This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I want to slit your throat and fuck the wound
I want to push my face in and feel the swoon
I want to dig inside, find a little bit of me
'Cause the line gets crossed when you don't come clean
My wormwood meets your pesticide
You'll never get out, cause you were never alive
I am infinite, I am the infant finite
Come a little closer and I'll show you why
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you lookin' at?
I'll tell you what you're lookin' at
Everyone you ever fuckin' laughed at
Look in my eyes for the answers, typical
I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everybody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to power them
Once again, it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine, it's not fair, it's outta my hands
And it's shaking, you'll never take me
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
Nothing, nothing
Hate, hate ain't enough to describe me
Scream, somewhere between screaming and crying
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Why, when do I get to know why?
Bitter, bitter as the stink of when I try
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Pull your hands away
I'm gone, goodbye, it's so depressing
Withering away
Take a look, inside, my soul is missing
All I have is dead, so I'll take you with me
Feel like I'm erased, so kill me just in case
I Feel like I'm erased, so kill me just in case
So kill me just in case
Covet, everything around me is mine
Sty, can't see through the sties in my eyes
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Down, scratching and clawing all the way
Stay you won't let me fucking stay
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Live is there another way to live?
Die, 'cause it's the only way to die
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
I want to push my face in and feel the swoon
I want to dig inside, find a little bit of me
'Cause the line gets crossed when you don't come clean
My wormwood meets your pesticide
You'll never get out, cause you were never alive
I am infinite, I am the infant finite
Come a little closer and I'll show you why
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you lookin' at?
I'll tell you what you're lookin' at
Everyone you ever fuckin' laughed at
Look in my eyes for the answers, typical
I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everybody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to power them
Once again, it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine, it's not fair, it's outta my hands
And it's shaking, you'll never take me
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
No one is, safe
Noises, noises, people make noises
People make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to nothing
Nothing, nothing
Hate, hate ain't enough to describe me
Scream, somewhere between screaming and crying
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Why, when do I get to know why?
Bitter, bitter as the stink of when I try
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Pull your hands away
I'm gone, goodbye, it's so depressing
Withering away
Take a look, inside, my soul is missing
All I have is dead, so I'll take you with me
Feel like I'm erased, so kill me just in case
I Feel like I'm erased, so kill me just in case
So kill me just in case
Covet, everything around me is mine
Sty, can't see through the sties in my eyes
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Down, scratching and clawing all the way
Stay you won't let me fucking stay
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Live is there another way to live?
Die, 'cause it's the only way to die
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be
Lyrics submitted by flip, edited by BeserkBlitz, Dasuno, if ur 555 im 6(sic)6
Disasterpiece Lyrics as written by Christopher Fehn Michael Crahan
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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