i had a dream last night that Brandon Flowers was trying to sleep with me. if, in the middle of a dream like that, you're thinking 'what about Adam?' then i think we're pretty sure it's love. and i think THE KILLERS OBSSESSION IS BACK, PEOPLE got Sam's Town turned up LOUD (: i wonder if i can dance with Laura and Geo again now? except.. they probably don't like the Killers anymore. we used to be hardcore obssessed with shit like Pokemon and The Killers, 'cause we were so cool.. now it's Digimon, and Boys Like Girls or whatever. Boys Like Girls, 'The Great Escape'. that's their song. Laura, Spo and Geo. i would've liked that song, but i cant 'cause Spo got there first. we used to be an amazing trio, TD, Geo and Laura. they're still an amazing trio. Laura, Geo and Spo. TD was an asshole.. she abandoned them for her 'real' friends. don't she remember when those two were her only friends, and more real to her than anyone she knew? guess not. as i say, she's kind of an asshole. so they replaced her with her sister. (replaced her favourite band with her sister's, too) but to be honest, Spo's better company (online), so wouldn't you have done the same? speaking of Pokemon reminds me of yesterday. Lee had his DS, 'cause he's the coolest, and he'd actually ditched Kage to play Pokemon! shocking. Adam got urges to play Pokemon too. "Pokemon's amazing.. i'd ditch my girlfriend for Pokemon too C:" i was like "D:

aaahh feel like screaming at a certain someone. (: it's always a good day to scream at that tosser. well i heard some news today. turns out he still ain't over HER! i mean jesus man. how many other girls have you slit over since then? a year and a fucking half. can't name names 'cause i swore i'd tell no one. come ON kid. stop REGRETTING everything. get OVER some shit. maybe.. thats why you screw the rest of us over? 'cause this other girl actually asked him out, omg shock horror. i think in another time, another place, i may have seen it coming. he sure did. but he still dont know what to say, 'cause apparently every answer makes him a liar. his mind is fucked up me + Adam were just 'FFS SAY YES DICKWAD.' or words to said effect anyway. felt like being spiteful. like saying 'or are you just gonna fuck her around for another month or so?' but i didn't. 'cause tbh Kirsty had already pissed him off oh that kids a legend. she asked him 'so why did you say Laura was desperate?' and he's like 'ffs that was over WEEKS ago' no, it wasn't and its a damn good question. just 'cause YOU are? just 'cause YOU can't get anyone? though we have just proved that evidently you can. is it 'cause.. it's not YOU any more? does it hurt, it not being YOU i follow around and take every word of to heart anymore? do you want to get over yourself anytime soon? i sure did, a hell of a long time ago. and you don't understand this concept of GETTING OVER PEOPLE. fuck sake man its called happiness anyway where were we? ah yes. your gonna fuck her around for another month, you self-absorbed cunt. even though karma already screwed you over for that ahahaa and i used to hate myself for that well LOL to that. you deserved everything you got. hm. it feels nice, not giving a shit about that tosser anymore. i miss Adam like fuck. i'm wearing his hoodie. tomorrow cant come soon enough. argh fucking hell Spo's having another sleepover tomorrow LOL if they skank my digi cam to take soft child porn pics again i'll have beef with the cunts haha. Mum says i could go round Adam's a bit after tae kwon-do if i didnt want to be hanging round Spo and Chloe.. how about you let me stay round Adam's all night? :D :D :D there's a plan. i already have lol. she thought i was at Danii's. that was a good night. arent i a rebel. i miss that guy..

Song #1: Shape Cutting Catalyst (Swarm Remix) - Glamour For Better Your favorite lyric from this song: big up my kingdom, big up my scene, boys and girls yeah you know me Does this song have any bad memories attached? i played it a lot through the winter.. and those were some serious bad times. What genre is this? techno. Song #2: Of Confidence - The Dangerous Summer What's the last line of this song? oh these are the lies that will keep us here. Have you ever seen this artist live? no Who does this song make you think of? Ben, the cunt. Number 3: Down Rodeo - Rage Against The Machine What's the first line of this song? i cant understand it. havent listened to it enough. Where did you first hear this song? when my friend lent me the CD its on. i dont like it. How about the first time you heard the artist? ^ Song #4: Walking Forward With Determination - Motoi Sakuraba Which friend could this be a theme tune for and why? no idea. im the only one id trust with thoughts about my Motoi Sakuraba shit. oh so maybe Adam. he'd listen to my shit. basically to me its about leaving stuff behind and taking an adventure. Adam's the only one i'd really have with me on that. Write down the chorus: no lyrics. Why do you like this song? its from my favourite video game of all time. it inspires me. Song #5: Rules - The Hoosiers What kind of film would you choose this as the theme for? a rom-com. Who introduced you to this artist? the media. Best part of this song: hooky melody. Song #6: Points Of Authority - Linkin Park The fourth line reads: Cover up your face How long is this song? 3:20 Is it one of your favourites? Yeah. i love this album. Song #7: Rush - UVERworld How long have you been listening to this artist? ive been listening to this one song by them since before everything, but i only downloaded their album a week or two ago. What's the cover look like on the album this came from? i dont know, i dont have the cover art. What's this song about? ive no idea. its in Japanese. Has your favourite song come up? no.

i love starting new journals. new start, new chapter to my life. wonder where this one will end? the weekend just gone was amazing. because i spent it with the first guy who didnt pretend i didnt happen in the morning. (: im not going to see him at all this week.. i mean i miss him already. im gonna be well shitty by friday. D: and we've only been together a week. (: i was a bit dubious at first.. like im too used to the single life. him being my first boyriend and all. but now.. its amazing. he makes me feel amazing. and i can finally forget about all the shit the others put me through last winter. maybe i should start writing lyrics again? and put them on here. (: all my old lyrics were about jealousy and being unrequited.. they'd started to turn bad. the last songs i wrote were all about wrecking yourself. but i dont feel i have to do that anymore.. thanks to him. (: maybe i should write something for him.. this week is gonna be shit, but its ok cause next week is gonna be amazing (: (: