So, uh...Hey. I wanna say something but i don't know what. Maybe i'll talk nonsense for a while. Hold up, that's saying something haha. Maybe i'll speak sense then. Miracles do happen y'know. I don't know what to do later. I might watch Pinocchio, i don't know yet. Last time i watched it i fell asleep. Then my friend emailed me and woke me up, which i didn't mind :) We were both watching a movie anyway. Huh, that's all i got! If anyone has anything to say feel free to.

What an awesome day! All i did was write :) i even managed to listen to music to help me! Oh, he said he liked it XD Things are looking up now. I felt i lost it all but it's all coming back now. I never used to feel that anything i did was ever good but i'm almost liking what i see now and that's awesome. Maybe i should put some of stuff here... If anyone reads this lemme know!

I feel a lot like writing today. I haven't felt like that in a while. Today it's cold and it's wet, the perfect day for thinking! Though my mood is a little foul. Or it could be one of those feelings. I had one last Wednesday and it happened, so I guess we'll see about that.

I'm kinda tired today. I almost fell asleep through Pinocchio. That's a crime! Haha. Today i had my breakfast at 8pm. I don't think i'll be eating anything else today. I'm kinda hungry though, but i shouldn't eat. I don't wanna have to keep bringing it up all the time but i do need to talk about it. I don't know how to deal with it. But i don't want to bug by keep asking things. It's just awkward being in this position. It's not like i do this every day(!) I guess i'll figure it out eventually. Though i would prefer sooner to later... Aw heck, i'm watching Pinoke again :D

It's quiet. Too quiet. I'm even wondering if i should make a sound. There's an awkward feeling in the air and i don't like it. It's almost a crime to break this silence. I'll swallow everything i need to say. It's not important enough for this moment in time... I'm listening to Albatross by Wild Beasts. What a beautiful song :)

Yesterday almost felt like it wasn't really happening, but it was. It hurt a lot. I don't see how i could answer how i'm feeling, when clearly i don't seem to know... Today was awesome though. Mum and i had a great day out in the pouring rain today haha. There was a beautiful rainbow out eventually. Hopefully tomorrow's weather will be better as we'll be out again! It's nice spending time with mum. We rarely do do things together. I'm talking a maximum of 4 days a year. But it's been like that for about 4 years, before we never really did anything. I wanted to so badly but it never happened. I make the most of our days out as i never know when the next one will be. It's still nice though :)

There was this stupid spider in the bathroom earlier. I hadn't screamed that much in a while. I can't bear them anyway but it's just their legs, they're so long and horrible. And when they move-- yuk yuk, i'll stop about them. I haven't really eaten the past two days. All i've had is my breakfast. Well, it's all good saying for the past two days, i haven't really eaten properly for 4 months. Or i guess you could say 10 years... I keep pretty much everything to myself but i'm learning to tell someone how i feel now and it feels great, it really helps. Ok, i gotta go sleep now. Goodnight x

I've been trying to sleep better but last night was way off. The best 3 hours i had were in the afternoon. I was awake like every 5-10 minutes. Weird. Well, this is what happens when you get through the day on 300 calories and three sips of water. Yeeeaaah, not wise. Why is this week going so slow? I've thought it was Sunday at least twice, Monday three times, Tuesday yesterday. Everyone's telling me but still i don't even know what day it is! Duh lol. Oh well.

I know i'm a little late but i don't think i have really introduced myself properly, soooo here goes: Hey! I'm Donald. Haha not. I won't make you suffer by reading anything uninteresting about me but anyone is welcome to say anything to me. I even welcome insults!

I'm real shaky today. I can just about write this. I don't usually get like this unless i start to panic and have one of my attacks. Or i have to say or do something and that means people have to see or hear me. It scares me to death. I don't think i'm scared now. Maybe it's coz i've thought too much. Ha, surprise. By the way i'm not going anywhere for dinner, fuck it. Can't be asked. I'd rather be bored than uncomfortable. Plus mum said i wouldn't be able to bring my phone. Pah!!!! I'd like to see that happen. My phone is my life, take it away you might as well kill me. Yes i do sleep with it under my pillow too. But yeah i'm not going.