Adrian's List Para Mi: 1. Cameron 2. Ryan 3. Sean 4. Mason 5. Cainen 6. Keagan (eww..) 7. Matt C - My additions - 8. Matthew (from Leon) 9. Taylor (??) 10. Cory (??) 11. Caleb (??) My List Para Mi Tambien.. {{But it's more me->them}}: 1. Cameron 2. Ryan 3. Cory 4. Caleb Wow.. I am so lame.. this sucks. Oh Geez. And I am texting Ryan and he is having girl problems as usual.. So I asked him which girls were giving him grief now.. and he replyed "-someone- &laura" OMG.. I wonder who that someone is. Is it wrong to wish it were me? I am so screwed up.. But then he goes on to say they only want his junk {{haha..}} Definately not me.. :] And me and Austin are text hubby/wifey lol haha.. that kid is hillarious. Ok I'm done Adrian will come later.

Ok. So this week has been pretty crazy.. For one we have ITEDs. Bleh. And we won our game last night :] After the game I was talking with some kids from Leon who were talking with Sean, so I was just hanging out with them. One of them had tried to wave at me earlier and so our conversation started out on that topic. Anywho.. this one kid was trying to flip my cell phone closed while I was texting Cory and Cameron and then when he was about to leave he asked me for my number! So I gave it to him and got his as well.. his name is Matthew. And he's kinda a choad haha.. But it was really funny. But wow. Kirstie was being the biggest bitch ever. It pissed me off so much. I was with Caleb and Cory pretty much the whole night til Cameron showed up at the beginning of the boy's game (he had tae kwan do). And Cory just broke up with her on Monday at the JV game. So she was texting me from Brady's phone.. She said "Wow Rosemary you really know how to make a person feel like shit." I didn't know it was her so I was like "Wtf??" And she said, "You're like glued to his hip ppl keep asking me where your bf is You always seem to get close to my ex's" I was like, "Well I'm sorry if my having friends bothers you but I'm with Caleb right now if you havent noticed he's really upset right now and Cory is here cuz hes friends with him too." So yeah. And now Cory is kinda pissed and thinks shes a bitch pretty much. Which she was being. I mean, yeah I know she's still in love with him but were friends. And I told her "You know I'm in love with Cameron and I wouldnt do that to you anyway." Geez.. what is this whole thing with people not trusting their friends?? Honestly. And I know what I said in my last entry but I really don't feel that way about either of them. Maybe Cory still a little bit. But I'm beginning to understand that me and Ryan are only friends.. no matter how deep I read into his actions. Cuz I'm lame like that haha.. And Mason keeps telling me to break up with "Cam-Cam". Ha. Like that will happen any time soon. Sorry Mason. He's such a loveable dork but he's just my friend. And so is Sean. Who's talking to me again. Not stalking, just talking. It's a good thing. Ok.. I was going to say something else but I can't really remember.. Hmm.. crazy Rosemary. Oh. Well another good thing is that we went to see the neurologist on Monday and they gave me medication which seems to be helping a lot. My back didnt hurt when I got out of bed this morning :] Happy days are here again hey! Haha.. yeah I'm weird. Oh, and when I write again, remind me to tell you about Adrian's dumbness and other randomness. I have to go now.. Wow, another long entry haha.. Peace.

Today.. I was fried. Emotionally so. I don't even know what to think about what I think anymore. I think I like three guys. Oh yes, Rosemary what's new.. You always have some guy you like. Don't get me wrong. I'm not some pretty preppy princess type whos terminally boy crazy {{I kinda don't like those ppl}}. But what sucks is that: 1. I've liked Ryan for two years and STILL can't get over him even though 2. I'm dating Cameron {{and have had two other boyfriends before him; neither of which were Ryan, and one of which I have many regrets with.. :\}}, but yet that doesn't stop me from 3. Liking Cory, who is dating my best friend. But I'm not even sure about the last. Although it seems like it.. We were talking last night, Cordell and I. About pretty much everything. First we talked about my problem with Ryan.. And he really related. I said something about liking attention from guys way too much and thinking that was most of the problem. Seeing as I have a really bad habit of being a flirt and leading guys on. {{Except I didn't say that last part}} Anywho, He said he related to that. He's dating Kirstie but thinks he likes Yvette. And as long as I'm being stark honest, it really disappointed me. I wanted to be her. But I spose he wouldn't really tell me if he did.. Haha. And I know he likes Tacy cuz of their little "date" the other night. Well anyways.. we were talking about how he's an amazng chef and I told him "Well I'm jelous.. you'll have to make me something sometime." And he said "I'll make you some sugar cookies." So then I accused him of trying to make me fat {{haha}} and he said "You're all skin and bones." Then he's like "You have one of the best bodies in the school. If you don't mind me saying." Bah! Cory you can't say those kinds of things to me.. And then I think he might invite me to prom. Which would be cool. Cuz then maybe he can finally take me to a party. :D Like he says he will. And then make sure I don't get drunk.. ?? Well wheres the fun in that?? He said he would stay sober cuz he wouldn't want to "try to make a move on me". Ha.. That made me laugh. And wonder.. What would it be like if I kissed Cory? Wow. Bad Rosemary. >.< My mind is officially screwed up. Screwed over. And holy poop I sound emo. Haha.. I'm totally not. Like the exact opposite. Theres just so much going through my head at the moment. Like the whole Ryan thing. I think I read into his actions way too much.. but I don't know how to stop the way I think. I dunno.. you decide: 1. He stole Christopher's iPod last week when we were in the library. When he went to give it back to her {{we were sitting Ryan, Me, Christopher. I was in the middle. See?}}, he put his left hand on my shoulder and reached around behind me with his right arm to put it back on the table beside her. 2. Well, first off, before that, he chose to sit next to me. He could've sat next to Spencer or at the end of the other row of computers. 3. He talks to me all the time during Mrs. Berdnt's class. When he's playing a game, he'll be all "Oh this game is really hard" or "This level is really hard." And then I'll end up rolling my chair closer to him to watch him play and we'll just sit like that. Or sometimes he'll watch me play a game. But yeah. 4. He plays the same songs over and over.. and I know this sounds rediculous but I feel like their messages to me. Songs in question: Everything I Want - The Maine All I Want - Staind Ok I have to get off so I'll continue my ramble at a later date.. So much to say.. Meh. Peace.