing down
I really doubt i'll make out alive
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