With Twilight As My Guide

song meaning

I'm bolted from within From long conniving heights The hale, it makes a special sound That always stays into the night

( ☀️he is saying that he is prisoned by his mind , and his thoughts are so deep and go on and on , and they hit him like a ton of bricks, like hail, and his bad thoughts follow him everywhere he goes even at night when he sleeps they haunt his dreams and in the morning when he is awake they haunt his life☀️

She tells me I'm not capable Of what they accuse me With no remorse I stand and say That guilt is what I plead

☀️his mom being in denial of his ilness, and the things she has seen happen because of his ilness, and he wants her to know it is real, and he isnt sorry for the things he has done because he didnt know how to control it, and she judges him without understanding him ☀️

My devil makes me dream Like no other mortal dreams ☀️he is referring to his illness as the devil , and saying he thinks ,feels, sees and hears things that no other human could understand or imagine☀️

With a blank eye corner

☀️he is saying he does not cry , the corners of his eyes are blank not red, meaning he doesn't cry☀️

The only way to see him In the tunnel where he slept By the longest tusk of corridors

☀️he is talking about being prisoned by his ilness and not wanting to come out of his room, so the only way you can see him is if you go to him, also could refer to as a mental hospital☀️

Numb below the neck ☀️he has no emotions☀️

In my heart

Where he keeps them in A vault of devil daughters ☀️he is sayig that normal people see mentally ill people as bad or evil , but he keeps them in his heart and feels for them, also could refer to as a broken heart☀️

When I bend and kick in form With twilight as my guide ☀️he is trying to beat his ilness , but at the end of the day his ilness controls his life, and it's all he knows.. twilight= ilnesses bc of how dark it is☀️

In every home the ghost pays gossip You can hear them if you try ☀️his loved ones try to whisper and be unseen and unheard as they talk badly about him and his ilnesses, and he tries to block it out... also could refer to as the voices in his head☀️

When my quill begins to squirm From the ashes in your urn Your deviance is anything but faithful ☀️his mind is pondering death, and paranoia but he knows his negative paranoid thoughts arnt real and his mind is playing tricks on him or it could mean that he is suicidal, but he knows he wont actually do it ...his mind is deceiving him ☀️

Everybody In my dead leaves ☀️everybody leaves him like he is nothing and then he is dead to them. they forget him☀️

Don't you hide these Branches waiting ☀️his family trying to avoid his ilness as they wait for him to get better, branches = , family tree, family☀️

I've been watching You four, two me ☀️he sees and understand people from all angles, but they only see two sides of him the good and the bad☀️

Don't resign me I'm not waiting ☀️he is saying dont leave me ,even tho i push you away , but the only reason i do it is because im afraid you will leave and im not gonna stick around just for u to leave☀️

☀️☀️☀️☀️this song is about living with mental illnesses, and being a sociopath and how it makes you do things you wouldn't normally do, and think things no one can understand, but while you do these things you feel no remorse , or sadness for what you have done because of your mental illness, and how everyone leaves him because they only see 2 sides of him the good and the bad, and he wants people to give him a chance☀️☀️☀️

sounds good, but i think it's

"I've been watching you fall to me don't desert me i'm not waiting"

"I'm bolted from within from long conniving heights the hail, it makes a special sound that always stays into the night"

Sounds like a first person account of someone who has committed evil deeds and is now locked in a "prison" where his lies won't be given any merit. The storm of events in the aftermath of the evil deeds creates "hail" in the mind of the prisoner that pounds away until he falls asleep. Seems like its soothing though.

"She tells me I'm not capable of what they accuse me with no remorse I stand and say that guilt is what I plead"

Pretty self explanatory...

"My devil makes me dream like no other mortal dreams with a blank eye corner"

The evil deeds he's done are "his devil" and he gets such a rush from doing those things that he feels no remorse and the blank eye corner is an eye without tears being shed.

"The only way to see him in the tunnel where he slept by the longest tusk of corridors numb below the neck"

I'm not positive about this one but it seems like the message is that if you dance with the devil the only way you'll continue to do so is to sacrifice all freedom. A tusk of corridors just sounds like a jail hallway to me...could be totally wrong. You sacrifice your body to the evil and it controls it, leaving you with a "numb" body.

This is just my interpratation and I could be completely off. I'll add more when I've analyzed the lyrics longer.

Very shadowy. It reminds me of schizophrenia, not because the lyrics, just because the melody. Coukd be about demons, or gnostic doctrines.

Kingbonester is right, they should change it.

this song is so beautiful

from "everybody" to "i'm not waiting" most beautiful minute of music

love the double vocals

Truly a beautiful song, I almost wish I hadn't heard it early. Cedric's vocal range is exhibited so well in this song. I love how the pitch goes up every two syllables when he sings: "The only way to see him in the tunnel where he slept". The harmony throughout the song is just amazing... perfect.

I think it's too early to try to put meaning to it because AFAIK we don't know the inspiration behind this album yet. Honestly I wouldn't know where to start either.

One thing I've heard people say is that this is the "Televators" of Octahedron. I did noticed that at the end of this track you hear that 'up and down hum' (sounds like an airplane engine hum almost) that you can also hear at the end of "Televators" and in "Take The Veil Cerpin Taxt". The organ part reminds me of something from "Cygnus...Vismund Cygnus". There is almost a ghost of those two albums in the end there.

Great song, I'm really looking forward to the rest of the album.

When my quill begins to squirm From the ashes in your urn Your deviance is anything but faithful

This is Cedric's most beautiful singing ever committed to album.

As for the rest of the album, I've had a chance to hear the entire thing, and I have a good idea of what it might be about. But I don't know if I should say anything and possibly colour your first listen.

The first verse sounds like its coming from Jesus as if he is on the cross

'I'm bolted from within from long conniving heights the hail, it makes a special sound that always stays into the night'

i think the hail is referring to the carrier wave of tryptamines, that intense hummmming that gets louder as you breakthrough into conniving heights (you know-mushrooms, ayahuasca, dmt, whatever). I mean their obviously into shamanism, its all over their music. just look at Ilyenas lyrics lol