I didn't wake up one day and decide I woke up as a child and tried to hide the feelings I had the sin and shame I didnt ever decide to feel this pain and I am shame, suicide, and sin. I am disapproval and the hatred within. I am learning to hide, to bottle it inside. I am confusion, unknowing without pride. I am shame, suicide, and sin. and you better fucking know, I am human. how can you say my rights are wrong? denied by society not excepted by god. I am anger, and dont you fucking blame it on a little black book its your damn hatred. and I am shame, suicide, and sin. I am disapproval and the hatred within. I am learning to hide, to bottle it inside. I am confusion, unknowing without pride. I am shame, suicide, and sin. and you better fucking know, I am human.

I've been down that path and it never ends one foot out but they still dunk your head and you've felt love but you kept it inside you married a girl but you still cant hide Someday you'll realize, just like me. that in the end you cant live miserabally doesnt mean your coming out to everybody doesnt mean its a sin to love somebody doesnt mean the road will end it just keeps going that just means you find hapiness and stop caring Nobody wins but thats okay sometimes. Nobody wins in the end and thats life. Nobody wins. Dont love her for approvel and i knew you were from the first time i met you dont love her just for approvel love yourself even if you feel its sinful. Someday you'll realize, just like me. that in the end you cant live miserabally doesnt mean your coming out to everybody doesnt mean its a sin to love somebody doesnt mean the road will end it just keeps going that just means you find hapiness and stop caring Nobody wins but thats okay sometimes. Nobody wins in the end and thats life. Nobody wins.

Youre a child, cry in the limelight Youre parents make it feel right now your older but your still crying but theres no one to stop the feeling

Wouldnt you hate it, if things were better for me? when things dont fit, you get your fix dont you agree?

youre always talking about what you want you say youre done but then you make me talk. again. always again. the fake drips from you in cold sweats and you go forward with no regrets like that night you told me i was special no feelings its falsley emotional. and you say it my choice to be abused you say youre sorry and then you use me again. always again. why do i go back to this, love can make you do some crazy shit. Im not unfimilar with being walked on. I am a first for you so you should be the one feeling grateful. so goddam regretful. why did you let me feel special?! youre always talking about what you want you say youre done but then you make me talk. again. always again. and you say it my choice to be abused you say youre sorry and then you use me again. always again.

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Em g Im going to the war so I can feel like a man Not that I didn’t feel holding your hand. I was ashamed; I was the feeling of guilt I was the awkward nights of facing what I felt. Am c g And why don’t I have rights anymore? Am c em Just to fit the feelings, I’ve felt before. Em c g I am a man; I’m going off to war. Am c em So I can remember what I’m for. em g And I remember my father’s fists Hurtling into the sides you grab my wrists. All I wanted was approval I’m not being a man I’m being sinful. Em c g Im going off to war so I can hold your hand, can hold your hand. Im going off to sit not at his left hand, right hand right hand. And god will look on me, look on me not like my father had. Em c em Im going off to be a man, to be man. Am c g And why don’t I have rights anymore? Am c em Just to fit the feelings, I’ve felt before. Em c g I am a man; I’m going off to war. Am c em So I can remember what I’m for.

thought you were diffrent i should of known you'd gone bad youre just a little bit different should of known you were bad i tell myself im different i tell myself im special to you im just a little bit different now what the fuck do i mean to you i should of known you'd gone bad. youre like that little old lady you know the one with the cane? and she comes outside daily, every hour on the lane... now what the fuck is she staring at? yeah what the fuck is it now? i guess she knew you were bad. i guess she knew you were bad. thought you were diffrent i should of known you'd gone bad youre just a little bit different should of known you were bad i tell myself im different i tell myself im special to you im just a little bit different now what the fuck do i mean to you i should of known you'd gone bad. now what the fuck is she staring at?

I love you Mary Jane Said spiderman to the back of his hand. Im not feeling good today, guess I'll take the pill and melt away. And im a fire made boy on my ice melting girl and i wouldnt be here stuttering if it wasnt for this world.

I love you Mary Jane Said spiderman to the back of his hand. Im not feeling good today, guess I'll take the pill and melt away. And im a fire made boy on my ice melting girl and i wouldnt feel so stupid in this damn world.