My dad just dyed his hair blonde....yikes! he looks like a twat.....

Last night this TV competition show-thingy (Must be the music) finished and this girl Emma's Imagination won it. Her music is beautiful, anybody who loves acoustic stuff should really give her a listen. WannabePunkEmoKid

So I am now known as GreendayGirl or Ed (my initials) and, yeh, I don't like it (Ed more than GDG). These two boys I know started up a joke, Ed, and now pratically all the guys are calling me that (or Eddy). It actually hurts when they say it and I try to cover it up by ignoring them and so on but it still is getting to me - along with the emo/goth/etc. comments. People'll say that I bring the goth/emo/etc. ones upon myself but the reason I express myself like that is because of them, calling me what they do. I just wanna be accepted for who I am, not my grades, not my clothes, not what I like. Also my brother is getting totally pissed with me because I always have music channels on (MTV Rocks, Kerrang or Q mostly), I can't help it though when life gets hard I turn up the radio or play my guitar a lot more. Sometimes life stings.... WannabePunkEmoKid

It is raining. Heavy. It's windy too, so windy that in French today you could see the tiles lifting from the ceiling. I am not kidding. Summer is officially over. Yippee... It don't help when a hair-ography type band (not hair metal, hair metal kicks ass) are on the TV. Oh the joys of life, shitty weather, shitty music and nearly passing out, all in one day. I think I should count my blessings (I am pretty lucky after all) Home Family Health Education Freedom I got all them. WannabePunkEmoKid Oh yeh yesterday my brother wondered into my room, lay down on my bed, talked to me for a minute and then fell asleep. Very Random.....

Where does the universe end? If it does..... I've been imagining flying through space, on and on and on then wouldn't you come to something, like a wall, you'd want to see over that wall so you'd climb over it (well that idea) and then you'd keep going and you'd repeat that again. So when would that cycle end, would it even? I don't think we'll ever know. Unless we find a way to travel faster than the speed of light (in saying that Einstein said if you can travel faster than the speed of light you can travel in time). We'll just have to keep imagining and dreaming, the sky's the limit there. We'll come up with endless theories and half of them we won't know if they're right. C'est la vie.... Another thing, everything leads down to a question; Why is the world always changing? Because of us. How did we get here? (I'm a Christian but I'll use this theory) The big bang. How did that happen? Loads of different gases and so on reacted and millions and millions of years later here we are. How did all those 'gases and so on' get there? See my point? Obviously I don't expect anybody to reply to this, I am just totally bored and then I got thinking about all this..... WannabePunkEmoKid Also does Taylor Momsens Daddy know she's out dressed like that?

La la la la la..... Rum Tum Tum Riddley Tum...... The music channels are on and I'm singing....tra la la.... Feels good :)

When lifes got handed out i musta been pretty near the back of the line. In school I am an outsider, a freak, a weirdo, whatever effing thing. People think cause im different that i dont feel anything

Another day, another journal.... Things I learned today: o Laughter is a good medicine. o Some people are very immature. o Do not laugh during a performance in drama. o People assume emos slit their wrists (or harm themselves in another way). o Rugby is a dangerous sport. o Switch off Ipods in class. o My maths class are screwed tomorrow but it is worth it. Laughter is a good medicine + My maths class are screwed: No teacher showed up for us today so we sat for a full fifty minutes remembering things and having a laugh. It was so fun, we are most likely screwed tomorrow though 'cause we knew we wouldn't get our usual teacher and nobody showed up to supervise us during a test (a test which we didn't do), we didn't try to find somebody to supervise us either, yeh so we are screwed - but it is so worth it. Some people are immature + Do not laugh during a performance in drama: Drama today somebody lifted up a girls skirt, right up......funny but very cruel. I also started laughing at one of the boys in my group (he was hilarious) during the scene we were performing for the class, I did manage to control myself though. Today was a funny day....... WannabePunkEmoKid xxx

I just got back from a walk and my nose and ears are soooo cold. On my walk I got lost, in the public park which I hadnt been in for a few years, its all over grown and broken glass and stuff. It was actually pretty scary but then i doubled back on myself and found the way to the bit with the benches and swings etc. So i sat listening to my Ipod and wrote in my tescos notebook for about five minutes then somebody decided it should rain. I put my notebook away and began to walk home again and the rain stopped after hardly starting. Of course this is just my luck.......

I was at a book festival yesterday, yeh it was alright, there was this author there talking about her two books (which I bought and got signed) and doing Q&A. She was pretty inspirational, in fact she got me thinking about an idea for a story and I ended up going to Tesco's last night to buy a notebook for it, so I guess that's that. Another thing, the first thing one of my best friends asked me today was, "What would you do if your parents were divorced and one of them was going to move to another country?" She has to make this decision, go to Australia with her mum, step-dad and two li'l brothers or stay in Britain with her dad, step-mum and two li'l sisters. She's stuck in the middle. WannabePunkEmoKid '~' P.S- I looked back at my other journal entries before writing this, some of them sound so stupid and stuff, it's a bit weird looking at them, but I guess that's how I felt on those days..... P.P.S- I'm listening to Neutron Star Collision by Muse and somehow it soothes me...:)