This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
You shouldn't have loved me baby
When I was nothin', nothin' at all
I used to bleed for you
Just to watch you fade
Baby, baby, baby
Rock and ruin
Baby, baby, baby
I never came home to a burnt out room
You should've loved me baby
When redemptions too blind
Nature took my soul
And sin left a scar so wide
Time ravaged my body
And now I live in the house
Where the red lights always on alone
Baby, baby, baby
Shame on you and me and you
Here we go now
I'm under your skin
Can't rub me out
Can't rub it in
Oh, baby running away
Running away, to you
Now I will wait for you
But I won't wait very long
I will wait for you
And when you bore me ill be gone
And I will cheat on you with your daddy or son
I will fuck you up I'm so sorry
Its just in my nature, baby
Well there ain't nothing I can do to stop
Oh bastard
Here comes the rain
Here comes the rain
My, you're blood is pumpin'
Good and evil
God and the devil
Ain't no ones pity
Well baby your loves with me
Your loves with hate
I will fuck you up
I will feel no guilt
that's right rub it in rub it in can't get me
Watch my face under you skin
Ill never got back
Oh nest our head
Till you can't see straight
I watch you blood
Its pumping black
Baby your loves with me
Here we go round
You're red and you're red
You writhing away
From under my heel
Run way your heads on fire
Can't tell the difference between hate and desire
Everything went all fucking wrong
Chaos reigns when I'm along
Fuck you up
Won't get me out
Wash that slain under your skin
Can't wash it out
Coz id wash it in
All my loves in vain
All my loves in blood
All my loves in vain
I cannot find a vein
When I was nothin', nothin' at all
I used to bleed for you
Just to watch you fade
Baby, baby, baby
Rock and ruin
Baby, baby, baby
I never came home to a burnt out room
You should've loved me baby
When redemptions too blind
Nature took my soul
And sin left a scar so wide
Time ravaged my body
And now I live in the house
Where the red lights always on alone
Baby, baby, baby
Shame on you and me and you
Here we go now
I'm under your skin
Can't rub me out
Can't rub it in
Oh, baby running away
Running away, to you
Now I will wait for you
But I won't wait very long
I will wait for you
And when you bore me ill be gone
And I will cheat on you with your daddy or son
I will fuck you up I'm so sorry
Its just in my nature, baby
Well there ain't nothing I can do to stop
Oh bastard
Here comes the rain
Here comes the rain
My, you're blood is pumpin'
Good and evil
God and the devil
Ain't no ones pity
Well baby your loves with me
Your loves with hate
I will fuck you up
I will feel no guilt
that's right rub it in rub it in can't get me
Watch my face under you skin
Ill never got back
Oh nest our head
Till you can't see straight
I watch you blood
Its pumping black
Baby your loves with me
Here we go round
You're red and you're red
You writhing away
From under my heel
Run way your heads on fire
Can't tell the difference between hate and desire
Everything went all fucking wrong
Chaos reigns when I'm along
Fuck you up
Won't get me out
Wash that slain under your skin
Can't wash it out
Coz id wash it in
All my loves in vain
All my loves in blood
All my loves in vain
I cannot find a vein
Lyrics submitted by almostmanda
Life Despite God Lyrics as written by Love Best
Lyrics © TEAMJBTUNZ, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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