This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I don't read, yeah, I just guess
As the world turns
Don't bother me with your messs
I'm trying to do my best
Get my head up out the stress
When the money turns the world
Your lovin' turns to less
I learn by mistakes
Most of it is yours and
I'm done living life as a criminal
I thought I'd die young just to please the old
Now I teach the young, I'm victorial
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
The war in me makes a warrior
Like a pitbull gettin' with a terrior
I'm better off in North Korea
Yeah, droppin' from a barrel of a carrier
Coz I got enough to be more
It's hard enough to get more
I shut the door on everything
Just to let my head blow
Coz I got enough to be more
It's hard enough to get more
I shut the door on everything
Just to let my head blow
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
Picture this, a dull grey street in the train
Neon signs gonna shine though
Shorty you gonna shine though
Come up on ya treasure trove
Like the sun explode
Check up in the paper
In the mirror for ya horoscope
Walking on a tightrope
Go for something, I don't even know
Where to get it from
Sending out a signal
Smoke from a gun blow
As I knock off knock off
Things that I don't want.
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
As the world turns
Don't bother me with your messs
I'm trying to do my best
Get my head up out the stress
When the money turns the world
Your lovin' turns to less
I learn by mistakes
Most of it is yours and
I'm done living life as a criminal
I thought I'd die young just to please the old
Now I teach the young, I'm victorial
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
The war in me makes a warrior
Like a pitbull gettin' with a terrior
I'm better off in North Korea
Yeah, droppin' from a barrel of a carrier
Coz I got enough to be more
It's hard enough to get more
I shut the door on everything
Just to let my head blow
Coz I got enough to be more
It's hard enough to get more
I shut the door on everything
Just to let my head blow
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
I'd rather go on,
Go up and down
Turn myself all around
Then to stay down
Picture this, a dull grey street in the train
Neon signs gonna shine though
Shorty you gonna shine though
Come up on ya treasure trove
Like the sun explode
Check up in the paper
In the mirror for ya horoscope
Walking on a tightrope
Go for something, I don't even know
Where to get it from
Sending out a signal
Smoke from a gun blow
As I knock off knock off
Things that I don't want.
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
Nanananananananana
Nanananananana
Lyrics submitted by lalunacreciente
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seems like the voice of a third world kid. she planned it, and it works.
this song is really beautiful, very poetic and the music is lovely! it sends chills down my spine listening to this one.
Is the "I don't read, I just guess" a reference to "Wrote for Luck" by the Happy Mondays? I hope-- I'd love to hear them get a well-deserved shout :-)
I just thought "I don't read I just guess" means that the subject of the song is illiterate. Also I thought she was saying "vitriol" as in a kind of acid not "victorial" which I dont' think is a word
I think this song is inspirational. The idea of making something of yourself (no matter what your circumstances are) is pretty motivating. She's living proof of that.
I think this song is inspirational. The idea of making something of yourself (no matter what your circumstances are) is pretty motivating. She's living proof of that.
I don't think she's saying "vitriol" or "victorial". Sounds like she's saying "I'm a victory, y'all." Anyway, love this song!
I think it's "I'm vitriol".