I desperately need someone's help right about now. It's not a crisis by any means, I just need someone to help me think of a storyline or plot for a short story because my boyfriend wants me to write him a story for our sixth month anniversary that is coming up on Monday. I can't think of anything! I'd appreciate any input! Thank you. "Two Is Better Than One" by Boys Like Girls featuring Taylor Swift

School is almost done. My last day is on the 29th, and i'm so excited. This school year has sucked so much more than any other school year has. My best friend got her first boyfriend, I lost my first potential boyfriend, 3 of my best friends went to prom. Just a lot of really crappy things, and actually waking up EVERY morning for school just makes it worse. C still talks to me! ;) He's started texting me first more often and that makes me so happy. Yes I realize it's pathetic that that makes me happy. lol. He really does make me happy, he doesn't know it though. Hmmm... Well, I'm done talking. Song:"Feel This" by Bethany Joy Galeotti

So, I'm pretty bored. I'm in class and I have nothing to do. School gets out in about 14 and a half school days (Monday-Friday). I'm pretty excited about that. I'm just gonna miss all the Seniors. They're all pretty cool. It's the Juniors that I hate. They all think they're hot shit just b/c they're ONE year older than the Sophomores (I'm a Sophomore). It pisses me off. They yell at us in the hall and do stupid shit like that. Oh well, I guess the Sophomores next year will feel the same way about my class. So, C and I are still talking, but we're still not dating. That makes me crazy. Well, my stupid teacher is coming, so I gotta get off the computer. Song: "Realize" by Colbie Caillat

This is so cool. I didn't know I could get on here from school. AMAZING! So, I'm pretty damn bored. There's nothing to do. School gets out in like 30 minutes and I'm so fucking bored. OMG I just felt a vibration (get your minds outta the gutter). It's C!! He and I have been texting on and off for the whole day. He's still acting kinda weird about something and it's killing me that IDK what it is. Damn! Well I don't have anything to say.... Sorry people I know you're disappointed in me. You won't get to read about my interesting life (yeah right). Well I'm gonna get the fuck off here b/c I'm gonna read. Yes, I said "read". Contrary to popular belief, I DO read. Song:"Cold As You" by Taylor Swift

I wanna do a quiz. I see one on almost everyone's journal. I'll probably do another one later. Initials: B.I. Hair Color: Brown and Black.. ew Hair Length: Medium and STRAIGHT Eye Color: Brown Height: 5'4 (I might be stretching it a little) Skin Color: Tan Piercings: Two in each ear and when I get skinnier, I'll get my belly button pierced Music: Pretty much anything EXCEPT jazz, and classical. I HATE shit like that! Boring! Top 10 favorite songs: Conspiracy-Paramore Hollywood's Not America-Ferras Hold The Door-Armor For Sleep Dear Maria,Count Me In-All Time Low Sorrow-Flyleaf Franklin-Paramore We Are Broken-Paramore How To Save A Life-The Fray Picture To Burn-Taylor Swift Wasted-Carrie Underwood Favorite things to do: Text and read. Favorite sport: Softball, I used to play, but quit b/c a dumbass cavewoman on the team. I LOVE baseball. Guys in tight sportswear attracts me, what can I say?! Been in love?: IDK, i guess so Did that person love you back?: Hell no!:( Damn him!!!! Ugh, next question Ever had sex?: Nope, I wish Okay, Je suis finis. Ha! I love french!

I am once again being consumed with sadness. I haven't texted C all day and I'm trying to keep myself busy so I won't text him. I'm hoping that he'll text me first, but that's not likely. He's a guy, they're stupid sometimes... Wait-all the time. Next week H, F, V, and I are going to see "Prom Night". That movie looks great. In a way I'm hoping that F will get so scared that she won't go to the prom with her dumbass boyfriend. I've been trying to talk C into going to see that movie with me, but so far he still says "no" b/c he doesn't like to go to the movies. Bullshit! I really don't know what to do. I was reading a pamphlet last night on depression. I have most of the symptoms. Hmmmmm....... What would my friends think if I told them I have depression? Well I can't tell them that b/c I don't honestly know if I have it. In a way I kinda hope I do b/c I would know why I haven't been able to get out of bed lately, why I've been neglecting my schoolwork, not been hanging out with my friends as often, and more shit that I won't get into right now. The only time I don't feel sad/angry/hopeless is when I'm reading. In the past week I've read "Looking For JJ", "Skinny", "Thirteen Reasons Why", "What Happened to Cass McBride", "Smack", and "Doing It". This is gonna sound really cheesy, but here it goes: reading takes me to a different world. A world where I'm too busy getting to know other characters and dealing with their problems to deal with my own... I love reading. I've recently decided to be a writer. I think I'll write teen books, but who knows? Song: "Hold On" by Good Charlotte

Okay here are my updates. Still no boyfriend, don't have my license, still "just friends" with the guy that broke my heart (we talk every day), being stalked by a weird boob obsessed junior, madly in love with the guy that broke my heart, not going to prom, going to after prom, slowly dying from sadness... Now that I've updated everyone I'm gonna tell a story. I really don't like my geometry teacher. He annoys the hell out of me. When he talks, I tune him out and use the "ipod" in my head to 'listen" to music. It's mostly Paramore, Flyleaf, Meg and Dia, and Ferras. (Yes, I know. Extremely random choices). Then when I do listen to him (rarely), I picture him tripping in front of the class and his foot ending up in his eye. I really don't like him. I guess he broke his nose yesterday. When I heard that, I couldn't stop laughing. ;) My friend, F. is dating a senior. He's like robbing the cradle. He's 18, she's 15! Ew! He's not even cute. And he treats her like shit. I really don't like him. Actually, none of my friends like him. He broke her heart 2 weeks ago, and now they're making out in the hallway. It's totally unfair. C broke my heart a little more than a month ago, and we're still "just friends". C wants to kill the boob obsessed guy. Here's why: J (boob guy) carried me through the gym a few days ago. Then (the same day), put me on the wrestling mats and told me to have sex with him. I told C. That made him angry (but he doesn't like me except in a "friend" way...BULLSHIT). Next class period with J; he carries me to the mats after class again and lays ON TOP of me. Holy shit, I freaked out! I immediately told C and he was not a happy camper. That made me feel good. He cares about me, no one cares about me. I love that he cares about me. C wants me to get J to text him so he (C) can kick his ass tomorrow. Oh, C might have an STD. God, why is everything so screwed up? C and I were talking about having sex and now this comes up. His ex called him and told him that she was positive, and then she started blaming him. He got tested a few weeks ago. This might sound really stupid and really weird, but I still want to have sex with him. It's probably not my best idea. Losing my virginity to the guy that wants to be "just friends". But I really trust him. Yeah, he broke my heart, but he cares about me.... Now there are 2 things that are keeping me from being "with" him. 1. He might have an STD. 2. F and I made a deal that we would both "contain our hormones" (her words, not mine) until college,and then we can get with whatever guys we want. Here's the problem with that deal: I really want to be with C. He said he would have sex with me. I NEVER thought any guy would say that to me.......... WOW Okay, I'm now emotionally drained. I'll write later Song: "No Air" by Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown

It's my birthday today. At 12:00 AM all of my friends started texting me happy birthday. At 1-something PM, I texted the guy that I like (the one that just wants to be friends now) and put in all capitals "HA HA! IM 16. IM JUST AS OLD AS YOU NOW!" He thought that was funny. And then we started "arguing" about how I'm not as old as he is b/c he's a week and 3 days older than me. It was great. That's all I have to say. SWEET SIXTEEN! :) Song:"This Is My Now" by Jordin Sparks

I don't have anything to write about tonight. It's sad, isn't it? Yeah, right. So, I'm just gonna type. One Tree Hill was amazing. I'm in love with Chad Michael Murray! This episode was good, but I wanted Peyton and Lindsey (sp?) to stay enemies. Guess I can't always get what I want. American Idol was just okay, but when David Archuleta came on (AHHHHH. That's the unmistakeable sound of angels singing). Wow, that cutie can sing! I don't think any of the other guys are really worth being on AI this season, but that's just one girl's opinion. So, I've been reading a lot lately. It's not that I don't read, b/c I love to read, but I just couldn't find anything worth reading until I went to Barnes and Noble on Sunday. I spent $51.48 on four books! How stupid is that? I bought "The Burn Journals", "I Don't Want To Be Crazy", "Tweak", and "Cut". I finished "The Burn Journals" and "Cut" already. Wow! "The Burn Journals" was absolutely moving. And so was "Cut". As of now, I'm working on reading "I Don't Want To Be Crazy". Well, I'm about to go to sleep b/c I don't have anything else to do. Aloha! :) Song: "When You Look Me In the Eyes" by The Jonas Brothers

im going to enter a writing contest. im so excited about it. i texted the guy for the first time in 3 days. the last time i texted him, he was drunk. IDIOT! i try not to care about him the way that i do, but i can't help it. i did something really stupid yesterday. im not gonna go into any details, but let's just say that im in deep crap for it. Song: "Never Alone" by Barlowgirl