This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
See and observe, written in these words, sick and absurd
Don't waste your breath on me
Jealous and fake, spineless and wormlike, I wish you death
Rot should the flesh that's weak
Why are you making me hate? Constantly feel hate, you are the seed
Waste is the fruit you bring
Your life should be taken in vain, endlessly feel pain
Bleed all you bleed, hide from the eyes of hate
Spending time judging others, what are you?
Sick hearted, ill-minded
Self content, you insult me in your words
Backstabbing, ass kisser
Leech-like, lap dog, puppet, parasitic
Boastful, selfish, cocky, egotistic
In your path, self-made ruins, crush your life
Resented Unwanted
On your knees, blood intended, know your peace
Cold blooded, no mercy
Blled, cruelty, hatred, inhuman blood thirsty
Die slowly, suffer, vomit you out!
This time it's war, bastard
I declare war, no feelings unspoken
Unbreakable hatred, hostility, endlessly suffering
Pulverizing sick flesh, tenderizing, me laughing, you screaming
Disintegrate, like shit, blowing away
So much hate for your kind
Fuck you, deadly sick of insults, spreading lies, you liar
Talk that shit you fucker, vomit you out
Masochistic, murderous, terrorizing, retribution
Acts of cruelty, wrathful vengeance, smash your backbone
So deserving!
Unladylike apology, go fuck yourself, you don't mean shit to me
Amusingly intimidate, humiliate, yellow runs down your back
Conceivable ungodliness, impurity, death is the offering
Insensitive, I terminate, dismemberment,
Breaking off all your bones
Cold brutalizing, maiming, ripping you limb from limb
Sick mutilation, killing, chopping you into chunks
Annihilation, destroy, 'til there is nothing left
Death tramatizing, deceased, never to bother me
Never to bother me! Vomit you out of me!
Don't waste your breath on me
Jealous and fake, spineless and wormlike, I wish you death
Rot should the flesh that's weak
Why are you making me hate? Constantly feel hate, you are the seed
Waste is the fruit you bring
Your life should be taken in vain, endlessly feel pain
Bleed all you bleed, hide from the eyes of hate
Spending time judging others, what are you?
Sick hearted, ill-minded
Self content, you insult me in your words
Backstabbing, ass kisser
Leech-like, lap dog, puppet, parasitic
Boastful, selfish, cocky, egotistic
In your path, self-made ruins, crush your life
Resented Unwanted
On your knees, blood intended, know your peace
Cold blooded, no mercy
Blled, cruelty, hatred, inhuman blood thirsty
Die slowly, suffer, vomit you out!
This time it's war, bastard
I declare war, no feelings unspoken
Unbreakable hatred, hostility, endlessly suffering
Pulverizing sick flesh, tenderizing, me laughing, you screaming
Disintegrate, like shit, blowing away
So much hate for your kind
Fuck you, deadly sick of insults, spreading lies, you liar
Talk that shit you fucker, vomit you out
Masochistic, murderous, terrorizing, retribution
Acts of cruelty, wrathful vengeance, smash your backbone
So deserving!
Unladylike apology, go fuck yourself, you don't mean shit to me
Amusingly intimidate, humiliate, yellow runs down your back
Conceivable ungodliness, impurity, death is the offering
Insensitive, I terminate, dismemberment,
Breaking off all your bones
Cold brutalizing, maiming, ripping you limb from limb
Sick mutilation, killing, chopping you into chunks
Annihilation, destroy, 'til there is nothing left
Death tramatizing, deceased, never to bother me
Never to bother me! Vomit you out of me!
Lyrics submitted by DreamingInTheÆther
Add your thoughts
Log in now to tell us what you think this song means.
Don’t have an account? Create an account with SongMeanings to post comments, submit lyrics, and more. It’s super easy, we promise!
More Featured Meanings
The Night We Met
Lord Huron
Lord Huron
Dreamwalker
Silent Planet
Silent Planet
I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
When We Were Young
Blink-182
Blink-182
This is a sequel to 2001's "Reckless Abandon", and features the band looking back on their clumsy youth fondly.
Punchline
Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran sings about missing his former partner and learning important life lessons in the process on “Punchline.” This track tells a story of battling to get rid of emotions for a former lover, whom he now realized might not have loved him the same way. He’s now caught between accepting that fact and learning life lessons from it and going back to beg her for another chance.
Head > Heels
Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran
“Head > Heels” is a track that aims to capture what it feels like to experience romance that exceeds expectations. Ed Sheeran dedicates his album outro to a lover who has blessed him with a unique experience that he seeks to describe through the song’s nuanced lyrics.