I Live With It Everyday Lyrics
I cycled to Scott's house with a BB gun
We were almost twelve, but we looked thirteen
He had baby-blue eyes that I shot him between
Nature provides for us a safety net
Whatever we do, we can never forget
Even though we've moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking moments
Engine running, closed garage door
Was the day the For Sale sign arrived on the lawn
Two weeks later and we were gone
Everyone falls through time and the funnel it makes
But I'm staying here inside my biggest mistake
Even though we've moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking moments
I live with it every day
For every step I have to pay
The only thing that they can’t take
The guilt that spirals in my wake
Like games that children play
The hearts you choose to break
LIke cars dumped in the lake
The laugh lines on your face
The life I won't embrace
The cold house I won't leave
The guests I won't receive
Even though we've moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking moments
I live with it every day
For every step I have to pay
The only thing that they can’t take
The guilt that spirals in my wake
this kid shot his friend in the head with a BB gun, i suppose accidentally, and he still feels so guilty about it he tries to kill himself. they move away, but he still feels incredibly guilty and starts to isolate himself inside his house.
It's obvious he tried to kill himself: "The day they found me asleep on the floor/Engine running, closed garage door"...sounds like a suicide attempt to me.
yeah. i think thats what its about. he killed his friend, not on purpose, and tired to kill himself. he suffers from depression: "The life I won't embrace The cold house I won't leave The guests I won't receive " and its just sad. very upbeat sounding, but not...
this song's had special meaning to me, because I was listening to it when I crashed (and totaled) my car.
it's certainly not shooting someone, but the memory does live with me
He's depressed about accidentally killing his friend. It drove him to attempt suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning. It's about the things we do that we're ashamed of, but refuse to allow ourselves to forget.
I know this is a song with a serious message, but I can't get over how awesome the bridge is. Especially when everything cuts out under the lyrics and then the drums come in.
I love these lyrics, they are so clever.
Everyone falls through time and the funnel it makes But I'm staying here inside my biggest mistake
Everything moves on - though it's like a funnel because you can't go back and change things. He can't move on because of his 'biggest mistake'.
Simply brilliant!
This song is fantasmic. The word choices just make me happy... And the harmony in "The love I put away" etc makes me happy. And BNL just makes me happy. But I only ever listen to them when I'm crying my eyes out.
this song is obviously about guilt, but i dont think he tries to kill himself. did this actually happen?
Probably did happen, the 80s were pretty bad. I tried to find anything related to it, to no avail. This was interesting though:
http://www.kyrene.k12.az.us/schools/brisas/sunda/decade/1980.htm
august 1, 1981 was the day that MTV first went on the air. maybe thats the real reason why he went to Scott's...