I am really taking a liking to this song Dream On by Aerosmith. It's so cool, it's like the coolest song ever! It's so good, and only now I realize that they sing it in Glee, they do sing some good songs in Glee, it's not like it's always terrible songs, it is most of the time, but not all the time. Speaking of horrible music... I went to Grant and Haydens barmi until 8:00 and then for the rest of the time I went to Isabellas, her's was much better! No offence to Grant and Haydens, but seriously their DJ sang to every song that he played. Even the crappy modern ones. Anyway, I had a lot of fun at Isabellas, it was so much fun! I danced to the four songs, "Time Warp", "Cha Cha Slide", "Y.M.C.A" and "Cotton Eye Joe". Those are the ones where they already have moves for yout o dance to, and they are fun to dance to. It was pretty cool, but apparently we missed out on a lot in the begining, it was okay though because I was just sipping on my slushy, I love those, they are soooo good! It was really weird though, because at the batti, Johnathan came to sit next to me and Sean was sitting on the couch nect to me, you know, talking to a Grade 7, anyway, Johnathan was talking to me (I didn't say much) about how we spoke on facebook last year about how he liked me and stuff, so Sean deicides to be "funny" and says "Well I'm Sarah-jo's boyfriend". I smiled because I knew he was joking, but Johnathan was acting like he was about to beat him up. Sean was pretty stupid to say that knowing that Johnathan was like the toughest guy in school, I seriously hate Johnathan. Anyway, it was so awkward for me because then Sean starting asking what Johnathan liked about me, and he said "I like how she doesn't dance, and she is very pretty around the face area" (I mean who says that?" Anyway, it was really awkward. Finally Ron came and I made a break for it. I saw Jarred Berman there (not that I care). Speaking of Jarred Berman, I didn't get an invitation to his barmi (not that I care) I know what you are thinking, why would I meantion it if I didn't care? Well the answer is simple... I'm just stating a fact, I do that a lot. Well I don't need an invite for his barmi, I got one for Deej's barmi, so HA! I htought we wer friends now though... I mean, he was even smsing me this morning. Oh well, I don't care anyway. When I got to school this morning I only then realized that I had left my key for my locker at home, so I had to use those big plyer type things to open it, it was pretty cool, but it was also really hard because my lock was so small, well I wouldn't know because I couldn't do it, I let Liat try but she couldn't do it either so then when David Hrr tried it actually worked. Everyone was crowded around my locker, but I didn't feel embarresed, I guess I don't get embarresed by much anymore. Last night my parents said that I looked rediculous in my converses, but my friends said it looked cool, so obviously they never knew what they were talking about. Even if my friends didn't say it looked cool, it wouldn't have mattered much to me, I will wear what I want. If I'm not embarrased by it, nobody else should be either. I can't believe that from tomorrow, it will be 23 days until my birthday! I can't wiat! But I am much more excited for Valentines day, it's going to be so exciting, if I don't get one from a guy, then at least I will get one form a friend. I just love Valentines day so much! (Excuse the pun). OMG I can't believe what I got told today! We had to drop off Emily at the orthadontist because she is getting her braces off in a month, so my mom asked to check mine and Ruth's teeth just to see if we would need braces or not, and I found out I NEED BRACES! How stupid are they trying to make me look|? It's bad enough I have glasses, but now glasses AND braces??? WHYYYYYYY??????????????????? URGH I am so annoyed with that! I can't believe I have to get braces! My teeth aren't even scew! Okay, maybe one or two are, but I mean seriously, who really cares? (sigh) Just make my life a living hell why don't you?! Anyway, I think I am finished everything I need to say except for the fact that Ruth still hasn't gotten my art picture, so, bye!

I know what people will say, they will say I look rediculous in my shoes, but I don't care. You see, I'm wearing this dress (yuk) and it's all pretty and girly, and then if you lookd down, you will see my broken, worn out dirty converses, and my parents say it's rediculous, but I don't care. I just want to have a bit of tomboyness in my life tonight, is that really too much to ask? It's not like it affecting anyone, and if I don't care other people shouldn't care either. I don't see why I should be embarrased by it, it's unusual, but I don't care. If people was to crittecise, let them. I heard the song Let It Be on the radio today, and that is exactly what I like to think. "Let it be" I'm in a dress tonight because I'm going to a bar and bat mitzvah, yes, two in one night. I am going to Isabella's for the first hour and 15 minutes, and then I'm going to Grant and Haydens for the last few hours, I'm going to Grant and Haydens for longer because I've known them for much longer and they are much better friends with me than Isabella, and also because my mom said those exact words to me when I asked her if I could stay at Isabellas for 2 hours and Grant and Haydens for 2 hours. She won't let me. It doesn't matter though, at least at Grant and Haydens I will be have someone to talk to while everyone else is dancing to the crap they call music. Today wasn't so bad. First we had to drop Emily off at Kirstenboch because.. Well... I don't know what that was about, and we were origonally going to go to see a movie, but we didn't, instead we went to go play Putt Putt in Muzeburg. Anyway, I have to go now, but I might come again after the barmi and batti. Anywho, tata

Today wasn't so bad, in fact, it was pretty awesome. The only bad things about today is that I woke up so early this morning (I woke up at 8:40) and I was all excited to watch VD but did it work? No, of course not, but it's okay. My day today completely made up for that. I had a great breakfast, and then I had to get dresses quickly because I had to go to the Optomotrist with Ruth Emily and my dad because Ruth needs glasses. I personally don#t like the frame that she chose, but oh well, if she likes it she likes it, I don't think she did though, she didn't look very happy with them, I know how I felt when my optomotrist suggested these crappy frames to me and I wasn't disagreeing with them, it was all okay though because in the end I chose once that suited me pretty well, even though I look completely rediculous in them. I look like the ugliest thing that has ever walked this planet with my glasses on, but you know what? I will have to wear theme every week, but I am okay with that. It's not like I have a choice. Anyway, while Ruth was in the room and my dad and Emily and I were waiting, we decided to walk to Kaui and get something to drink, I had orange juice. While we walked there we stopped at two shops, so we walked there, went to two shops, sat down at Kaui for 10 minutes, walked back and still had to wait for Ruth. It was okay though because when we got back we only had to wait again for about 5 minutes. Apparently the person who was like the secretary knew St. John and is an aunty to Tai. I was definitely not expecting that, it was really a surprise that a stranger knows people I know. Anyway, we dropped Ruth off at Zoe and Emily and my dad and I went to China Town. Itsure does look a lot like China (not that I hav ever been to China) Anyway I was completely bored there, Emily kept trying to tell me to buy these things that I would never even consider wearing, she obviously doesn't understand my taste in clothes, well, she does a bit, but hardly. I never expected all people at the desk to be Chinese, I mean, I know the place is called China Town, but still, it took me by surprise, a lot of things today took me by surprise. Anyway, after China Town my dad decided to take us to his work, just to show us. It's the golf place and it's pretty cool. There is this Mini Golf thing that looks really hard,and we were going to do it but there was this whole complicated thing to do with a slip you had to have and then the long way to the place you had to pay and so on. Anyway, we ended up not doing it, it was pretty funny though because on the way to the crar my dad stepped in blue bubble-gum. So after the golf place, we went to Tygervalley because my dad said that we could go to Jay Jays. They hadn't changed their clothes at all! I mean, it has been practically a month, why wouldn't they change their stock? Well I didn't find anything there to do with cool bands and stuff, but Emily found something for me, and I quite like it. So after Jay Jays (which I seriously felt bad for because it was R200) we went to go get some lunch (we were still in Tygervalley) and we went to Steers first, so I got my burger and then my dad wanted to go get somehting for him at Nandos so Emily and I waited in Kapow, and then I once again was very surprised at what I saw. I was just browsing around and then I cam across these T-shirts, and they had these bands on them like Guns N Roses, and Deep Purple and Metallica and Red Hot Chilli Peppers and David Bowie and it was just so awesome! I asked dad if I could get the Deep Purple one and he said yes, the only problem was the fact that they were boys shirts. It didn't matter because Emily said she would help me and she said that she could cut it to make it a girls shirt, so I'm pretty excited to wear it. I found out that Jarred is in Jo-burg for the weekend (not that I care). I also found out that the girls that are going to Isabellas batti and grant and haydens barmi are all going to Isabellas first for like 2 hourrs. My mom said that I'm not alowed to go for longer than an hour, which I'm okay with. That way I will only be missing the first half an hour for Grant and Haydens barmi. Anyway, it's tomorrow and I have no idea what I'm going to wear. It doesn't matter though, I can decide tomorrow. I can't believe Klitah is so soon, I seriously don't want to go. I can't believe that I have to miss hip-hop, I really really don#t want to miss out on the new dance. Oh well, I guess I can catch on, maybe Klitah won't be so bad. The only thing I am excited for is the fact that it will be the month of Valentines day! Yay :) I seriously can't wait! Well, I have to go now, I am going to go watch Paranormal Activity. I watched the beginning but then my dad had to go fetch Ruth from the party she was at and now he is home, so I'm going to go carry on, it's one creepy-ass movie. Well, tell you how it is tomnorrow.

(sigh) No, not this time, this time it's much worse. Not only are my poarents fighting with each other, but now my granny is included in the fight this time too. OMG I can't believe it! I just found out that they have been fighting like this and they have left Scolly (my parents friend) sitting there all by himself! I hate how my parents fight, you know sometimes I just wish that they would get divorced, if they did, I would definitely go live with my dad. I hate my mom, she has to start everything! URGH! My day has just not gone well! The only good things about today is that there was no wind and I'm finally getting to watch the next episode of Vampire Diaries, I mean come on, what kind of a day is it when they highlight was the fact tht there was no wind! Why me? I guess I do deserve it. Well, I'm okay with having bad days, I mean sure, I much prefer good days but having bad days is much better than having no days at all. Some day, something will come up and it will just make me forget about all of these bad days. My mom is dissing my granny now, I was actually about to say how can someone says something about their own mother like that, but I guess my thoughts about my mother comes from her. But seriously, Nan hasn't done anything bad, she is so nice! I wonder what it would be like to be a cat. They just lie around all day, not having to worry about anything at all. School today wasn't great, I noticed that Jarred wasn't there (not that I care), and then I got into trouble with Mr. Frank because I needed to ask him a question, so as I walked in the class he was standing by the door so I said "Um, Mr. Frank" and he cut me off by saying "Stand here, you spoke as you entered the class" so he made me stand by David M. who was also sent to stand there for talking, and so then he made David push in the chairs and made me clean up the floor! URGH! And then we were supposed to draw a diagram for marks in Science (still with Mr Frank) and I had to draw a leaf, and my diagram was terrible! Not to brag but I'm not usually bad at that kind of stuff, and today I just completely sucked! I felt like I was about to start crying! Why, of all times did I have to all of a sudden not do well in the diagram when it was for marks?! I really wanted to impress Mr. Frank, but I'm pretty sure he completely hates me. And then I got my fringe cut yesterday, but Mrs. Cook still says it's too long! And... And... (sigh). You know, I didn't think today was so bad until I look now and see how sucky it was. My parents and my granny are screaming at each other now. How the hell are they supposed to think that me, as a 12 year old in the next room, to just sit here smiling as if I can't hear them at all. I hate her (my mom), my dad and Nan are trying to talk to each otehr about it, and my mom is just there screaming her head off! They close the sliding plastic type thing as if we can't hear them. I just don't feel like talking to anybody or listening to anybody. (sigh). Ruth still didn't get my art picture, when will this annoyingness ever end! I can't believe I can only go to Isabellas batti for an hour! Well, I don't care, it's not like it could be any worse than today was. It's just that nobody else is leaving at the same time as me, which kind of sucks. I just don't ever want to feel like I did today. (sigh) Everything is just so messed up, hopefully it will get better, Oh well...My sister is so annoying, she doesn't need the computer I am using right now, but she insists she goes on! Well I'm not budging! I refuse! I can't let this horrible day go on any longer! URGH! I just... I just want to watch vampire diaries, so Bye.

Okay so everything is just so complicated. Last night when I said I had to go, I did leave, but then I came back on and Jarred Berman started talking to me. He was telling me about how he likes Teagan and I was giving him suggestions on how he can get her to like him. Anyway, we had a very nice long conversation and then he says "actually I like 3 people" so I said "Really? Who?" and he said Teagan, Kayla and you". Can you believe it, he said that to me! Anyway, I was telling him the many reasons why he was making a huge mistake, you know, I told him because I was ugly and I'm not like the other girls, and he said "No, you are pretty, and the other girls have no personality like you do" so then we got into this whole thing about how I was trying to prove him wrong and he was just disagreeing with me, and the he said " If Teagan doesn't work out, I am going to ask you out" so I told him he was, once again, making a huge mistake and then we got into a notehr thing with the proving wrong and the diagreeing and stuff. Anyway, the thing is, he lieks Teagan a lot more than he likes me, so I'm just still helping him with Teagan and stuff, He asked me to tell Teagan some stuff and then I told her and after I told her I asked her if she liked him back and she said no. I was trying to convince her that she should go for it, but she just won't budge. Anyway I told Jarred this and he was pretty upset, but then i told him that he should give her a Valentines day card (ofc ourse only on Valentines day) and I told him this adorable story of how he could give it to her. Anyway, we were just having fun talkign and stuff but then my sister had to come and ruin it all because she wanted to go on the computer, so I said I would sms him and he said, ya Okay cool, so I did sms him, but he never replied. He didn't reply last night in the middle of our convo, and it just annoys me. I don't know what it is about him, I don't need him to like me or anything, he is just someone I want to become friends with, I don't know why though. Apparently he is such a playa, but... I don't know, there is probably something wrong with me, I've never even had a conversation with him face to face (sigh). Anyway, Kayla was there with Teagan when I told her at hip-hop because she started hip-hop today. I don't mind it, but I just don't know what Sidne is going to say.Today was the first lesson for us ever since the holidays, and it was great, it's just, next week we are going to be away and they are starting a new dance and now we are going to miss it and it's just so horrible. I don't even want to go to Klitah, it's not going to be nice. I am going to be left out, and yes there is a talent show, but what talent do I have? have no talent at all. I just hope someone brings their guitar so that I can play it, I don't know how I'm going to go so long without playing guitar. It's not good for anything, Klitah is just going to be horrible, the thing I love about camp with the grade is that we get to talk with each other, but I don't think I'm going to get to know anybody better. I had this dream last night, it was such a great dream, and guess who was in it, you know what I'll just tell you, Jarred Berman! I don't like him, I know it may seem that I do, but I don't. I have never had a conversation with him and... (sigh), I'm pretty sure I don't like him. I don't know who I like, it's all just so confusing. Adam keeps annoying me, why me? Why does he have to choose to annoy me? Why not someone better than me, like Teagan or Isabel or... Someone better, Okay I need to go shower now, but I will be right back... (practically and hour later)Sorry I took so long but there were so many things going on after the shower, I was shaving my legs and some how I managed to cut the very tip of my thumb,whih is the most awkward place anyone could ever cut themselves!Today is just not my day. My parents were fighting again so my mom did what she usually does every night (that's how much they fight) and she stormed off and went to bed, how could she do this to me? I need to have my fringe cut or Mrs. Cook is going to send me home, the highlight of my day today is waking up and remembering my dream, it really was a great dream. Ruth once again hasn't gotten my art picture yet, I can't believe she just forgets like that! URGH! I hate not having that picture, I drew it the first time and then it got messed up from the dye, and it took me like two lessons to actually finish it, and then I drew it again! ANd it is the best picture I have ever drawn in my entire life. I just feel like I want to burst into tears, and I highly doubt tomorrow is going to be any better because we have our first cycle test, and it's on Maths! My worst subject! I'll bet tomorrow is going to be just as bad as today, in fact, I think it will be much worse. I also found out that my birthday isn't only until 27 days have passed! 27 DAYS! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE??? The weekend will probably suck too- OUCH! I just poked myself on the eyeball! What is the matter with me? You see, it's Grant and Haydens barmi and Isabellas batti, now I want to go to Isabellas first, and my mom said I can but I can only stay for an hour and 15 minutes, and then I must go to Grant and Haydens, but I just want to see what Teagan is doing, and then I'll decide... Tomorrow. Not something I'm looking forward to. Well, I just don't really feel like talking anymore, so I'm just going to go. (sigh) bye.

I am deciding to write very early because I am always so tired when it's late and then I just forget everything, so now, my mind id wide open, memories are falling to place and I am now just one of those happy people, maybe being tired makes me crappy and grumpy, oh well. Anyway, my parents are going to watch Emily sing tonight and they will only be coming back at nine, so now I can finally sing to my guitar, of course I can only do it if Ruth is like, watching TV or something. Ruth forgot to get my art picture, once again, URGH! When will she just get into that art room and get it! I am so annoyed with her! I found out that Klitah is only on the 2nd of February, which is great because now I can have my Valentines day taht I have always wanted, well, hopefully. The only think I will seriously hate about the day is not getting any cards, it's not a definitele thing, but it's not an actual fact that I am going to be egtting one. If I do, I hope it's a rose, that is probably the thing I would want most, I do not want a chocolate, it must either be a card or a rose, no chocolates and no stuffed toys. What am I saying? I just don't want to get my hopes up too high just to be disappointed and not get anything, (sigh). I never see my friends anymore now that we are no longer in the same class, like David H, Josh P, Kyle H and... Well ya. I miss hanging out with them, you know, just us 5 alone (also including Dylan K) anyway, I just have to get the fact into my mind that I can't have everything that I want, it would just be nice to have a "reunion" once in a while. Dylan and I are having this major debate about which TV show is better, he says "Seinfeld" but I say "Friends", I mean, yes, Seinfeld is funny, but it's nowhere near as funny as to Friends, well I probably just say that because I grew up with Friends, ever since Grade R, I have been watching and understanding Friends, I even thought it was funny! I know the fact that when I was like, 4, I understood and thought Friends was funny sounds very false, but it's true, I promise. I remember this one time that my one friend from my class came to my house and I had convinced him to watch Friends with me, and then he kept saying he wanted to watch a different movie but I refused and tried to persuade him to keep watching by explaining why it was funny. You know how I said I was writing this much earlier? Well, my parents made me go shower, and then I found Ruth on the computer so it took me a while to get her off, eventually, I had to lie to her and say it was for homework, and then I had to go get supper, so now I am here. Anyway, today was pretty cool, Sean did the joking hello thing again, it was pretty funny. Deej threw a popcorn at me, and Jarryd Berman was walking next to him, so I said sarcasticly to him "Please, keep throwing food at me" and then Jarryd smiled! Of course then Deej said "Okay" and he threw another one at me, so I just said "thanks" once again, sarcastically. I also said a sentence to Justin, so I'm getting closer by the second to be friends with the 3 J's. Wow, I'm so pathetic, oh well, who is it really hurting? I also saw the Bermans walking up to school togother, Gabbi, Robbi, Jarryd and ohmygosh I forgot the last one! Oh well. Anyway, I don't see why that matters... Today we had CAG (Communal Action Group) and we didn't go anywhere but we were discussing about where we were going to go, who we were going to go with ect. Mrs Cook really isn't that bad, I know she is freakishly strict, but she is actually nice when she is teaching, or doing CAG. Anyway, I don't really have much else to say, unless I have forgotten about it. Well, I need to go now, so bye.

Only three weeks until my birthday, I'm just so excited! I seriously can't wait, and I am also really excited about Valentines day which is in 10 days. Yay! I don't know what it is about this up coming Febuary, it just feels like it's going to be the best month of this year! OMG I will never be able to get any cards if it's on that Monday! I think Klitah satrts on the 11th which means... URGH! I just wish that it started on the 10th, that would just make my whole February be as awesome as I always thought it would be until this moment. (sigh) Why me?! Oh well, no roses, or cards, or chocolates for me, I guess I just don't deserve it. I can't believe what happened at school today, when we had Hebrew, Morag Gerrassi was giving us this whole lecture about how something rude had been said about her on facebook, and I think I was the one taht said them. Well, what I said wasn't rude, I just said I couldn't understand her because of the way she speaks. It's all her stupid friends fault, why did she even have to find out? Maybe she isn't talking about me, I didn't say anything rude. Speaking fo school, I have this maths thing that I need to figure out for tomorrow, you see, I'm not sure if we were supposed to do the whole page, so I need to get to school early tomorrow to find out before school starts and before I have maths. I had creative writing today, it was great. I seriously had a lot of fun, I wrote two different paragraphs, one I didn't let her see (you don't have to show her if you don't want to) and the other I handed in for her to keep, she said she would read it but I'm not so sure she will be happy with it, I don't think it's really good. What if she hates it? Then she will think that I am a terrible writer and taht she shouldn't even botehr reading my stuff anymore. (sigh) I just can't believe how I think I have so many important problems, well I have problems, and they are important to me, and I know it's stupid but, I just sometimes feel like I just have terrible days each day. I don't really, I just... I don't know. It was really funny today because when school ended and I was on my way to creative writing with Isabel, we passed Sean and he said " Goodbye Sarah-jo" He was joking of course, you know, how people say things like that in that weird way when they don't really mean it. Anyway, I know what I'm talking about (well of course I do), anyway, it was just funny. I want to become friends with the three J's so badly! When I say three J's I'm talking about Justin, Jayson and Jarryd. Justin and Jayson from Constantia and Jarryd from Weizmann. I also want to become friends with Robbie, but not as much as the three J's. I just want Valentines day to come and be a long day. (sigh). I have Grant and Haydens barmi this weekend, as well as Isabellas. I'm quite excited, but.. I don't really ahve much to say,like, I'm thinking it but I can't really put it into words. Anyway, Ruth keeps forgetting to get my picture that I drew from art and it's actually starting to annoy me a lot. I will just have to remind her constantly. Anyway, I am pretty tired now, so I'm off to bed, night!

Everything is just so complicated. So many things go on in my house, if I were to switch lives with one fo my friends for just a day, they would never be able to survive. I'm so tired. Emily helped me with my maths homeowrk today, which was pretty nice, but I still hate her. I'm not a huge fan of Brendan either, why does he have to act the way he does? He is one of those people that are just comp;letely rude, but everyone just laughs at him. I keep telling myself that I won't say anything at school because when ever I do, I always say something wrong or stupid. I have been improving on that, I didn't speak as much today as I normally would have, I like it that way. I'm better off with being the one who is quiet and the one who people like Brendan and Deej make fun of. I don't really care, I wasn't put in this world to please other people. I have creative writing tomorrow which ispretty awesome, I am really looking forward to it. Adam sent me a message on facebook about how he wants to talk to me every time he walks past me but then chickens out, I seriously hope he doesn't ever talk to me ever again. Every time he apologises for the way he acts, he always adds in these little comments taht I really don't want to hear, like he will say " I'm really sorry for the way I've been acting, |I just want you to know that I like you". Why would he think I would want to hear that? At least when Teagan gets told she is liked, it's by people who are not annoying and who are worth liking back and who are not creepy stalkers. Like Jarred B., he is hot, and he asked Teagan to dance, but she shot him down. He is probably one of those weizmann boys who I would like to become friends with, (as if he would want to be the loners friend). Oh well. Hmm, I better go to bed, my dad doesn't seem very happy and I am just so tired. Anway, night!

Why does she get such a great song? Why does she get it when she does not deserve it at all? I hate Emily. She always acts like she is such a grown up and she always thinks that she is wiser and more helpful than Ruth and I, she even tried to tell me something about music yesterday as if she knew more than I did. She doesn't know anything, and then she gets this amazing song. See Emily Play by Pink Floyd, why does she get such a nice song? She does not deserve, and the horrible thing is that I so badly want to use it for her birthday. Well, I have always loved giving people presents, I could never give them only one, it had to be at least two, I think one time I went up to about 5 things. I just don't see why everything good happens to her or has happened to her. She has these really awesome bags, one with the Rolling Stones on it and anotehr with The Beatles on it. Why? She just interfears with everything, and she is just so... Urggh! I just can't stand her. Let's just put Emily aside, I don't want to think about her anymore. It's only a month until my birthday! Yay! I don't know why I am so excited, I have never been this excited so many days before my birthday, in fact, it usually takes me two days before to actually get me to be excited. I don't know what it is about this upcoming birthday, I just have a feeling it's going to be really special. I was thinking today about the time I said " I don't have anybody to play guitar with " and then Emma said "Well I'll learn to play guitar and then we can play together!" I seriously liked that idea, anyway, today I was thinking how cool iot would be if Emma learned to play guitar and then we could join bands with Dyland and David and whoever else was in their band. I could be the singer! I know that sounds seriously selfish, but I don't see anybody else who likes the same music as us and, well, I've never actually heard Emma sing, so I guess it is pretty stupid of me to assume like that, but I'm always having these fantasies about how great it would be to sing the amazing songs such as Don't let me down and Another brick in the wall and Doolin-Dalton and War and all the great songs that they love too. I don't have to play guitar in all of the songs, but the ones I know really well. It's stupid of me to think like that though, I just have to face the fact that I don't have a good voice and it is most likely to never happen. Anyway, moving on to reality, my eye was itchy today so I scratched it and two eyelashes were on my hand, I made a wish on both of them. I wished that I would get more than one Valentinse card on Valentinse day. I don't think that's going to happen either, I mean, what I have expirienced so far in the Middle School, is that nobody actually likes me. Oh well, a girl can dream. Well, I think I really better go to bed now, it's school tomorrow and I don't want to be too tired. Speaking of school I might have to wear a skort tomorrow because my mom can't find my pants, which really sucks, I seriously don't want to wear a skort. Oh well, I just can't get a break these days. (sigh) well, good night.

Omg you won't believe what happened! Somebody actually made the story Is This Love on fanfiction, the story I wrote on the Pirates of the Carrabean, one of their favourites! Isn't that cool? i really was not expectiing to even get a reveiw! Well, that sure was a surprise. Anyway, today was cool, I woke up at about 9, went back to sleep and woke up again at about 10. It's weekends now, on friday we had to wear blazors, I think everyone looked pretty cool. We had a nice day yesterday, I loved Science, we had to draw a picture of the person next to us in the most accurate way we could, I quite like drawing people. It's fun, on Monday we have Arts and Culrute, which I'm pretty excited for, well, if we have Art then that's just going to make my day. I just came back from a barmitzvah, Sam Sacks, and it was the most adorable thing. Gabbi Berman and Sam Sack are going out, so when the DJ said the boys must get a girl and sing this song to her, him and Gabbi were dancing together, and it was just the cutest thing ever. Not everyone was invited and I wasn't dancing, so I was pretty much sitting by myself but it didn't bnother me, people thought that I was sad, which I was a little bit, and they kept asking me to come and dance, and then Kiara and and Mikka came and placed a hat on my head, and taht probably sounds weird but it was actually very nice. Jarryd Berman asked Teagan to dance, which I thought was the cutest thing ever. It got me thinking that, nobody actually likes me. I was really hoping to make some hot guy friends, I don't need to be anything more than friends, but I just want a hot guy friend from a different school, but nobody likes me. Teagan doesn't even know anybody and she already got someone to ask her to dance. Oh well, I guess I put people off by being by myself, it doesn't matter, I can't always have evrything go my way. Before the barmi, I had to go to Sidne to write Erins speech with Kayla, it's not the greatest speech, but oh well. Sidne told me that I looked stupid with my leggings, and I did, but I didn't think she would comment on it, that's kidn fo what got me getting sad, I know it shouldn't, and it didn't really, it just got me crittesizing myself again. It doesn't matter though, nothing matters anymore. Well hey, at least I learned one of my favourite on giutar, Doolin-Dalton. I sure do love that song, it's just such a pity that nobody cares. What's meant to be is meant to be. I have a new favourite song, well I don't like to call it my favourite song because it's not my only favourite song, it's one of my favourite songs. It's called Goodbye Blue Sky by Pink Floyd, I don't know what it is about me, I have this crazy obsession over Roger Waters. He had such an interesting life, imagine that, thinking that you were some type of Nazi when you were performing. The album The Wall is only really based on Rpger Waters, but I like to think that the character, Pink, was exactly like him, I like to think that it is in actual fact him completely. I still don't know what a protagonist is, my parents told me, two days ago I think it was, but I forgot. It just interests me so much, it just annoys me that I have no one to share my interests with. I can't wait until I get a poster of a rock band for my birthday, which is coming up in one month! I'm so excited! Well, I think I'm going to head off to bed now, I'm pretty tired. I would just like to end off by saying "Let it be"