Have you ever been so lonely
There is no one there to hold?
Just pull me in or disown me
And then climb inside
My arms are open wide
Have a look inside

It is not that I am scared to learn
Just why I'm empty inside
Hold my hand or show some concern
If I live or die
My eyes are open wide
Help me look inside

Singing ha de de ha ha de de ah

I hear the water drip from the faucet
It's sweetly falling in tune
I'm gently closing the closet and I
Fall to the floor
And crawl to my room
The thought of ending it soon
Just let me sleep in my room

Hear me cry! Cry! Cry!
I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in!
I try to look at you
But I can't stop shaking
Leave me alone, just go away
Mother I'm so scared, I'm so scared

An empty bed and all of the sheets are gone
They're wrapped around me and you
All is quiet but the drop of my gun
'Cause I, I want to belong, to someone
But maybe life's not for everyone

Ha de de ha ha de de ah


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Black Orchid Lyrics as written by Justin S Furstenfeld

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    This song is amazing. And now knowing Justin was just 14 when he wrote this, it blows me away. Just thinking about it makes me cry. Its obvious its about suicide which is why it hits me so hard. I was, and have been in his position since i was 12 trying to deal with self harming and my suicidal thoughts. And it could be he was doing heroine when it says "cant stop shakeing" I personaly do not do any drugs aside from Pot. But when im feeling like he does in this song, I get the same way i start shakeing, crying, cant stop and gets to the point i dont even realize im doing it. Anyways this song does mean a lot to me. its beautiful.

    Killer499on June 28, 2009   Link

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