I Remember

I remember
Flashes
Of laughter
Lunatics
Lost in the asylum
Seductive
Propaganda
TV [?]
Scrolling across my mind
[?]
Ghost[?]
And wooden spoons
Fly's
in the after birth
Shadows across my mind
Smiling but dead
Smiling but dead
Smiling but dead
Smiling but dead
Smiling but dead
Smiling but dead
Crawling on [?]
Fear
TV
Darkness
Steaming death
Corporate consciousness into my brain
[You too can be happy]
[Just buy]
[?] Porcelain cynics
Covered with insects and [?]
The early morning anxiety of grade school
Dark stalkings tide the bruises
The secret friends
festive holiday
And everyone in their
In their Sunday vest pretending to like each other
Generations
Generations of
Loneliness
Sad mistakes
[?] way
The dead of night
To escape
Stiff jawed henchmen and
And the hungry trucks of an angry slumlord
miles and
miles away
patience
and understanding
waking on the side of the road
hissing radiator hoses
crack light?
like burn skin
and day so hot
a nuclear holocaust, what it felt like
a Siberian blizzard
frozen flame
yes
I remember
the first time
i felt it
alive inside me
give up?
turning
with a dead weight
moving
within the folds of it
wing and embrace
opening and
sliding those black feathers
inches at a time
its beak its
its feet
pushing
and pushing
and pushing
I'm digging into the membrane
deep enough to cause pregnancy
i remember going numb
and listening
to it hum
im feeling it move in its
mystery's
exploring me for hours
outside
I remember this
touch
and i know
taste
feel
[?] a chance
there was never
any escaping it
amen
cunts?
and god
cunts?
and god