Have you ever been so lonely
There is no one there to hold?
Just pull me in or disown me
And then climb inside
My arms are open wide
Have a look inside

It is not that I am scared to learn
Just why I'm empty inside
Hold my hand or show some concern
If I live or die
My eyes are open wide
Help me look inside

Singing ha de de ha ha de de ah

I hear the water drip from the faucet
It's sweetly falling in tune
I'm gently closing the closet and I
Fall to the floor
And crawl to my room
The thought of ending it soon
Just let me sleep in my room

Hear me cry! Cry! Cry!
I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in!
I try to look at you
But I can't stop shaking
Leave me alone, just go away
Mother I'm so scared, I'm so scared

An empty bed and all of the sheets are gone
They're wrapped around me and you
All is quiet but the drop of my gun
'Cause I, I want to belong, to someone
But maybe life's not for everyone

Ha de de ha ha de de ah

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"Black Orchid" as written by Justin S Furstenfeld

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  • +1
    General CommentHekifier, I agree with you in so far as that's what the song is about. Justin says it in Argue With A Tree. But can't you at least appreciate another point of view? Creativity is about drawing inspiration from many sources, so can't you at least notice that there are other ideas?

    Justin wrote this song when he was 14. Many kids question their sexual identity around that age. So, it's an aspect to consider. I'm not saying that it's definitely in the song, or that it is at all, but it is something to in the very least think about.

    I mean, if you're closed minded enough to only accept one opinion, you'll never fully understand anything, will you?
    Fayrlieon April 23, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentJustin wrote this song..
    When he got turned down for prom.

    It's about how much it hurt him,
    that some girl said no.

    If you think I'm joking,
    as him yourself...

    Though as a blue october fan for a good
    12 years, I'm noticing him changing
    what songs were wrote about what..

    Just like Colorado 5751. >_>

    :-) Anyways,
    I like the song.
    When I'm super fucked in the head,
    I like to listen to it and know,
    hey..I could've been turned down at the prom :-P
    give myself a good laugh, then wallow in my sorrow,
    because it is worse. :-P
    baleetedprofileon May 21, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General Comment"But maybe life's not for everyone"

    maybe it isn't. this song is most definitely about suicide. how it's not fake sometimes. it's not always for attention.
    disasterfaerie22on February 27, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti have trouble listening to this song sometimes. its pretty apperent what its about
    dpm911on April 08, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis is my favorite out of any song that blue october has ever written... its self-explanitory
    taphiiion July 21, 2006   Link
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    General Commentgood song...hard to listen too. ive been to the point where i felt i had nothin, never been to the point to think about suicide but durin a time like that this is not a song to listen to!!!
    JoNeZ313on August 30, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI heard Justin, the lead singer, do a commentary about it. He wrote it when he was 14 as sort of a confession to his mother so she'd know what was going on with him. Makes me cry again just thinking about it.
    sarahliquidon January 09, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commentwhen the lead singer was 14 he wrote this in a letter to his mother because he couldnt say it in words
    unwritenlaw_savemeon July 10, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commentwow...this song is deep...I have been listening to it a lot latly...I am not suicidal...but have wondered what it would be like after if I did...but I have tons to live for...I have been living for a year on my own...and I dont mean in my own place.. I mean I moved away from my friends and what not and now it sems like I'm all on my own...so this song spoke to me there...but I am happy to say I am about to move back
    TSon December 04, 2007   Link
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    General Commentwell, i have to say. honestly, since no one here knows me. ive tried to kill myself. i must be a failure at life....and death because apparently it didnt go too well.
    BUT! if i were feeling deathly manic that day, seeing as im bipolar-much like justin (lead singer)-and i listened to this song. it would make it so much easier to chunk the toaster in the bath tub.
    if ya get the jist of what im saying.

    apparently i think its about suicide. or maybe an attempted suicide. like a drug overdose. justin used to be involved in herione and whatnot. so when he says "i couldnt stop shaking" *herione cough cough*. it does that to ya.
    first hand XP. haha.
    this song=suicide.
    point blank.
    zanzacaton March 07, 2008   Link

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