So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I envy your demise
I hope it's all you dreamed it would be
One bullet in this gun
Not sure if it's for you or me
I envy your demise
With all the guilt you hid away
All the lies that I had spun
And all the times I wished you'd stay
Now, all that I'll ever suffer
All that I'll ever be
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover me with makeup
I envy your demise
Seven hundred and fifty degrees
When it burned it smelled like you
But it scorched and looked a lot like me
I envy your demise
You never said that you'd try
When I had to lose control
Lose control to really cry
Now, all that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
All that I'll ever limit
All that I'll ever try
All that I'll ever trust
You can always cover it with
All that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
I hope it's all you dreamed it would be
One bullet in this gun
Not sure if it's for you or me
I envy your demise
With all the guilt you hid away
All the lies that I had spun
And all the times I wished you'd stay
Now, all that I'll ever suffer
All that I'll ever be
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover me with makeup
I envy your demise
Seven hundred and fifty degrees
When it burned it smelled like you
But it scorched and looked a lot like me
I envy your demise
You never said that you'd try
When I had to lose control
Lose control to really cry
Now, all that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
All that I'll ever limit
All that I'll ever try
All that I'll ever trust
You can always cover it with
All that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
Lyrics submitted by Catatonik
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I agree, lady... the 1 bullet in the gun is the part that I always relate to. Okay, so the whole song kicks ass...