how dare you talk shit behind my back then confront me like nothings happened. i see you snickering and whispering to every one of my friends so they can turn their back on me like you did. i hate how you hurt me and i hate how i just take it. i hate how you make me cry when i know thats what you wanted all along. i hate that i feel like an outcast and you have everything your heart desires. i hate that i succeed in everything i dont want to pursue and fail at things i desperately want. i hate that your so beautiful. i hate that i feel so alone all time even if i'm around my closest friends i hate how i cant read people's minds i hate how i cant just fast forward through my life so i can see how my life progresses and how many bucks per hour you make with your prositution i hate that im the only person going insane at my school i hate how nothing ever goes my way i hate how i let peopl walk all over me i hate how my mother thinks i need to go to a therapist i hate how my life has been plumeting downhill and no one cares enough to help me up i hate the scars that are evident everytime i lift my sleeve i hate others pain even when im in much deeper shit i hate this town and i feel sorry for every person, creature, shopping mall, plant, vehicle, home, and inatimate object that is stuck here with me while i bitch and moan i hate how long this list has gotten

you cant trust anyone ever. i can usually read people's faces but shes so fake that i cant see past her layers of make up. she's trash. why can't people get over their ignorance and pride? a guy put a bible in my locker today and everyone thinks im athiest. so fucking what? what if i am? will you suffocate my unholy body into a pool of christianity where you brainwash me to, take away my opinions, and have me join your sick cult? i hate society today. if 75% of the population was athiest i promise you all these christians would give up all the shit their taught because they are prejudice and hypocrites. christianity used to be about love but now all they want is more people to enter the religion so they'll have enough money to pay for all their state of the art music players and indoor pools but of course they are for being babtised. yeah fucking right. now even nonconformity is conformity because being a rebel is cool

the kite runners is seriously the best movie ever :] i need to read the book soon. Well my day was boring BUT i officially have almost every say anything song (85 works of genuius) and i will begin to memorize every single word so i will be well prepared to scream my lungs out in April. =D hmm facts? bullet: uneventful lives are probably better than a life in afghanistan when russian invaded the country. bullet: there is a movie called tooth where a chick has teeth in her vagina! :P bullet: i had 15 peices of shrimp today. and am prepared to call my self a big fat blob monster bullet: yesterday i walked arond my block over 8x bullet: im pretty sure i have a slight case of OCD bullet: blonde 4 year olds adore me

my day was as bad as i predicted. but whatever i was able to drain out the slurping noises with my i-pod because we couldnt see untraceable cause we got caught sneaking in and decided to see 27 dresses. (which sucked so bad) the only thing that makes me feel better is say anything Know that I need you I want you I'm dying for you Here in my heart where my veins are combusting for you All that I've learned I'm learning I'm falling for you now is that not the cutest thing you have ever read? it came from max bamis's amazing jewish mind. that i will see on April 8th when i go to their concert. maybe he'll sweat on me!!

im gonna see untraceable today. julia, kasey, amy, and me. i feel nautious when i watch julia and kasey hold hands and do other couple like things. not because i find intimacy gross or anything its just im so sad that im not as happy as they are. humph i kinda dont want to go only because i cant stand to watch it :[ but making amy have to endure it by herself would be cruel.

will i be lonely and single forever? :'[

JAK...AK it started as a club. me and my two good friends we thoguht we were the coolest kids ever for making up a group that symbolized the first letters of each of our names. Then over time A and K joined our clan and we became JAKAK. but they leave. Soon J and K fall in love and im alone again highschools coming and my social life is diminishing. its all very sad

urbandictionary.com here i learned what a queef was, dirty sanchez, wanka, oxycotin, LSD, and many more. it has done wonders to up my perverted scale :P oxycottin is a song that never should have been released. it has filled childrens minds with drugs that they think are okay to abuse. makes me sick D: i want to be summer im so sick of school and drama.

your an arrogant bitch your opinions make no sense your a whore all you want out of life is attention you plan ahead even when you know it will never happen the way you had hoped you trample on other people's self esteem your bitch and moan even though your life is amazing you think everyone loves you when your probably one of the most disliked person at this school you try so hard to stand out but your just like everything that i know you never wanted to be what the fuck do you want from me? why dont i give up on you?

Hi, My name is ______. i am mildly depressed right now. i have haulucinations that no one knows about. im anxious 99.9% of the time. i worry way too much about everything and over compencate every situation. it seems like my life is a lot of fun but honestly it sucks. i've had an assortment of several friends in my lifetime. but ive never been able to keep one for more than like a year and a half. i like to be alone sometimes even though i hardly ever am. im easily irritated but not in public. in public i handle every situation but inside im slowly breaking one day i will snap and all the people who think they know me will be strongly mistaken. my fear is listening to myself breath it scares the living shit out of me. im afraid ill be single for the rest of my life and will never have anyone permanetly in my life because as soon as we get too close either i run away or the other person. makes me extremely sad. anyways i have a major jealousy problem. im jealous of people who are genuinly happy with their lives since i dont think ive been truely happy since elementary school. drugs also scare me. im worried ill make the wrong descision in life and end up doing drugs and fucking up the life plan i made for myself. im going to start over in highschool next year. and i hope a defy others misconceptions of me.