Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
I envy your demise
I hope it's all you dreamed it would be
One bullet in this gun
Not sure if it's for you or me
I envy your demise
With all the guilt you hid away
All the lies that I had spun
And all the times I wished you'd stay
Now, all that I'll ever suffer
All that I'll ever be
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover me with makeup
I envy your demise
Seven hundred and fifty degrees
When it burned it smelled like you
But it scorched and looked a lot like me
I envy your demise
You never said that you'd try
When I had to lose control
Lose control to really cry
Now, all that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
All that I'll ever limit
All that I'll ever try
All that I'll ever trust
You can always cover it with
All that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
I hope it's all you dreamed it would be
One bullet in this gun
Not sure if it's for you or me
I envy your demise
With all the guilt you hid away
All the lies that I had spun
And all the times I wished you'd stay
Now, all that I'll ever suffer
All that I'll ever be
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover me with makeup
I envy your demise
Seven hundred and fifty degrees
When it burned it smelled like you
But it scorched and looked a lot like me
I envy your demise
You never said that you'd try
When I had to lose control
Lose control to really cry
Now, all that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
All that I'll ever limit
All that I'll ever try
All that I'll ever trust
You can always cover it with
All that I'll ever abuse
All that I'll ever see
All that I'll ever ruin
You can always cover it with makeup
Lyrics submitted by Catatonik
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This is one of my favorite songs. https://fnfgo.io
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from what ive gotten: this song is about 2 addicts (probably substance abusers), both of them suicidal, as addicts are, but only one of them commited suicide, and the other one is left alone.
now the person thats still alive can do as much destruction as they please (for example: ruin their relationships, overdose on drugs, take out their anger on other people, etc) and it wont be seen as a bad thing because other people will think theyre grieving and hurting and their behaviours are acceptable and make sense because of that, as told in the line "now, all that ill ever abuse, ruin, you can always cover with makeup".
beautiful song.
reminds me of so many things...the inability to resist cutting, hating urself and sum1 else so much u don't know who's gonna get killed first. and also that however much pain u feel, u can always hide it away.
i think this is my favourite jack off jill <3 er..one of them, since i adore every song they've put out. but i never get sick of this song. i think it's about hating someone, but you hate yourself for hating them as well. shrug i think it's also about wanting to hide who you are to stop the pain[you can always cover me with makeup] it's about a lot of things really.. hurting yourself, self image, wanting revenge, etc etc..i think. although one can never be sure. xo.
this song is something i defintely can relate to. thank god for jack off jill and their empowering lyrics...mmm...
i think the line '1 bullet in this gun, not sure if it's for u or me' is my favourite line in this song. i also think 'u can always cover it with makeup' has two meanings- that you can always cover your scars with make-up, and that you can always hide away your pain.
I agree, lady... the 1 bullet in the gun is the part that I always relate to. Okay, so the whole song kicks ass...
Yep this is definantly one of my best joj songs too, i heart this song. I just love the way Jessicka sings with such feeling and passion. And ladyboygrrl - I agree with you totally, your spot on ;)
i think its about a girl thinking that shes not good for n e thing and she feels like all that she'll ever do is mess up something.but theres always a way to fix it.
i think its sorta like reaching a point in a relationship where you cant take any more and you know one of u is gonna be destroyed, but you dont know who.i love the first line. i agree with the things about make up too, that line is sort of my... i dunno, motto i guess. i live by that line.