I Fell in Love with a Dead Boy

This song means so much to me. I'm in love with one of my best friends, and for a while, he and I were sort of dating. But he's a very damaged person, and it just causes him too much pain to be in a relationship. He told me he's basically dead inside. I'm also bipolar, so I'm constantly battling depression, and he's one of the only people in the world who makes me feel better. I want to take away the pain from him, and bring him back to life, but I don't know how.

This song means so much to me. I'm in love with one of my best friends, and for a while, he and I were sort of dating. But he's a very damaged person, and it just causes him too much pain to be in a relationship. He told me he's basically dead inside. I'm also bipolar, so I'm constantly battling depression, and he's one of the only people in the world who makes me feel better. I want to take away the pain from him, and bring him back to life, but I don't know how.

@ jade obviously this band plays deeply with transgender issues and emotions, when I first heard the song I assumed it was about a transgender person. Meaning the "boy" is dead, but the "girl" lives on? I could be wrong, thats just what I picked up anyway

I saw a video on YouTube, taken by an audience member, of Antony performing this song live. Antony introduced the song, saying that in the early nineties he was in love with a singer. The singer was hiv positive, and back in those days that was like having a "death sentence". They eventually broke up, but this situation was what prompted Antony to write this song.

Antony fell in love with a dead boy, and I fell in love with a gay man... well, at least his music ;) I think the "are you a girl" part is adding a slightly straight, or at least bisexual, spin to this gay song, since "beautiful" is generally applied only to men who have childlike, vulnerable faces that give them a somewhat feminine appearance, so it's like he's saying the boy was so beautiful he looked like a girl. This song kinda reminds of a guy I knew a couple of years ago who was one of my best friends but also had a huge crush on me. When I first met him, he was totally ostracized by cruel middle school society; he had almost no friends, and he was not a happy person ("I find you with tears in your eyes"); I wanted to be one less bully to him, so I made a serious effort to see through his awful reputation, really get to know him and eventually become one of his only good friends ("...held your hand"). But life soon sent us separate ways, and I realized too late that I had similar feelings for him. I recently found out that he (unsuccessfully) attempted suicide, and I have reason to believe it had more than a little to do with me. Since our (geographical) separation (and after his suicide attempt), we have both hurt each other in various little ways, and I see now how much he has changed since we were friends. Even though he's still alive and I still miss him, he's as good as dead to me now because I know that even if we could be together again, it would be impossible to share again the friendship and trust we had before. Since I realized both my feelings for him and the growing invisible wall between us at around the same time , it's like I fell in love with a dead boy because he is no longer the boy I came to love: that boy no longer exists. Most of my close current friends know this story even though they never met him ("Now I'll tell all my friends/I fell in love with a dead boy"), and I wish my parents, who have prohibited me from talking to him, could have understood what a great guy he used to be ("Now I'll tell my family/I wish you could have met him"). Sometimes I think about things I should have said to him when I had the chance ("Now I throw bottles out to sea"), and I know I will never forget him ("No one's gonna take you away from me"). Well, tmi... But this is a beautiful song nonetheless. I <3 Antony

It's Antony's homage to Leigh Bowery.

amazing song

and amazing voice also...

This song means so much to me. I'm in love with one of my best friends, and for a while, he and I were sort of dating. But he's a very damaged person, and it just causes him too much pain to be in a relationship. He told me he's basically dead inside. I'm also bipolar, so I'm constantly battling depression, and he's one of the only people in the world who makes me feel better. I want to take away the pain from him, and bring him back to life, but I don't know how.

oh my god, that's exactly what this song means to me. by the letter. i'm in the exact same situation.