Girlscout

Wow reading through these coments totally made me think of it in so many different ways.

I totally agree that its about a groupie (the "girlscout"). Like the repeated line "if you want it, did you never want for more" to me seems like she (the groupie) always wanted to be 'with' her idol, but never thought about actual love or anything like that.

She "fell from grace" because she's sexually involved with her idol & possibly in a bad/abusive relationship, she's lost her innocence as a young girl. It probably refers to loss of virginity. Her idol doesn't feel anything for her, hence they "spit inside her face", and nor does she feel any true love towards them "the numbness that was you" -numbness; lack of feeling.

I think the screamy part might be from the girl's point of view. "what would I want, what will I need, to sacrifice what I believe" she gave up everything to be with that person, and lost her innocence. Then the clean singing is from the idol's POV. "Your mouth is getting sore" doesn't have to be about blowjobs, but it still could be. I think there's more than one layer to alot of lyrics, and that's just the surface. Beneath that, there's the idea of lying, also physical pain from abuse. "Would you love me any less if I hurt you any more?" well its like a rhetorical question because she doesn't love them, so they can use & abuse her. That could also be seen as fan love, or that they're trying to push her away by abusing her.

Then the next verse is her trying to get her innocence back, "cleansing every sore" there's a reference to girlscout cookies or whatever "sold from door to door" like doing anything she can to get that back. Then "finish what you start" like she's still with that person "dehumanize my heart" I think that's one of the most important lines. It could be referring to either of them (probably both), they've been "Dehumanized" by this relationship & the way they've both acted/been treated.

Then the 3rd verse could be the Girl singing, like she's finally grown up & decided to take a stand.

"I was never your number 1 fan" She's saying she hates the person, will never think highly of them (she denies ever having 'loved' them) "How can I grow a girl when you never were a man?" The idea of a lesbian relationship & wanting a baby fits well with this line, but I think its more her growing as a girl rather than producing a girl. And "man" doesn't necessarily refer to a male, the word man can be used to show who's the "bigger person" if you know what I mean?? (Sorry I really can't think of how to word it atm) and they were never a man, just a person. It could also be a reference to the line "dehumanize my heart" because that would mean they aren't a "man" (as in human)

"I was never nice, and I've gone too far" Shes saying she was only pretending to be nice, she's not the innocent girl everyone thought she was.

"You don't need to be nice....." Well yea. That pretty much speaks for itself.

That's just my opinion, hope it helped :) sorry for the super long comment