Not Falling

i wish this comment could go on the first page. im like 99% sure this song is about overcoming heroin addiction. look at the first cd, a good deal of it was about drug addiction, namely internal primates forever (heroin addiction, i believe someone in the band is a heroin addict) this is a few years later, its about overcoming said addiction.

--i beat the demons that dragged me down. the demons that dragged me down ive always heard as referring to drug/alcohol addiction

"Come play kill (Refuse my to fall, today refuse my shadow) Stone cold will (Refuse to need this, refuse to follow) Bitter pills (Refuse to be this, refuse to swallow, I feel godless)"

stone cold will, refuse to need this ---sounds like hes saying he has the will power now to say no when he starts fiending, he refuses to NEED heroin or whatever h was shooting up (see internal primates forever: sharpen up the razors stab the needles into pipes to kill cravings so sick of this in me cant stand the want the need cant get free)

Bitter pills (Refuse to be this, refuse to swallow, I feel godless) he refuses to be a heroin addiction, he will not swallow no more pills (sounds more like hes referring to oxy then heroin, maybe he shot oxy and not dope) he feels godless. if he is an atheist, this would make sense. look at alice in chains god smack. "so your sickness weighs a ton, and gods name is smack for some" ive been there and thats how it goes

honestly the goodbye sunshine part, in my head i can relate that to heroin addiction because im just now overcoming it [30 days clean] but when i try to type it out, i cant, so i dont know if theres any real connection there. this is just my two cents. when i listen to the song [and have trouble understanding some verses] all i can think is this is definitely about overcoming heroin addiction, just look at internal primates forever, pharmacopeia and i think theres another song but i cant remember right now.

i wish this was on the first page so i could get some feedback, negative or positive. if anyone gets to the third (maybe even 4th when i post this) page, please leave me some feedback. i came to this site hoping for someone to confirm/deny my theory, but theres very few people even talking about the meaning of this song.

No matter what-I will stand against what is against me. The demons in my head will not drag me down. I will not fall. For no one but me.

OMFG these lyrics are so wrong. Whoever made them obviously doesn't own the CD, because the words are on the inside of it. Jesus. Here they are, corrected parts in caps:

Reflect As I realize That all I Need is to find THE MIDDLE PILLAR PATH TO SIT LIKE THE SUN BY A STAR IN THE SKY AND JUST BE SINNERS, CASTING STONES AT ME

I I stand Not crawling Not falling down I I'll BLEED The demons That drag me down I I stand (For nothing) Not crawling (THE CENTER) Not falling down (OF CALMS WITHIN THE EYE) I I'll bleed (For no one) The demons (But myself) That pull me down (For me and no one else)

Goodbye Sunshine I'VE put it out again SAD!!! I'm over PERSONALITIES (what the FUCK is a saneality?) CONFLICTING I don't need you Or anyone but me I'll just be Living my own life I feel MY GLOWING CENTER GROW Infecting I feel alive SHOVEL DIRT OVER LIME PLANT IT IN MYSELF TO SIT LIKE A SEED UNDER COVERS OF EARTH AND JUST BE SINNERS, POINTING FINGERS AT ME

[Chorus]

Come play kill (REFUSE MY BODY, REFUSE MY SHADOW) Stone cold will (Refuse to LEAD this, refuse to follow) Bitter pills (Refuse to FEED this, refuse to swallow, I'M FUELED GODLESS) Come play Come play KILL JUST BE JUST BE JUST BE JUST BE JUST BE

[chorus]

Hmmmmm.......I might be in the wrong forum, because this seems to be more of an argument about Vayne's status in the music industry. I do like some of the earlier comments about the Golden Dawn, which is likely where Vayne got the idea, though the concepts are not original to the Golden Dawn.

The Golden Dawn (i.e. Alexander Crowley, Mathers, Waite, and Israel Regardie) was formed by gifted plagiarists, mostly from Henry Agrippa. Irrelevant as that fact is, the song derives much of its meaning from this system; the band seems to have more than a rudimentary grip of the symbolism, which is likely why the claim that the song is "mysterious" and "allows the listener to find the answers". These are rudimentary concepts in the passing on of occult concepts.

  Ok, enough b.s. What are the symbols? Well, The Middle Pillar path is nothing more than an energy arousal ritual which involves visualizing oneself larger than the earth gazing into the cosmos. Calms within the eye is refering, once again to this ritual. Deny my shadow has a similar meaning to that of the TOOL song forty six and two (look it up) Much of the symbolism also refers to the use of the tree of life to return to center i.e. the tarot. 

   I can't really give away any more of the answers. One last note before I go... I found that, while reading these comments, this song may be loosely based on the life and attitude of Alexander Crowley. OK, I'm done now.

Good song, can't wait for the cd.

I like this song a lot. its not quite as good as the stuff on L.D. 50. but it is only one song, so hopefully the new cd gets better from here.

The last line of the song was left out. The very last line of the song should be "That track me down."

I think this song is AMAZING! Not quite as heavy as some of the stuff on LD but still amazing.

This is such a great track. I'm really looking forward to the new album, should be good stuff!

this song is just like any other mudvayne song... fuckin amazing!!! i cant wait for the new cd, i have such high hopes