My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
I will tell you a story
That's never been told
I wll tell you a secret
Five lifetimes old
My life has been a prison
A labyrinth built beneath the mountain of tragedy
I'm a stain on the cloth
I'm just an after-thought
But I, Would die, For this
But through the veins of decay
I'll remain to betray
To live like Caesar
To die like Jesus
To build my own religion
No gods, no laws
To celebrate pain
Forsaken and ashamed
To watch them all
Crawl beneath us
On this bed of nails and regret
Dying of fevers, betrayal, and sweat
I cry
My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them
My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
My pain
My misery has been formulated into an equation of nein
My sanity wrote a suicide note but
One of us is illiterate
And the other is blind
My first act of treason was picking up a pen
My first act of love was
Finding myself again
The hardest thing to do
Was standing up to you
Now I'm off my knees
Now you're begging me please
I'm the wound and the weapon
The fracture and the fist
My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them
That stabbing in your heart
That black hole in your soul
Slowly ripping you apart
That's me
So let it be written
So let it be done
The brighter they shine
The darker we become
Vae victus, abomination
I will tell you a story
That's never been told
I wll tell you a secret
Five lifetimes old
My life has been a prison
A labyrinth built beneath the mountain of tragedy
I'm a stain on the cloth
I'm just an after-thought
But I, Would die, For this
I'll remain to betray
To live like Caesar
To die like Jesus
To build my own religion
No gods, no laws
To celebrate pain
Forsaken and ashamed
To watch them all
Crawl beneath us
On this bed of nails and regret
Dying of fevers, betrayal, and sweat
I cry
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them
My pain
My misery has been formulated into an equation of nein
My sanity wrote a suicide note but
One of us is illiterate
And the other is blind
My first act of treason was picking up a pen
My first act of love was
Finding myself again
The hardest thing to do
Was standing up to you
Now I'm off my knees
Now you're begging me please
I'm the wound and the weapon
The fracture and the fist
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them
That black hole in your soul
Slowly ripping you apart
That's me
So let it be written
So let it be done
The brighter they shine
The darker we become
Vae victus, abomination
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It's my understanding that Shemaya was abused during her childhood, so I think that's probably what this song was about - surviving that horror and becoming strong in herself. It's an anthem of learning to fight back, and deciding to live and not let someone else keep you opressed.
I think when she says, 'my enemies are plotting my organs are rotting'
she's refering to people who want to hurt her further - her abuser/s, perhaps? And saying that her organs are rotting might be her way of describing her injuries and her pain.
'Paper girl, burn the world I pass the flame to you'
I think that the paper girl is every other person out there who has been or is being abused. They are fragile, afraid, and their words have be power to set them free, but they might not know this yet. 'Passing the flame' might be her way of saying that she's passing on her experience and letting them decide whether to fight back, and in doing so she's shining a proverbial light on them. Shemaya actively works with groups that help victims of domestic abuse - I think that the people she helps are the people that she's talking about here.
To me this song is about the story of someones life who is going though depression!!! It also seems that someone has really hurt her and she wants to make them feel regreat to what he did!!!
Im still not sure about it!!! I really love this song!!! and it gives me those goosebumbs!!! I feel i can relate to it but im still confused about the meaning!!
I would love to see some more versions of the meaning!!!
OTEP ROCKS!!!!!! THIS SONG ROCKS!!!!
"My sanity wrote a suicide note but One of us is illiterate And the other is blind"
Great lines...
"To live like Caesar To die like Jesus"
A summtion of much of the theme of Otep's music: the desire to live life in a blaze of vengeful, fiery glory, and to die/have one's suffering be martyred. I could go on...wonderful song.
the part (But through the veins of decay I'll remain to betray To live like Caesar To die like Jesus To build my own religion No gods, no laws To celebrate pain Forsaken and ashamed To watch them all Crawl beneath us On this bed of nails and regret Dying of fevers, betrayal, and sweat I cry)
I think shes just saying what it would be like to be a god???idk
its funny imagining a paper girl burning the world. i really have no idea what this song means. it probably has multiple meanings. im also pretty sure nein means no in german. yeah thats about it.
does otep sing the songs as if they were poetry or are they poems they re singing..?
i never really quite understand excatly what they are seeing as they seem very poetic
Another great song.... I think its about how shes suffering so much, but from her suffering she finds strength from her pain and torment. This song shows intense amounts of emotion, anger, pain, strength, hate, vengence..... she is taking back her life and making her pain her own. These lyrics are amazing.....
When I listened to this song and read the lyrics at the same time i felt as if she were speaking to me telling me about the pain she went through. i know,WEIRD.
She's in another person's perspective... I'm assuming. Otherwise it would be rather hypocritical, wouldn't it? Oh and yes, nein is no. She's mighty clever. Brilliant words. Props to Shamaya. <3
Oh my god this iz intense