I Fell in Love with a Dead Boy Lyrics
This song means so much to me. I'm in love with one of my best friends, and for a while, he and I were sort of dating. But he's a very damaged person, and it just causes him too much pain to be in a relationship. He told me he's basically dead inside. I'm also bipolar, so I'm constantly battling depression, and he's one of the only people in the world who makes me feel better. I want to take away the pain from him, and bring him back to life, but I don't know how.
This song means so much to me. I'm in love with one of my best friends, and for a while, he and I were sort of dating. But he's a very damaged person, and it just causes him too much pain to be in a relationship. He told me he's basically dead inside. I'm also bipolar, so I'm constantly battling depression, and he's one of the only people in the world who makes me feel better. I want to take away the pain from him, and bring him back to life, but I don't know how.
@ jade
obviously this band plays deeply with transgender issues and emotions, when I first heard the song I assumed it was about a transgender person. Meaning the "boy" is dead, but the "girl" lives on?
I could be wrong, thats just what I picked up anyway
I saw a video on YouTube, taken by an audience member, of Antony performing this song live. Antony introduced the song, saying that in the early nineties he was in love with a singer. The singer was hiv positive, and back in those days that was like having a "death sentence". They eventually broke up, but this situation was what prompted Antony to write this song.
I watched a French film, "Wild Side" that opened with this song. It was based on transgendered prostitutes. They sold themselves not just for money, but to show the world that there are differences out there and it should not be feared--most people don't even understand how common it is to be born with more than one gender. The film was shocking and opened my eyes to the lifestyle of a transgender prostitute more than anything. In this movie, a thirty something year old woman, was once a man her whole life. I believe more than anything that she was...
I watched a French film, "Wild Side" that opened with this song. It was based on transgendered prostitutes. They sold themselves not just for money, but to show the world that there are differences out there and it should not be feared--most people don't even understand how common it is to be born with more than one gender. The film was shocking and opened my eyes to the lifestyle of a transgender prostitute more than anything. In this movie, a thirty something year old woman, was once a man her whole life. I believe more than anything that she was this "dead boy" along with the rest of the people in this world who are born into an uncomfortable body and life with the choice of changing their sex their entire lives. This song could be interpreted in many ways, but the most obvious and the deepest view would have to be through what I saw in this film. She may have a penis, she may look like a boy on the exterior, and people may not believe her when she says she is really a woman, and people may fall in love with her as this boy but nothing in life, even gender, is constant.
Antony fell in love with a dead boy, and I fell in love with a gay man... well, at least his music ;)
I think the "are you a girl" part is adding a slightly straight, or at least bisexual, spin to this gay song, since "beautiful" is generally applied only to men who have childlike, vulnerable faces that give them a somewhat feminine appearance, so it's like he's saying the boy was so beautiful he looked like a girl.
This song kinda reminds of a guy I knew a couple of years ago who was one of my best friends but also had a huge crush on me. When I first met him, he was totally ostracized by cruel middle school society; he had almost no friends, and he was not a happy person ("I find you with tears in your eyes"); I wanted to be one less bully to him, so I made a serious effort to see through his awful reputation, really get to know him and eventually become one of his only good friends ("...held your hand"). But life soon sent us separate ways, and I realized too late that I had similar feelings for him. I recently found out that he (unsuccessfully) attempted suicide, and I have reason to believe it had more than a little to do with me. Since our (geographical) separation (and after his suicide attempt), we have both hurt each other in various little ways, and I see now how much he has changed since we were friends. Even though he's still alive and I still miss him, he's as good as dead to me now because I know that even if we could be together again, it would be impossible to share again the friendship and trust we had before. Since I realized both my feelings for him and the growing invisible wall between us at around the same time , it's like I fell in love with a dead boy because he is no longer the boy I came to love: that boy no longer exists. Most of my close current friends know this story even though they never met him ("Now I'll tell all my friends/I fell in love with a dead boy"), and I wish my parents, who have prohibited me from talking to him, could have understood what a great guy he used to be ("Now I'll tell my family/I wish you could have met him"). Sometimes I think about things I should have said to him when I had the chance ("Now I throw bottles out to sea"), and I know I will never forget him ("No one's gonna take you away from me").
Well, tmi... But this is a beautiful song nonetheless. I <3 Antony
I just heard this song and immediately connected to it because I fell in love with someone who wasn't there. He was on drugs, drank too much, and for a while I did, too, but when I stopped I realized he didn't have the capacity to love. He escaped too much and for the longest time I felt I fell in love with dead boy.
I just heard this song and immediately connected to it because I fell in love with someone who wasn't there. He was on drugs, drank too much, and for a while I did, too, but when I stopped I realized he didn't have the capacity to love. He escaped too much and for the longest time I felt I fell in love with dead boy.
Thanks for sharing your story. Over 3 years later and it has moved someone out here in cyber land. Hope all is good...
Thanks for sharing your story. Over 3 years later and it has moved someone out here in cyber land. Hope all is good...
It's Antony's homage to Leigh Bowery.
amazing song
and amazing voice also...
This song means so much to me. I'm in love with one of my best friends, and for a while, he and I were sort of dating. But he's a very damaged person, and it just causes him too much pain to be in a relationship. He told me he's basically dead inside. I'm also bipolar, so I'm constantly battling depression, and he's one of the only people in the world who makes me feel better. I want to take away the pain from him, and bring him back to life, but I don't know how.
oh my god, that's exactly what this song means to me. by the letter. i'm in the exact same situation.