Pain

@runnerconk

Maybe I just have a flair for drama but I like to imagine that it's about his relationship with the addiction after his girlfriend overdosed on the same pills he is singing about. (painkillers, obviously)

"I never thought I'd walk away from you"
He loved the pills and was happy with his life and his partner. He never thought he would quit until his lover's overdose. Now he knows he needs to quit or he'll eventually fall to an overdose as well.

"But it's a false sense of accomplishment, Every time I quit"
It feels good to quit the pills but only for so long.

"It's a lie a kiss with opened eyes, and she's not breathing back"
He's remembering the tragedy. His final goodbye kiss as his lover is lying cold in front of him, overdosed on opioids. It's his excuse to use pills again to take away the pain. However he knows that he's fooling himself. "Anything would bother me" shows that it's truly the addiction in control. If not his lover's death, anything would bring him back to the pills. In the next chorus he says "Well anything would bother me." The subtle change of diction implies he's giving up on himself. One excuse or another, whatever makes the pain stop.

"Nevermind these are horrid times"
The addiction comes back, he tells himself it's okay to use for now. It's just hard times.

"Anyone can see my every flaw"
"Anyone can say they're above this all"
He's both embarrassed and defensive about his situation. He knows it's going to kill him. He can't make himself stop. He has failed himself. It "bothers" him. This only fuels his addiction further.

"I can't let it bother me"
Every use of "bother me" in this song is an event that brings him back to drugs. He's going to die and this is his final defense. He's itching for a fix as he says this. "Anything but bother me". I imagine him sobbing as he says it because he knows he will use anyway. Practically begging himself to stop.

@runnerconk

Maybe I just have a flair for drama but I like to imagine that it's about his relationship with the addiction after his girlfriend overdosed on the same pills he is singing about. (painkillers, obviously)

"I never thought I'd walk away from you"
He loved the pills and was happy with his life and his partner. He never thought he would quit until his lover's overdose. Now he knows he needs to quit or he'll eventually fall to an overdose as well.

"But it's a false sense of accomplishment, Every time I quit"
It feels good to quit the pills but only for so long.

"It's a lie a kiss with opened eyes, and she's not breathing back"
He's remembering the tragedy. His final goodbye kiss as his lover is lying cold in front of him, overdosed on opioids. It's his excuse to use pills again to take away the pain. However he knows that he's fooling himself. "Anything would bother me" shows that it's truly the addiction in control. If not his lover's death, anything would bring him back to the pills. In the next chorus he says "Well anything would bother me." The subtle change of diction implies he's giving up on himself. One excuse or another, whatever makes the pain stop.

"Nevermind these are horrid times"
The addiction comes back, he tells himself it's okay to use for now. It's just hard times.

"Anyone can see my every flaw"
"Anyone can say they're above this all"
He's both embarrassed and defensive about his situation. He knows it's going to kill him. He can't make himself stop. He has failed himself. It "bothers" him. This only fuels his addiction further.

"I can't let it bother me"
Every use of "bother me" in this song is an event that brings him back to drugs. He's going to die and this is his final defense. He's itching for a fix as he says this. "Anything but bother me". I imagine him sobbing as he says it because he knows he will use anyway. Practically begging himself to stop.

I actually thought the same thing and had the same questions, thats why I came here. Your not an idiot. Or we both are. So you are not alone.

@willowhazel It's a metaphor. He's describing the drugs as being inauthentic, "a lie", like a kiss with open eyes, that's all.