It hurts too much to look back, and I'm too scared to look forward.

I ended up at school anyway.

2am last night, Mom gave me some NyQuil. Then she expects me to wake up at 7? Pshh, I ain't going nowhere. Screw the dentist. I'm staying home today.

People tellin me I changed, that's exactly what I'm gettin, so I'll never be the same.

Taylor, You left yourself signed in on my computer last night, so I thought I'd leave you a message. You take life in a totally different perspective than everyone else. Throughout the years I've know you, that has given me inspiration, as you taught me things about life that I didn't know before, and I probably wouldn't know them if you hadn't been there. You're the strongest person I know, mentally anyway. You left the house this morning completely broken and weak. I had every intention of fixing you, but I knew that this time there was nothing I could do. I just wish you would stop beating yourself up over this. Trust me when I say that it's not worth it. Reading your other journals, I realized that you keep a lot bottled up inside of you. Once in a while, it's good to just get it out. I'm right here. You know you can tell me anything. Love, Kota. P.S. You left your knife on my bed...

Mom made me green pancakes.

I seriously have nothing better to do than bitch on here and get into fights all day? I need a life.

^ Look it's a ninja. (:

I'd rather spend the rest of eternity in excruciating pain, than to see AJ live through something like this ever again.

Ignorning all prior advice, and forewarning.