So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Gone, I couldn't murder your promise
Right before my eyes
The revolutions of my psychosis
Kept me outta the way
Once inside, all I hold is ash
Fail, suppressing every feeling
I'm in so much pain
I have every fuckin' right to hate you
I can't take it
The hardest part was knowing that I could never be you
Now all I do is sit around and wish I could forget you
My demise, I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny, I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
Who are you to me? Who am I to you?
Is this a lesson in nepotistic negligence?
By default, you are my only link to the outside
Psychosomatic suicide
Where were you when I was down?
Can you show me a way
To face everyday with this face, goodbye
My demise, I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny, I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
When I blur my eyes, they make the whole
World breath, I see you fucking me
And I am absolutely controlling every urge
To mutilate, the one and only answer
So much for memories
I want to dress in your insecurities
And be the perfect you, I'm through
I'm out-stretched out for all to loathe
Here we go, the ultimate irony
My demise, I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny, I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
Killing me, killing me, killing me (stop)
Killing me (stop)
Right before my eyes
The revolutions of my psychosis
Kept me outta the way
Once inside, all I hold is ash
Fail, suppressing every feeling
I'm in so much pain
I have every fuckin' right to hate you
I can't take it
The hardest part was knowing that I could never be you
Now all I do is sit around and wish I could forget you
My demise, I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny, I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
Who are you to me? Who am I to you?
Is this a lesson in nepotistic negligence?
By default, you are my only link to the outside
Psychosomatic suicide
Where were you when I was down?
Can you show me a way
To face everyday with this face, goodbye
My demise, I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny, I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
When I blur my eyes, they make the whole
World breath, I see you fucking me
And I am absolutely controlling every urge
To mutilate, the one and only answer
So much for memories
I want to dress in your insecurities
And be the perfect you, I'm through
I'm out-stretched out for all to loathe
Here we go, the ultimate irony
My demise, I took a life worth living and
Made it worth a mockery
I deny, I fold, but they keep on coming
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
(Stop) I'm always ready to die but you're killing me
Killing me, killing me, killing me (stop)
Killing me (stop)
Lyrics submitted by lemonie_fresh
Metabolic Lyrics as written by Corey Taylor Christopher Fehn
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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i agree with TAW_bobdole, if im angry (NOT a rare situation, i have a lot to be angry about) i put on slipknot or lamb of god and just listening to it is venting. my journal entrys at school sound like a slipknot song in the making almost except bad.