So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I have never felt such frustration
Or lack of self control
I want you to kill me
And dig me under
I want to live no more
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
For me
I want to taste dirty
a stinging pistol
In my mouth, on my tongue
I want you to scrape me from the walls
And go crazy
like you've made me
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me, for me
You, you are so special
You have the talent
to make me feel like dirt
And you, you use your talent
to dig me under
And cover me with dirt
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
Or lack of self control
I want you to kill me
And dig me under
I want to live no more
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
For me
I want to taste dirty
a stinging pistol
In my mouth, on my tongue
I want you to scrape me from the walls
And go crazy
like you've made me
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me, for me
You, you are so special
You have the talent
to make me feel like dirt
And you, you use your talent
to dig me under
And cover me with dirt
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
One who doesn't care
is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
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@sokorny Thank you. i could of went on but i see no point in it. theres only one part of the song that i dont know what do make of. "I want to taste dirty, stinging pistol In my mouth, on my tongue I want you to scrape me from the walls And go crazy like you've made me" what do you think it could mean?