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I would never have been in such a rush
I would never have tried to control
I would never have worn such 'fear lenses'
I would never have held on so tightly
I would have kept my boundaries set
My loving no’s, my unwavering yes’s
Risked abandonment and stood by that
And thereby felt constant connect
This fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty-twenty
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
I would’ve gone slower
Pushed infrequent
Would not have rushed into such commitment
I would’ve shown restraint as my feet got wet
I would’ve baby-stepped into intimate
This fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty-twenty
This torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
I would’ve known much more
Known that time was all we had for future depth to unfold
I would’ve had more faith at every step
I would’ve kept intact through the whole process
Oh this fountain of regret is looking back with twenty-twenty
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know
I would never have tried to control
I would never have worn such 'fear lenses'
I would never have held on so tightly
My loving no’s, my unwavering yes’s
Risked abandonment and stood by that
And thereby felt constant connect
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
Pushed infrequent
Would not have rushed into such commitment
I would’ve shown restraint as my feet got wet
I would’ve baby-stepped into intimate
This torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
Known that time was all we had for future depth to unfold
I would’ve had more faith at every step
I would’ve kept intact through the whole process
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know
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I love this song! im shocked that no one has commented!!
but it's amazing! xx
I love this song! im shocked that no one has commented!!
but it's amazing! xx
I think this song is about her getting into a realationship and knowing that it wouldn't work out and she stays anyway. It ends and now she's mad at herself. She tried to leave hence "I would have kept my boundaries set risked abondment and stood by that. All this talk of boundaries , abondement, remorse, going slow, fountain of regret. She rushed into something and it did not work..Torturous hindsight. she looks back and just cringes. If u keep kicking urself in the ass ur going to have a really BIG wound..that's my advice.
Al has done numerous tunes examining "codependent enmeshment" (Google Pia Mellody) from different perspectives, including "Not the Doctor," "Precious Illusions," "You Owe Me Nothing in Return," "Fear of Bliss" and "Bent 4 U."
Dominance and submission (a.k.a. "control") issues are regular fair in her journal work. All of the mentioned tunes (and this one) smack of directly targeted messages to various intimates along the way, though "20/20" positively aches with regret for having expressed insecurity as perfectionistic insistence.
Al has shown herself to be =very= perfectionistically insistent =intra=personally, so it's probably no surprise that she may find herself to be thus =inter=personally.
Or, of course, she may simply be writing a commentary about what she sees others do. It wouldn't be the first time her work has been misunderstood to be autobiographical when it actually isn't. Coming on the heels of the Ryan Reynolds heartbreaker, however...