I am SO SICK of not being able to work. It sucks.. I can't save money to go to college and get a car.. and thats only 2 years away. I can only babysit the devil's child in the summer.. thats about it. And that will prolly end after this summer cuz taylor's in 2nd grade. Or will be.. dunno. I was just thinking tonight how much I miss Ludlow's and working there with everyone.. (Gary and Teddy.. :[) and how audrey gets to work. She will be able to save up money. She can afford to spend a little here and there. I can't. I have like no money. I had to get rid of my phone. I have to rely on mom and dad to buy my clothes for me, therefore have to wear what they want me to wear. No cute underwear cuz my mom only knows of the exsitance of hanes. It's just so frustrating. Why did this happen to me?? Why do I have to have a bum back?? Why can't God just fix it?? I've learned my lesson.. Not to take a lot of simple things for granted. Like walking and running. Playing my piano. Watching a basketball game in the gym. Excersizing. Working at Ludlow's. Sitting in a chair. Bending over to get my books. Popping my back. It just sucks and I want it to just go away and never come back. Even though the epideral fixed it, we don't know how long it will last. I might have to get another one. Which would suck cuz I had nightmares for like a week after the other one. When I layed in bed that night, it felt like the needle was still in my back. I cried for hours after it was over. The anisthetic didnt work. It felt like my back was on fire when they inserted the needle, and when they injected the actual steroid in my back, the pressure was so bad it felt like someone was pushing on my spine, trying to break it in two. God, why don't You fix it? I don't understand why I have to go through all this. It's affecting my whole life and my future! Why did this have to happen to me? I know You are all powerful and have a plan for my life but I don't understand why this is a part of it. I'm so worried about college that I feel physically ill. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Peace.

April and 10 degrees.. *shakes head* ok so maybe not quite.. exaggeration. My grandpa won a public election! He's Township Trustee :D So thats kinda cool. And they're coming down on friday for Easter break. And I might get to go to Seymour with Caleb and Cory on friday.. but I dunno yet. OMG four entries in one day.. reason = spawn of bordem I think I have to get off now. Most likely go practice piano. Or not.. daddy's sleeping. meh I'm out Peace.

Today is kirsties birthday. So just for her I wrote 3 posts.. [she doesnt even know about.. bahaha] sighh.. cory is sparring at a gym in russel tonight with spencer and people.. meh. i wish he wouldnt fight but if thats what he wants then i guess.. go for it. but still.. i dont want him hurt. :\

Hi adrian. hi how are you? friggin bored me too :D i wanna go home.. and my teeth feel funny :\ thats cuz.. NO BRACES! bahaha no shit sherlock :[ i like this song shut up about my spelling i dont it sucks balls XP :[ the postal service is amazing. but iron and wines cover is better wine not whine rosemary cant spell i lol'd ok, adrian elizabitch bahaha!!!! >:] im bored.. so sue me X| well.. *checks phone* at least my boyfriend can spell my last name spell not smell bitch LMAO Fail Oh geez.. this is why i got a 63 on ITEDS lmao shush you your skipping my part of the convo >:[ shush you again.. yes apparently it didnt work the first time tiiiimmmmmeh .. wtf?? your "spesh" maybe your spech rosemary myabe?? wtf.. GAHHHHH!!!!!! D: ok bye now. byt? NO bye. XP

Ok. So audrey always says she can't ever trust anyone. Except me (usually). But yesterday she was talking with amy about something in the locker rooms. And she always says nicki is more like a sister than jalynn was.. HELLO????? IM her sister. Not jalynn or nicki. I miss the times when we would just stay up til 2 and talk for ages.. and soon shell be gone. So I wont be able to spend nights in her room with her anymore, or eat at ludlows together, or go cruising. It makes me sad.. but she never talks to me. She always tells me to go away. Were sisters.. thats beyond best friends. But it doesnt seem like it anymore. and whenever she talks to me its always so bitchy.. sigh.. im going to miss her so much.. wow i feel like crying :[ Ok.. now ill be in such a great mood for the rest of the day.. *sarcasm* Anywho.. better get back to web design.. Ehn.. Peace.

So.. I have a bruise on my face from last night. Audrey and taylor and i were sitting at the table eating ice cream/cookies/lanagna and taylor was trying to say something.. But audrey was like "NO dont say it!" So I was telling him to tell me (curious.. can you blame me?? :]) So Audrey threw the bottle of parmesan cheese at me and hit me in the jaw. And it hurt. So then I was pissed - wouldnt you be?? - but she acted like I had no reason to be. I had a friggin bruise! And it hurt like a bitch.. So then I was pissed at her.. Gah. Older sisters. >.< And our track meet got post-poned.. meh. Its snowing.. I just want winter to leave. Like, I like snow around Christmas and stuff, and new years.. But after that its like "Ok you can go now, Winter. See you next Christmas." I think I'm cold intolerant. At least Im not alergic to it like Justin is. :P Peace.

OMG 3 No.. 4 posts in one day :O Gah.. ok so while i have this 4th post going.. the word SAW does not have an L at the end It is SAW not SAWL And CREEK not CRICK a crick is what you get in your neck. Duh. And also.. MISSOUR-EE Not MISSOUR-UH Ok.. end of rant. Refreshing, isn't it :] And sorry if I offended anyone :P Ok Done. Peace.

Hmm.. So I'm debating whether or not to make my journal private. I honestly wouldnt really care.. but Kirstie is making an account now.. and cameron - oh, sorry, i meant lenny :P - has one.. and that would be bad if they saw it. Meh.. Indecisiveness.. :\

hi lenny what im sorry about your shoo.. truce? truce but what did i ever do to you you were being a jerk.. you threatened to give me a dead leg punched me in the knee put me in a headlock called me a failure numerous times.. need i go on?? no i sorry buddy so now i know april fools!!!! haha no i didnt :[ r u sure u did get a 63 5159on it5065e0ds yes :P im not dumb r u suure ok this thread is ending now goodbye

Ahh.. no school. We are here, but not here. :P Brain bowl meet is home today. And.. hello cameron. Or should I say Lenny. Your a jerk bahaha.. and... you smell shut up i got a 63 on spelling :P Like poop you smell like poop no its not good. and PR SUCKS DICK!!!!!! bahaha no its not your turn no go away..rgbh no cuz i said so lmao dylexia and sucklike i mean dyslexia shut up.. i got a 643 yes 643 bahaha ouch nonono5 noo no were having too much fun you sound like a constipated cow lmao and just then you sounded mexican :Pno not your turn