I've been stuck in this weird christmas mood all day. Its really strange. Maybe I should stop listening to a bunch of Christmas songs. That probably would do the trick. I just really like them. I'm in more of a christmas mood now than I was at christmas. How pathetic.

ABC of Me The Letter A Are you available?: suree What is your age?: 14 What annoys you?: people who are overly hyper all the time. The Letter B Do you live in a big house?: big enough for me When is your birthday?: July 5th Who is your best friend?: Mango Tango The Letter C What's your favorite candy?: Jolly Ranchers Who's your crush?: A certain someone....jk! When was the last time you cried?: Like yesterday morning The Letter D Do you daydream?: all the time What's your favorite kind of dog?: stuffed ones What day of the week is it?: wednesday The Letter E How do you like your eggs?: on sandwiches Have you ever been in the emergency room?: yeah What's the easiest thing ever to do?: sleep The Letter F Have you ever flown in a plane?: no. Do you use fly swatters?: yeah Have you ever used a foghorn?: no....i want one The Letter G Do you chew gum?: suree doo Are you a giver or a taker?: eh. Do you like gummy candies?: some The Letter H How are you?: pretty good What color is your hair?: brown red The Letter I What's your favorite ice cream?: chocolate chip cookie dough. Have you ever ice skated?: yes, and I fell on my butt. Do you play an instrument?: French Horn! :D The Letter J What's your favorite jelly bean brand?: none Do you wear jewelry?: yep, I can't leave home without my hoops The Letter K Who do you want to kill?: nobody Do you want kids?: yep seven. lol Where did you go for kindergarten?: Central The Letter L Are you laid back?: I can be alittle high strung Do you lie?: would you believe me if I said yes? The Letter M Whats your favorite movie?: Memoirs of a Geisha Do you still watch Disney movies?: Suree do! Do you like mangos?: Yes, I love mango! The Letter N Do you have a nickname?: Yeppers What is your real name?: Peachy Keen Whats your favorite number?: don't really have one Do you prefer night over day?: can I pick mornings? The Letter O What's your one wish?: just one? gosh! Are you an only child?: only lonely me. The Letter P What one fear are you most paranoid about?: certain things. What are your pet peeves?: feet. I do not like feet. What's a personality trait you look for in people?: listening. The Letter Q What's your favorite quote?: Naruto: The third member of our team, Team Kakashi... is Sasuke! As for this guy, he's here to take up space while Sasuke is gone. I refuse to accept someone like him as a team member! Sai: Actually, I'd prefer it if things stayed that way. Sasuke betrayed Konoha and, despite the weakling that he is, ran off to serve Orochimaru only to gain power. He's worthless trash, like Orochimaru, so I hardly want to be associated with him. Naruto: You... [Sakura stops him from saying anything] Sakura: The captain is right. Teamwork is important. As for Naruto... Sai... since he doesn't know you all that, he probably did say a bit much. I apologize for him. Please forgive Naruto. Naruto: S-Sakura-chan... Yamato: Sigh... I'm glad at least one of you is somewhat tolerable. Sai: That's all right, I'm not offended as all. Sakura: [smiling] Really? That's good. [Sakura punches Sai and sends him flying] As for me... I don't want your forgiveness. Are you quick to judge people?: i try not to The Letter R Do you think you're always right?: hell no. Are you one to cry?: yeah, I'm the one who cries The Letter S Do you prefer sun or rain?: rain! rainy day! RAINY DAY! Do you like snow?: yeppers What's your favorite season?: Spring The Letter T What time is it?: 4:10 What time did you wake up?: dunno. 7:10 When was the last time you slept in a tent?: forever ago The Letter U Are you wearing underwear?: yeah. Underwear or boxers?: for a guy? or for me? The Letter V What's the worst veggie?: i like my veggies Where do you want to go on vacation?: Tokyo The Letter W What's your worst habit?: speaking before thinking Where do you live?: TXAS What's your worst fear?: being completly and utterly alone. The Letter X Have you ever had an x-ray?: yeppers Have you seen the x-games?: nope! Do you own a xylophone?: i wish. The Letter Y Do you like the color yellow?: sunshine! What's one thing you yearn for?: .... The Letter Z Whats your zodiac sign?: Leo baby! Do you believe in the zodiac?: No, but I do find it quite interesting. Favorite zoo animal?: Bengal Tiger

Last night I had another vivid nightmare. To me it felt even worse than the rapture one. The details are fuzzy and I would like them to stay fuzzy. I'd prefer not to remember what woke me up crying. I wish I didn't have such strange dreams, and such vivid nightmares. I've heard that dreams hold meanings. That they are things that we need to deal with thoughout the day. If that is true, what is the meaning to all of mine?

So today went well. I got alot of compliments on my hair. Which of course, always makes me feel super good. Although compared to Rain's haircut mine was minor. I loved how Rain's hair looks now. At first glance it was alittle shocking, But it looks good and it brings her up a level. Thats not necessarily the correct wording, what I'm trying to say is it makes her look more mature. Less of a silly goofy Rain, and more of a professional Rain. Not that she needs to be Professional. It did upset me the way Candyland reacted though. In fact I never noticed it before, but alot of the things she does annoys me. I think it was really rude though how obvious she acted. When she was talking about how she dosen't like Rain's hair. Oh well not much I can do, well about that anyway. Nor can I get Farmboy to pay me back. He forgot.....again. I'm afraid I'll never get my dollar back from that kid. Even if he is 'freakin amazinly incredibly good looking.' I kinda sorta want my dollar. Do you know how many pieces of bubblegum I can buy with that? As long as we're speaking of Farmboy... Everytime Ame says something about him, I have to remind myself she dosen't like him. Since she suree sounds like she does. She likes his personality, his brains, and his looks. Ame thinks he'd look "smokin' hot" with black hair. I thought about how maybe she did like him, and she just denies it cause he's a whiteboy. Then I was like nah. She just thinks of him as a friend. A good looking friend. A "freakin amazinly incredibly good looking" friend. Thats all. Not that I don't think he is good looking. He is quite gorgeous. I just don't bring it up as often. You know who else is a good looking blonde? Brennan. Although I know Ame dosen't think so. He is really cute. AND he plays guitar. AND piano. AND he writes songs. AND he is in percussion. [I don't know what it is with me and guys in percussion.] Which is by the way why I mentioned the acoustic guitar. Although I really have been listen to acoustic guitar lately. STAND is going well. I think it really stresses Nessa out though. Everyone basically knows everyone So the talking can get a bit out of hand. I'm going to be helping with the Walking Dead. We will be taking people out of classes during STAND week. Then we will paint their faces and they won't talk for the rest of the day. Its going to be pretty much amazing. So BB is back at school today. He was out with some toe thing. ew. I'm glad he is back though. Well I'm all typed out so peace.

So my new haircut is the shizz, I'm so happy. :D

"I drift away to a place Another kind of life Take away the pain I create my paradise Everything I’ve held Has hit the wall What used to be yours Isn’t yours at all Falling apart, and all that I’m asking Is a crime, am I overreacting" Change is unavoidable. I should just accept that. The people I was close to, I'm not as close to. Its just so strange. Strawberry and I aren't as close. Although I saw it coming, the big hit was being taken off her Hero's section. Lately I've been hiding alot of insecuritys. And alot of...jealousy? Maybe thats the word. Sadly most of my jealousy is towards her. Its not unexpected though. Andi has always been where most of my jealousys sprout. I just feel so clumsey and ungraceful and stupid. Its ridculous of course but I still feel that way. I hate how I can think and think about what I want to say. And it never sounds like it. How I can't make that good impression to someone. I end up coming off as annoying or bitchy. Well, atleast I'm not a whore.

Yes, at first it does sound quite strange when you say it. But when I think of it, and yes I have thought of it, Its something that I can picture you saying. It makes me sad that he has to deal with all that. My mom, when she left, only left me for a few days. It hurt so much. I can't imagine what he has gone through. Although I can see why he would tell you this. Ame, your someone thats easy to talk to. You give off this like ~I'm an easy person to talk to~ vibe. Aaandd you listen before you speak. Which is something most people our age don't do very well. Nor do you go and tell everyone, everything you know. Which is DEFINITELY something people our age don't do well. Pretty Freaking Amazing. :D Oh, and he isn't gorgeous, but I will admit he is good looking.

If farmboy looks like Zac Effron does that mean he'd be hotter if he dyed his hair black? Cause farmboy isn't farmboy without his blonde hair. It would be interesting to see though. :] So guess what I'm listening to. Yup. Rakata. Oh yeah, that brings back some memories. Bye Ame!

All along, I was searching for my Lenore, And the words of Mr. Edgar Allan Poe. Now I'm sober and nevermore Will the Raven come to bother me. Well, most of the time. Today I found out something sad, and akward. My little cousin's dad did something wrong. Really wrong. Its scary. It really worries me that he could have done something to my little cousin. I pray to god he didn't. Yesterday I went to the Horn party. It was really fun. I wish Ame would have went though. She would have gotten annoyed with Kirsten though. I did. alot. Sometimes that girl needs to be smacked. I was also upset when I found out MP had a girlfriend. Ame dosen't think I should be upset. She thought I would think it was funny, but I'm upset. I don't know why. I just don't want him to have a girl. Its not because I like him, so it makes me confused. Today I was suppose to go to arkansas, but dad won't pick me up till tommorrow. I hope I'm not bothering him by spending christmas with him. Sometimes I feel like a bother. Like I'm holding him back or something. Or that could just be my nonsense.

Much much better. Today was nice. Andi talked to Allen today and worked everything out. I called her out on alot of the stuff she was doing and she stopped. I got to work with farmboy today during geography. It was nice. We had lots of power. :] I like this boy. Trouble number 3. He's kinda sorta awesome. :] Not that I would ever tell him that. MTcat gave me my present today. It was beautiful and really thoughtful. MTcat makes me smile so much.