I heard the truth about you
And it really doesn't read at all
Like the whipping stick you raised me with
A scared woman in a private hell
Hushed voice like electric bell
Strange talk about Edgar Cayce and the long lame walk of the dark 70's
Strange talk about Edgar Cayce and the long lame walk of the dark 70's

I heard the truth about you
Yeah you
Mama they woke me up
I was deep in an idiot sleep
I was just eight years old
Heard big words with a horrible sound
Why'd they have to call my school
Tell me my mother had a nervous breakdown

I wish I believed like you do
Yeah you
In the myth of a merciful god
In the myth of a heaven and hell
I hear the voices you hear sometimes
Sometimes it gets so much I feel like letting go
Sometimes it gets so hard I feel like letting it go
Sometimes it gets so goddamn hard I feel like letting it all go
Lettin' it all go

I ran away, went looking for you
Back to Culver City and the old neighborhood
Need to know if you were really gone
Need to know if you were gone for good

I ran through the projects at night
Hide in the dark from my friends in the light
Hide from my brother-in-law
Hide from the things he'd say
Said you weren't losing your mind
Yeah he said you just needed a rest
He said you'd be coming home soon
He said the doctors there would know what's best
Said that maybe I could go live with them for a while

I know the truth about you
I know the truth

Mama they woke me up
I was just eight years old
Sometimes it gets so hard I feel like letting it go
Sometimes it gets so hard I feel like letting it all go
Yeah lettin' it all go


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    I love this song as well. And I think the title is fitting, though I like the Colorfinger title a bit better (Culver City)

    HolyViperon July 25, 2002   Link
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    Hmm.... wasn't it called "Culver palms" ??

    Evergleamon August 31, 2002   Link
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    After witnessing so many bad things and feeling so much pain it is really hard to believe there is anything else. If all you have ever experienced is pain, how do you know there is anything else? Sometimes the bad just out-weighs the good, sometimes you forget what it is to feel good . . . .

    ChaosFluro24on September 02, 2002   Link
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    This is about a kid who cant believe in anything better for himself. He obviously thinks it would be easier believing in God and that eventually everyone is going to get theirs, but from his own experiance, knows it's never going to happen. Very dpressing, verging suicidal.

    octoberclownon May 08, 2004   Link
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    I love this song. One of my favorites that Art wrote. The stories may be different, but the needs are the same.

    KimberlyCarmenon April 23, 2002   Link
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    Love the song. (hate the title though)

    Evergleamon May 04, 2002   Link
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    Ah yeah, Culver Palms, my bad. I forgot for a second :P

    HolyViperon September 02, 2002   Link
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    is that what you think the song is about chaos? j/w

    psycochicon September 10, 2002   Link
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    yeah psychochic, I think it is about getting one step closer to letting go everyday. I think it really embodies the spirit of giving up and wanting to, but having no reason not to. That is only my interpretation though. I also think we are supposed to gain strength from songs like this, it is comforting to think that someone else has similar experiences and came through.

    ChaosFluro24on September 15, 2002   Link
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    i think th basics of this song is the troublesome times that can come when things go wrong in someones life. Like WIDBIG, for example, showing the strains on a boys life trying to come with his mothers mental ilness, it can be really strenous on an individial, and make you feel like giving up and, as Art puts it, "letting it all go".

    eddie_von April 08, 2003   Link

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