He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the ends he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
Beautiful (Beautiful disaster)
Beautiful disaster


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    totally reminds me of this boy.. that i wouldnt call my boyfriend becuase... well we're just really complicated and who knows what the hell we are at this point.

    but he is my beautiful diaster. i've tried to change him because he does alot of bad things... but it didnt work out. Because he didnt want to be changed and i realized over time that hes perfect the way he is anyways.... and he changed my life completely... i never told him that but i think he knows.

    My favorite line is.. "He’s never enough And still leaves more than I can take Oh cuz I don’t know I don’t know what he’s after But he's so beautiful Such a beautiful disaster "

    He always finds a way to disapoint me... but its okay cuz i understand him compltetly... and i have no idea what hes after or where hes gonna go but im willing to follow him no matter what.

    twitterpatedon January 06, 2005   Link
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    i love this song because it reminds me of a guy i was seeing but fell for. he was so brilliant and amazing on the outside but in our short time together, i saw his broken spirit and depression. i knew i should have walked away then but i decided to stay...which made it a beautiful disaster...beautiful memories but a disastrous outcome anyway.

    sleepingbutterflyon June 20, 2005   Link
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    We all put a personal spin on anything we interpert - This song I relate to a personal situation I was in and it fits perfectly!

    I once knew a boy/man who was amazing... he had so much potential and such a kind heart, just a great all around human being! Unfortunately, his family put him down - year after year, day after day he was told what he couldnt do, what he would never acomplish, who he would never be! They had given him no support. In high school he was just another kid who had given up on his grades - the kind teachers paid no attention to. He had no one.... could you imagine? Due to all these things he became very critical of himself - convinced he couldnt do any better - he was just like his dead-beat dad (has his mom CONSTANTLY reminded him!) When him and his girlfriend of 3 years broke up - no one was there for him; when a tragic accident caused a dear friend to die - no one was there. He was a high school drop-out because no one could find the 10 min to recogniz e that this kid was reaching out ....!!!!! It infureates me!!!! he had been told from schools, his parents, everyone! that that was all he was capable of when it just simply wasnt true!

    I stood by my friend - I did my best to convince him that he could do more- that he didnt have to stoop to where they wanted, that he could graduate, find love, go to college and fufill his every dream....... and he laughed at me, kissed my forehead and called me "sweetly too innocent" and "too cute".

    I think he always liked me, but never had the guts to say it.... and less than 6 mos after I moved 2000 miles away for college I recieved a phone call from him....

    He was joining the army and was requesting to be stationed in my town - he said he needed me, more than i would understand, and that it was "our time".

    I thought the Army would be great for him and would give him a foundation to lay the rest of his life on, but to do it just be with me????? (which is basically what he told me) I had NO romatic intrest in him at all, though he was one of those friend that I would have done anything for!

    I had to chose- this beautiful, wonderful, jaded man was reaching out to me..... could i put my own wants and needs aside for him? Would it really help him? for him to think i had feelings when i didnt? maybe i would develope feelings over time? maybe i wouldnt....?

    If i let him do this.... would it be beautiful? or just a beautiful disaster? I so badly wanted to save him... to show him what i saw in him, all that he could be, and better yet.... all the things he already was that were pride worthy!

    long story short - i told him not to come, and months later we lost touch.... i havent heard or seen him in over 3 years - but every time i hear this song, my heart hurts a lil... he truely was a beautiful disaster...... I just couldnt save him.....

    jessienpinkon April 15, 2009   Link
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    Describes the relationship with my ex word for word... as much as it pains me to admit it, I still love that bastard :( sigh

    Loveisautomaticon December 28, 2011   Link
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    This song is about loving a guy who has more baggage than she can handle whether it is his personality or his lifestyle. She doesn`t know if she has the strength to keep loving him and keep trying to hold on to the relationship. This song totally reminds me of my ex. = / . . . It turned out to be a beautiful disaster . . . instead of just beautiful.

    suepursticiouson October 17, 2004   Link
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    All of you I think are pretty much right, a guy has so much baggage that she doesn't know if she should stay or not because she loves him.

    wickedleeon December 03, 2004   Link
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    this just reminds me of me and my boyfriend. he has been thru alot, and sometimes i just wish that his past wouldn't be so complicated. at times i don't feel strong enough to be there for him and whatever i do or say can never take away his pain. I just av to remember that i love him too much to see him get hurt.

    favourite bit... He’s as damned as he seems And more heaven than a heart could hold And if I try to save him My whole world could cave in It just ain’t right It just ain’t right

    rock and rollon December 28, 2005   Link
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    Why has no one commented on this song?! This is easily the best song on her CD. I DL-ed the live version from her concert and its just AMAZING.

    adambrodyishoton April 11, 2004   Link
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    I love this song. I think its about a guy who comes with a lot of problems, shes wondering if she should hold on and if his love is worth the pain. but u know it can mean a lot of different things, if a boyfriend is abusive, if hes suicidal, etc.

    CutieTrish3on April 12, 2004   Link
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    I agree that it is the best song on her cd. Its awesome

    eurekaflowaon April 26, 2004   Link

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