"Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one to hold the gun"
I think this song is about her putting an end to a relationship that's not good for her. It doesn't seem like he's going to be the one who will let go, maybe she was counting on that to move on, so now she's going to have no one to blame for her broken heart but herself, and pull the trigger on the relationship, which can be an empowering thing, if not completely devastating, and I think that's why she feels it all. When she 'holds the gun,' the ability to be wild and free is within her grasp, but at the same time, she's going to be heartbroken. She knows it's time to move on, though. She's loved him too much and too long that maybe it's gotten in the way of her own happiness, her own life, and now she realizes she has to somehow break free, rediscover herself and her worth by being alone (sometimes more is less). It's the complex dynamics of relationships, "I know more than I knew before" vs. "I don't know what I knew before" that defines feeling it all. She knows it has to end, because she doesn't know his love is true. And the millions of other questions that go along with those two statements.
This is probably the saddest song I've ever listened to, in all honestly. What a broken heart.
goldenblind221on July 18, 2009 Link
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