This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Let me get inside your mind
Lets drive blind folded on highways until we fucking die
Lets cut up all these lines
In bloody suicide
WHAT THE FUCK!
I hate my fucking life I think I need a sign from Christ
Before I fucking slit my wrists with this dirty knife
I'm living In a box, swimming tied to rocks
Crying til I'm bloodshot, stomach up in knots
I've given all I've got it's not enough, then what the fuck
I'm either fucking cursed or I'm just stuck with shitty luck
Pissy drunk, carving lacerations in my arm and
What The FUCK
Why do my temptations do me harm and
I don't know what I can do to keep my fucking head on screwed
Maybe pop a pill or two
Or sniff a tube of model glue
I'm oblivous, I'm vulnerable, crude and indispicable
All hail Mary Magdalan
But Mary is just miserable
I'm a Carbon copy of a person That I Never knew
who never was around to see the shit that I was going through
The vanity consuming you, you know is fucking pitiful
Staring in the mirror screaming
FUCK YOU
same voices and rushes of adrenaline
same noises wishing I was dead again
I'm having back flashes of kissing mamas casket,
(It's just in your mind)
Same habits, same fucking shit again,
OCD and ADD and fucking ritalin
I'm having all these flashes they're kissing on my casket,
Don't you pity me
Mama please won't you lick my wounds
(And my vices)
Don't pity me cause I'll be dead by noon
(I like it[?])
Can you see inside my head is filled with anxiety
Paranoia, guilt, everybody lies to me
I'm overcome by agony, find comfort in my tragedy
Casualties, catastrophe, and everybody's mad at me
That's why they took my family
That's why I face insanity
And the world around me never ceases to examine me
Pissy drunk shooting sanitation in my arm and
What the fuck, why do my temptations do me wrong and
I don't know what I have done that has me staring at this gun
Two steps to oblivion where no one ever pities them
And no one ever pities me
Look at what you did to me
Your just so fucking victim-y
Cause no gave a shit for me
I'm a Carbon copy of a person That I Never knew
who never was around to see the shit that I was going through
The vaniity consuming you, you know is fucking pitiful
Staring in the mirror screaming
FUCK YOU
same voices and rushes of adrenaline
same noises wishing I was dead again
I'm having back flashes of kissing mamas casket,
(It's just in your mind)
Same habits, same fucking shit again,
OCD and ADD and fucking ritalin
I'm having all these flashes theyre kissing on my casket,
Don't you pity me
Mama please won't you lick my wounds
(And my vices)
Don't pity me cause I'll be dead by noon
(I like it)
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
It's cause of you
(?)
same voices and rushes of adrenaline
same noises wishing I was dead again
I'm having back flashes of kissing mamas casket,
(It's just in your mind)
Same habits, same fucking shit again,
OCD and ADD and fucking ritalin
I'm having all these flashes theyre kissing on my casket,
Don't you pity me
Mama please won't you lick my wounds
(And my vices)
Don't pity me cause I'll be dead by noon
(I like it)
Let Me Get Inside Your Mind
Lets Drive Blind Folded On Highways Until We Fucking Die
Lets cut up all these lines
In bloody suicide
Lets drive blind folded on highways until we fucking die
Lets cut up all these lines
In bloody suicide
WHAT THE FUCK!
I hate my fucking life I think I need a sign from Christ
Before I fucking slit my wrists with this dirty knife
I'm living In a box, swimming tied to rocks
Crying til I'm bloodshot, stomach up in knots
I've given all I've got it's not enough, then what the fuck
I'm either fucking cursed or I'm just stuck with shitty luck
Pissy drunk, carving lacerations in my arm and
What The FUCK
Why do my temptations do me harm and
I don't know what I can do to keep my fucking head on screwed
Maybe pop a pill or two
Or sniff a tube of model glue
I'm oblivous, I'm vulnerable, crude and indispicable
All hail Mary Magdalan
But Mary is just miserable
I'm a Carbon copy of a person That I Never knew
who never was around to see the shit that I was going through
The vanity consuming you, you know is fucking pitiful
Staring in the mirror screaming
FUCK YOU
same voices and rushes of adrenaline
same noises wishing I was dead again
I'm having back flashes of kissing mamas casket,
(It's just in your mind)
Same habits, same fucking shit again,
OCD and ADD and fucking ritalin
I'm having all these flashes they're kissing on my casket,
Don't you pity me
Mama please won't you lick my wounds
(And my vices)
Don't pity me cause I'll be dead by noon
(I like it[?])
Can you see inside my head is filled with anxiety
Paranoia, guilt, everybody lies to me
I'm overcome by agony, find comfort in my tragedy
Casualties, catastrophe, and everybody's mad at me
That's why they took my family
That's why I face insanity
And the world around me never ceases to examine me
Pissy drunk shooting sanitation in my arm and
What the fuck, why do my temptations do me wrong and
I don't know what I have done that has me staring at this gun
Two steps to oblivion where no one ever pities them
And no one ever pities me
Look at what you did to me
Your just so fucking victim-y
Cause no gave a shit for me
I'm a Carbon copy of a person That I Never knew
who never was around to see the shit that I was going through
The vaniity consuming you, you know is fucking pitiful
Staring in the mirror screaming
FUCK YOU
same voices and rushes of adrenaline
same noises wishing I was dead again
I'm having back flashes of kissing mamas casket,
(It's just in your mind)
Same habits, same fucking shit again,
OCD and ADD and fucking ritalin
I'm having all these flashes theyre kissing on my casket,
Don't you pity me
Mama please won't you lick my wounds
(And my vices)
Don't pity me cause I'll be dead by noon
(I like it)
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
It's cause of you
(?)
same voices and rushes of adrenaline
same noises wishing I was dead again
I'm having back flashes of kissing mamas casket,
(It's just in your mind)
Same habits, same fucking shit again,
OCD and ADD and fucking ritalin
I'm having all these flashes theyre kissing on my casket,
Don't you pity me
Mama please won't you lick my wounds
(And my vices)
Don't pity me cause I'll be dead by noon
(I like it)
Let Me Get Inside Your Mind
Lets Drive Blind Folded On Highways Until We Fucking Die
Lets cut up all these lines
In bloody suicide
Lyrics submitted by breakdowngasm
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