GOOD NEWS! So I think me and Anthony are good :] Ontop of that, I'm trying to get him to stay the night at my house on Friday. Hopefully he will. Today I am working til 2 and then Kellie and Zak are coming to pick me up and we are going back to his house. I'm planning on smoking up soooooo much. I need to relax. I need a back massage. God I don't even care if Stefan is ugly, he is Zaks friend who is coming. I just will be the life of the party :D I just want to see Anthony. FRIDAY BETTER COME SOON.

BRIGHT SIDE= maybe we aren't over. Maybe everything will be okay. Maybe I'll stay happy. Maybe Haley will want to be with Ty every single day, because apparently they are back together now. Maybe I'll get to stick around with Anthony. Oh dear God, please let this work. Let Ty stay out of trouble, not go to jail. Let Haley love him. Let her want to go there every day. And most of all, let Anthony really like me.

AWESOME. I'm fucking pissed right now. Haley just flipped out and now she and Ty aren't dating. So I guess that means that me and Anthony are gunna break up too. Since Haley was my only way there for when me and her went to see them. I'm wicked pissed though that I'm crying. I put my guard down cause I thought it'd be okay and then I get fucked again so now I'll never see him again. It's not like anyone even cares either. Haleys mad at me cause I told her that and I'm like fucking pissed. I can't even talk to Anthony cause his phone must have died. God I just fucking give up. Nothing ever works out for me so why do I even bother trying.

So work was long. I have to work again tomorrow 10 to 2. At least I will be interacting with people. I'm not working friday or saturday so I can stay with Anthony but because I am not working I have to work 6 to midnight on Sunday! :( but at least i will have had a great, stress relieving weekend with Anthony :]

O on facebook last night, right when I changed my relationship status... not only did I get a million "Likes" and comments, but a text. A text from Alex Winchell. He is the one I wrote about in the first entry. He was asking all these questions about Anthony and about us dating. He doesn't want me to be dating him but he never really told me why, other than he doesn't want it to be another Drew thing. But still.... I had a nightmare last night. I woke up because of it this morning. All I can remember is; "Sarah wakes up and is on the computer next to my bed when I am sleeping. She wakes me and says she hears a noise down stairs. I woke and said that it was some one in the kitchen, but apparently it was only me, sarah and my brother noah. So I fall back to sleep and moments later my little brother runs into my room and say 'me and sarah heard to elevator, we need to get out of here.' And as we all rushed out of the upstairs window of my room I woke up." Strange. Well I have to work tonight, which probably wont be so bad. Friday I am supposed rto go see Anthony and stay over Ty's house as long as I am not working Friday night or Saturday morning. I really hope I'm not. I love making out and that's what I'm planning to do alllllll night :] He wants to have sex, of course, so I'm thinking about that situation as well. AND he's not white, I feel very proud haha cause I have never met anattractive Puerto Rican other than him. It's just weird that we are dating now cause me and Haley are bestfriends, literally. And Ty and Anthony are bestfriends. So any time Haley goes to see Ty, she always takes me. And anytime when I get a car and I go see Anthony I will take her! Which works out perfectly for both of us. Last night when we were just all hanging out, at the Loop in Methuen, we weren't really talking to Ty and Anthony. It was a me and Haley type deal. But then Haley asked for like 3 minutes of alone time while Anthony was going to the bathroom, so I went too. It was totally awkward cause I didn't even know where the bathrooms were and so I followed hime but he didnt see me until after we were already leaving the building to go see Ty and Haley again. But when Anthony stole Haleys car keys Ty jumped in the front seat and left me with Anthony in the back who was mad that I wasn't sitting pretty much ontop of him lol. But then we started making out and he was touching my leg and my crotch over my pants and tried to get in but I wouldn't let him :] And my hand was down his pants and I don't even know what was happening. All I know is that I am not doing that in the back of Haley's car with her and Ty both watching..AWKWARD. Well maybe I'll have another story to tell tonight from work.

So tonight I went with Haley to Lawrence again. Hung out with Ty and Anthony. He introduced me to his friend as his girlfriend and he said this is the most beautiful girl in the world to me. His friend replies "Shes beautiful to me too." How awkward. So after making out in the back of Haleys car we had to leave :[ Which sorta sucks but we had to get home. Ill see him again this weekend so I am fairly excited! I start work tomorrow, which is going to suckkkk. But I need the money so I suppose it is alright. Well I am planning out my weekend now so Ill be off for the night.

Yesterday I hung out with Haley, Ty and Anthony in Lawrence. It wasn't really fun but it gave us something to do. They kept staring at my boobs, but I didn't tell Haley that cause it was mostly Ty doing it. After that we were going to hang out with this kid Andrew who, like all these other guys that have been talking to me lately, wants to do me. Today Andrew wants to hang out so we can do it... I can't though. I probably honestly would only cause he really really wants to and I just like sex. I'm not a whore though, only slept with 2 people before. It seems that I have a fixation with names beginning in A too. Alex, Andrew T, Drew [Andrew M], I have a little crush on Alex R, now Andrew D. What the hell is that?! Well I have nothing to do today. Just going to buy some new work clothes. So I will be back at some point.

Another night the cops are here. I need to get out of this house. I want nothing to do with these people, this town. He started beating down the door. I am mad sound like the worst child on earth not being home when something goes wrong. Why would I want to be home during this...again. Same thing last Sunday. I need to leave.

Alex(my last ex) told me while I was on vacation that he also still wanted to hook up, even after I was with Drew. [Story behind Drew. After me and Alex broke up I met Drew and we sort of hit it off. We spent every days together and every night until 12. We slept together once, but thought hey, lets not do it again cause we were both still in love with our ex's. After that we still messed around, he slept over. We were going to sleep together again but his shoulder which he hurt a while ago started acting up and like convulsing so we didn't.] Weird. I sort of have a crush on Alex R, but I dont know if its the same for me. We text sometimes and talk about getting together and how he wants to hook up, but he is a virgin and I don't want to get into that unless he is really sure that is what he wants. It's crazy that I have a tiny crush on him. He is cute and fun to talk to. We talk for hours and hours during that day. Ah, but I don't know if he likes me so I can't really do anything lol. To be honest I really really want to have sex. Just throwing that out there.

Ah, it has been a glorious few days :] I went to the beach with Olivia yesterday, she got a terrible sunburn. We were there and we were sitting on our transformers blanket and she was yelling at a sea gull. Ontop of that it started to walk over towards us while we were eating cheese its and she says "Lindsey I'm scared! I'm scared!" and grabs the bag of cheese its and ducks behind me. It was so funny I almost peed my pants, literally. And then that splendid day ended with some iHop for dinner. Amazing.

Along with hanging out with Olivia, I hung out with a boy named Alex, how ironic. I met him through my friend Haley. So for a couple of weeks we have been talking, I never met him though. But turns out he is friends with Olivia and was in Hampton as well! So we hung out. He didn't talk much but afterwards he said it was cause his dad had been yelling at him. We are gunna hang out again soon, which is good cause he's pretty cute ;)

As of right now there are 3 boys who have told me in the past month that they want to sleep with me. Awkward. Alex (from the previous paragraph), Hector (also friends with Haley, he is peutro rican!), and Jake (goes to college in Boston so when school starts he wants to do it.) Oh boy. Hector was texting me today and was talking about how he wants to do it tomorrow. Of course I said no for multiple reasons. 1 being, the last person I slept with who wasn't my boyfriend turned out to be a HUGE prick. So now we has the idea that we will do it Tuesday after I get out of work. Hm, right.

Tomorrow I am off to the Berkshires for some college trips. I'm fairly excited.

Song of the day: I am not a whore- LMFAO