School pretty much sucked today. My so-called-friend, Marie, has taken another one of my crushes again. It's so ridiculous. I told her that I liked him and the next day, she's saying he's sexy and stuff like that. That was fine b/c I'm not dating him and I know he's not interested in me. Last night I found out from one of my real friends that she was texting him all night. I called her and asked her how she was, then I eased into the real reason why I called. I said "so, how did you get his number?" She told me that she went onto Facebook the day I told her that I liked him and she added herself to his friends list. Then, she copied his number down from that page and started to text him! They talked for 3 hours, probably about nothing. How rude, mean-spirited, evil, and cruel is that?! I would NEVER in a million years, do that to her. Not only is she a ho, she pretends to be clueless. She wears shirts that leave nothing to the imagination and she doesn't even have anything to show off. Then, when people start throwing things down her shirts, she whines and complains and yells, but she loves it. She gets this stupid smile on her face and she just starts glowing. It's sickening. So, needless to say, I'm refusing to talk to her from now on. I'm tired of her hitting on guys 2 seconds after I tell her that I like a certain guy. Song: "Untitled" by Simple Plan

Lately I've been feeling really crappy about myself and everyone around me. I've started taking my anger out on the people that care most about me and it SUCKS!!!! I've also thought that there's no way for me to ever feel good or normal again. I thought about doing something that isn't good. Then, I found the song "Much Like Falling" by Flyleaf. That song made me reconsider what I was going to do. I still think about it, but I listen to that song and I realize that no matter how hopeless life seems, I can get through it.