This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
We like, fuck a hush on the bus the rush
acting mad dumb singing bum-stiggedy bum
plus we was mad young, I remember acting a fool
we laughing at the monkeys fucking at Burnet Park Zoo
yo it was crazy cool raising hell at West Street school
forget what the teacher said, yo, we made our own rules
remember back in the days carving names in desks
not even knowing six years later I would see your death
we was just little kids doing childish shit
til we got to middle school and got wild and shit
and that's when we started chasing girls not even thinking about grades
we was in a new world, our visions started to fade
we was still homeboys acting out and such
even though we didn't hang out as much
I told myself I'd never cry
I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
but now I'm asking myself why
cause I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
And now we in the High School
small fish in the lake
we study trying to keep it real
staying far from the fake
its funny how the first month of school started to fly
before I knew it your life was gone in the blink of an eye
and now I'm stuck in denial
this shit can't be
God tell me why you had to take Noah from me
Why the fuck you had to go and take Noah from me?
I told myself I'd never cry
I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
but now I'm asking myself why
cause I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
School was crazy then the next day,
i didn't think I would last
seeing phone bitches trying to get the fuck out of class
now I tried to play hard until I lost my cool
that's when I ran to a stall to shed a tear or two
or three or four
I broke down and cried puddles
now everytime I see your picture, my anger doubles
and everytime I see your picture, my anger doubles
I told myself I'd never cry
I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
and now I'm asking myself why
cause I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
acting mad dumb singing bum-stiggedy bum
plus we was mad young, I remember acting a fool
we laughing at the monkeys fucking at Burnet Park Zoo
yo it was crazy cool raising hell at West Street school
forget what the teacher said, yo, we made our own rules
remember back in the days carving names in desks
not even knowing six years later I would see your death
we was just little kids doing childish shit
til we got to middle school and got wild and shit
and that's when we started chasing girls not even thinking about grades
we was in a new world, our visions started to fade
we was still homeboys acting out and such
even though we didn't hang out as much
I told myself I'd never cry
I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
but now I'm asking myself why
cause I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
And now we in the High School
small fish in the lake
we study trying to keep it real
staying far from the fake
its funny how the first month of school started to fly
before I knew it your life was gone in the blink of an eye
and now I'm stuck in denial
this shit can't be
God tell me why you had to take Noah from me
Why the fuck you had to go and take Noah from me?
I told myself I'd never cry
I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
but now I'm asking myself why
cause I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
School was crazy then the next day,
i didn't think I would last
seeing phone bitches trying to get the fuck out of class
now I tried to play hard until I lost my cool
that's when I ran to a stall to shed a tear or two
or three or four
I broke down and cried puddles
now everytime I see your picture, my anger doubles
and everytime I see your picture, my anger doubles
I told myself I'd never cry
I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
and now I'm asking myself why
cause I know, I know know why
I never even said goodbye
Lyrics submitted by noone1111111111111111111
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he had a friend die in a car crash when he was a freshman, thats what i heard. could be wrong.